Author: L Corelle Green
Going to universal Orlando
Today I’m going to universal Orlando horror nights I won the tickets on my favorite radio station 93.3 The beat jamz and I’m really happy about that I always enjoy winning things on the radio especially when listening to #Teeroy so when I get back I will give you guys a complete update with pictures of how it went hopefully
My heart rate
I always have a fast heart rate sometimes I can feel it in my chest and my throat to the point that I’m use to it beating out of control like this but times like now when it hinders me from doing things to help me gets frustrating.
I want to do so many things that depending on my body is a pain when it lets me down like this. I don’t know how to get my heart to not beat so fast? Anyway good morning
A victory
Today was a good day I got out did some running around and accomplished some of my goals. The thing that I’m most happy about is that my daughter won in court I believed that she would and I had a huge amount of Faith and family support for her rooting for her to win and it happened it’s not easy when you feel all alone when everyone is far away but you know that people love you no matter what.
I’m so proud of the woman that she has become and how she’s always willing to give and be a support system for others her and her sister are always there for each other and that makes it that much better knowing that they are over there dealing with life on life’s terms with each other it makes me proud to know that I instilled some great values in them for each other.
There is nothing better than the love of family and the commitment of relationship that is there for each of us to have each other I always love family and no matter what happens in life no matter how far apart we are I always know that when push comes to shove we have each other’s back anyway that was today’s venture tomorrow will be a new one.
Am I wrong
I want to be with a man that is open and honest with me. Doesn’t beat around the bush and play games with my heart or my head. Is that to much to ask for in a relationship?
I am very open minded and willing to give my everything to the people I care about as long as I feel the same thing in return it’s hard to give when I feel like I’m not appreciated or whatever I do falls on deaf ears.
I know relationships are give an take but what happens when you’re always giving and the other person minimizes what you give and makes it seem as if what they give is more significant than what you do? Even when what you do is really their responsibility and you take up the slack for them in every way possible when is enough enough?
Saturday Vibes
I woke up thinking what can I do to bring in income in my house I am always looking for ways to make things a little easier for my husband he works so hard but he doesn’t see me and that makes me feel unappreciated a lot of times it’s as if his contributions are the only ones that matter.
I’m smart educated and friendly so people get along with with me want to be around me. He is unforgiving nagging and boastful so he is not received the same. I get frustrated with him at times then I let it go and remember that my happiness is my responsibility and I have to do everything in my power to make sure I keep myself and my mind healthy
Fire-Water
Sun swims to shore Melting blue to silver gold Rhythmic ebb and flow On liquid charcoal.
Fire-Water
MY CURSE Her Life
When I was 3yrs old I lost my father to a heart attack I remembered small things about him but for the most part the main thing I remembered most was him falling down in church and never getting back up again. There was a lot around him falling but that was the main thing for me a small 3yr old on the front row in church.
After that we only had my mom and even though she was a great parent there are things that boys and girls really need from their dad. So when I thought to myself about when I grew up I knew just like my mom, and grandparents I was going to be a wife and mother raise my children with both parents. What I didn’t know was I never learned how to be a mate better yet a girlfriend I just knew how to obey and follow instructions. That’s what I was taught be seen and not heard and don’t cause a seen even if you don’t like it deal with it because they are your elder. It wasn’t proper to let my feelings be known. So I let men run all over me give me children and not take responsibility and leave me alone.
I thought I reversed it when I married and stayed with a man while my children were still young but he turned out to be the worst of the worse and my ex.
Now I’m watching the same pattern unfold in front of my eyes and I feel helpless to fight it and sad that I was unable to make sure that this didn’t happen to my children as it did to me the one thing I am super happy about is no matter what is going on with them they always support each other as I and my siblings did I didn’t go wrong there.
I take full responsibility
When I was growing up I was the youngest of 4 children my sister was the oldest who was 7 years older than me. My brothers were in the middle the younger of the two of them was still 4 years older than me often me and my (as I would call him) my older younger brother would bump heads a lot cause he always seem to be a big head to me but as a child my favorite word was “black dog” I would always get in trouble over that and fighting with my brother my other brother was my favorite he was funny and always cool to be around.
My mom always left my sister in charge we had the most fun on our block being latchkey kids our house was the spot to be at. It always seemed like we were the life of the party no matter where we lived there was this unspoken bond between us that made a world 🌎 of difference no matter who was around us. Especially if we sang together the harmony was out of this world.
We all live in different places now and we don’t get together like we use to I think 💭 of my siblings often and sometimes miss those holidays we would eat and watch movie marathons together because our interest are so much the same.
I realize there is nothing wrong with being smart or having smart people in my corner and I will not dumb down how I communicate in order to please anyone I take full responsibility for my own life and happiness and I choose to surround myself with like minded people who have goals and dreams that they plan on achieving I will not quit until I complete my task!
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Does Truth really matter
I was in a a relationship for over 10 years with a man I loved and hated all at the same time. I would often pray back then that God would either let him die first or end of in jail forever just so I could be free from him cause I was afraid of him but I also felt indebted to him as well. He was mentally and emotionally and physically sexually abusive not just to me but to our children I was so used to being used that I never even saw the person that he was until it was too late and I was back being that little girl who was used to being treated poorly with no way out.
I came to him with no self-esteem looking any old kind of way like a tomboy and he showed me how to drive, pay bills, get my own place, and care for my own life then he used all that to break me completely to the point where I was ready to end my own life after finding out he used my love for him to blind me to what he was doing to my children. But it is a true statement what is done ✅ in the dark will always come to the light 💡 so I guess that’s why he is in prison forever.
Which brings me to the question at hand ✍️ does truth really matter when I got with my now partner I had only one ☝️ criteria I didn’t care if he made mistakes just tell me the truth. I believe if someone has certain feelings or beliefs I should have the choice if I want to be apart of that or not don’t lie to me or about me to someone else and not let me in on this and expect me to go along with the story you told.
I am open to a poly relationship but not if me of the other person female/s don’t know about each other it’s (to me) not healthy or safe and most of all it’s not balanced no matter how people try to make it seem like it’s a great thing quality time is supposed to mean something not just words. It takes work to make a relationship succeed and the more people in that relationship the more work the dominant person which is supposed to be the man has to put in if it’s that kind of relationship. I always want to feel apart weather it be myself a woman and a man, myself and a woman or myself and a man I need to feel connected always. So tell me does the truth make relationships better or worse?
The struggle is now not forever 