This week has been eye opening for me I have already seen some difference’s already I have worked more and have been trying to get into the grove of the year I’ve been more tired and more active I’ve even worked out a couple of time’s. I am more proactive I am losing weight consistently and meeting new people my hope is to create consistent relationships that will allow me to feel what I need to feel in order to be in active and happy. I haven’t been in a relationship like this one before in my life it’s difficult to be or feel unloved by someone who is supposed to be your mate partner and friend who doesn’t believe in being consistent or loving to the person who has their back the most but he refuses to understand that because growing up in a loveless family makes you more likely to be a loveless person who doesn’t know how to create bonds that make life happy or bearable when you grow up in a loveless family more than likely become a contentious person who has no idea how to love someone fully I struggle with my inability to understand why he is the way he is or how to get a relationship that will be fulfilling and satisfiing to me. Well I’m off from work today because there’s no school and I am relaxing and working out but also I’m working on implementing things that will be beneficial to not just my life but the lives of those that I love. Happy Friday and enjoy this wonderful Martin Luther King weekend.