One thing I do not spend a lot of time on is self-care and time meditating for myself I spend a lot of time wondering where I should have went right when I went wrong instead of doing self evaluation’s and healing I think I would do better spending my time on self-care and self healing, and not worrying about the little hurdles that come toward me that I know, I have no power over that they are there for a reason and not to make a mountain out of a mole hill because some people are just broken and it is not my responsibility to fix them. I have to work on me and once I’m done working on me the right vibes and intensity and person will enter my life who matches my vibe, and since I know that I have to focus on what brings me peace and happiness and exit out of anything that takes away my peace and my happiness so that I stay on track and I move forward with my best life so these are things that I’ve learned and that I am working on every day sometimes I fall down but I always get back up. It might not be quick, but it is getting faster and faster.
When I was growing up, holidays were the best time of year. It was something you look forward to you celebrate it with family and friends doing things being out and about (I am so upset. I had a whole post right here and this phone decided to delete it, and I have to start again, anyway just a little pissed off about it) I loved being out with my sister and brothers or even just shopping alone thinking about them and the things I would do for them for the holidays or the things we were going to do together there were times when I would see something, and we knew each other so well that we knew each other‘s interests And likes and dislikes, so I love whichever way always make us desire to do something special for each other. If it was my mom, she was a human information seeker so I would always get her something like books or something to figure out like puzzles and things like that if it was my sister, she like trinkets and little gadget type things so if I was in a store and I saw like a little Figurine type teddy bear I would pick up a few of those knowing that she would appreciate it. If it was my brothers, they were always into moving parts so it was going to be something like a model car or a game that they had to figure out or a bike to put together, we all knew each other so well because we cared about each others inner workings so we did whatever it took to be a part of each other’s lives if it was a national holiday like the Fourth of July we planned out what to cook we were going to be at a park we were going to have some kind of major Food gathering and we were going to play games and have fun and be with either a bunch of friends, playing baseball or tag or whatever it was. We were all going to be together doing it and join each other laughing and just having a all-around good time for most of the day, and that was the most exhilarating part of life everything made sense even if it was the camaraderie of people around you one year we had been out to Santa Anita mall in California and it was just a few of us on the bus on the way back home, and the bus driver was in such good spirits But he allowed us to jump off the bus grab a Christmas tree and get back on. That was the kind of care that all of us have for each other. The seasons mattered we cooked with each other whether it was my mom doing bread my sister doing something in the kitchen, me baking cookies at the table, my brother sitting over there on the couch with my nieces and nephews, watching some kind a game or a movie
That was outrageously loud and laughing with the kids. My brother has the most infectious laugh that when he lives it trickles down the block and you can just feel people coming because it’s an atmosphere of happiness around holidays were time to get together. Enjoy each other, always think about the next person and have a feeling of connectedness And we were the kind of family that didn’t just bring gifts for our mom. We bought gifts for everyone if we’re coming, we’re going to bring something for everybody so that we all know that we have let you know you matter to us with my own children, the look on their faces when they would come out and see all the stuff under the tree it was like they would be in shock and then watching them dance to whatever new game it was that they were playing singing along to that new Michael Jackson game trying to get the beat right so they didn’t get out was funny in itself it would take me back to going to visit my grandmother and see how my cousin would be so overjoyed to find out that he got the Michael Jackson doll or a vest or shoe or whatever it was memories like that stay with you as life goes on because I no longer have my grandparents but I can still see them in my mind like they’re right here with me. I no longer have some of my cousins, but I can still see them, saying my name and talking to me and laughing and being just as silly as they were back, then and a serious as they were but still loving me all the way through my holidays are not the same now because I didn’t vet well and the person that I’m with doesn’t cherish the things that I cherish or love the things that I love so when my birthday comes I don’t get to do the things that I would do with my family as I grew up I don’t get to do Christmas or New Year’s or Thanksgiving the way that I remember it as I was growing up I don’t get to be there to bury my love ones or see how life is and feel connected the way that I used to feel some choices are regrettable. One thing I have learned, though life is full of change, and you can’t keep doing the same thing expecting a different result, because that is the very definition of insanity and I am not insane. Anyway, my holidays are different now, but they won’t be different forever
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Self love is important. I have the love me before anything.
Share a lesson you wish you had learned earlier in life.
When I was younger, I prayed about everything, and I always knew what to do which way to go what was right and if the choice I was getting ready to make was going to add to my life or subtract from it and I would always follow my first mind And that choice always turned out to be the right one no matter if it was something as simple as driving down the street and turning right instead of left doing that always got me to the right point at the right time in the right journey. When I started hearing, my first mind tell me you know this isn’t what you should do and instead of shutting it down immediately starting to question that and justify the choice that I was making instead of shutting it down everything after that point started going the wrong way and every choice after that did not go right until I apologized for not listening to that first choice and cut everything down that did not coincide with what happened that I did not listen to after that choice. It was so distinct that I knew down to a T when things were turned around and the point when they were turned around, so now I know that that statement is so true you do better (you will do better when you knew better) and I haven’t went back to the former since that point and things have slowed in the right direction since then this is why I have always believed prayer changes things.
Name the professional athletes you respect the most and why.
The athletes that I drew to marveled by and loved to watch and hear about where Flo Jo Jackie Robinson Muhammad Ali the marvelous Marvin Hagler Joe Louis Jesse Owens you couldn’t get past these names in the different sports because they were the ones who made all the headlines they were so important and so good at what they did that no matter what they were involved in you knew that they were the best and you wanted to be the next one just like them I marveled at them and wanted to be just like them or even better I respected them never knew how hard it was for them until I got older thought they had the best lives not realizing what struggle it was to be them during those times so I have the upmost respect and love for them knowing that not only did they have the fight just to do what they loved but they also persevered made it happen so that someone like me could come forward and do it too so I have much respect for each and everyone of them still do to this day.
I’ve never seen and listen to music because it keeps my mind clear and it helps me to focus on myself and feel better about whatever it is that I was going through. I’m focus on my inner self and then when I get up I eat something and do something creative, which make sure that my body is one with the cell on my love y’all so much better
I love my birthday every year it is my day to reflect on all the things I have accomplished over the last year. Over the ones I miss and over the ones I’ve lost most importantly the present that I’m living in and will continue to conquer in the now and what is to come I am blessed to be 48 years young and will continue to live my best life no matter what comes my way the best is yet to come today is the first day of the rest of my life. I have reached 500 views 5000,000,000 more to go I’m on track. I am on my way to losing 80 pounds without fail.
The first room has large pictures of family history going back to grandparents and great grandparents lots of memorabilia with memories of adventures and get together’s of family, vacations and time spent learning about our history and things that we learned traits that we got from our elders it has Things that were passed down from our family members that was important to them that they wanted us to have so that they can be remembered and have a stake in our future. It has music, rooms and dining room with a record player that actually still plays records it has a long dining room table for Gas to come over and eat and sit down and talk to us about growing up With our parents and cousins and friends, it has TVs and DVD players, CDs and tape cassettes with our family members voices on it from times they were telling stories and let us sit around and talk about things that were important to us even when they didn’t want to hear it, and they would save us it has our school awards and our memory verses our time capsules that we would bury, and years later, the grandkids dug up that we put inside the mantle so that they could see it and remember the fun things we used to do when playing outside, making mud pies it has our bedrooms that has changed over the years to show how our growth and development has sprung up into new adventures to wear now when the grandkids come over and great grands, they see how their stuff has been added to the room so that they know it is their place also it has been modernize with still a playground in the backyard they have a game room, TV room, work room, and a indoor garden so that they can play with it and they can tell their kids how they used to play on those very swings and they’ve been kept up so that when they got old enough they can play with them too it has books on the shelves and different little trinkets that has been there for years that has shown them how they have come from a long line of thinkers and entrepreneurs, who always grow with the times, and how they are expected to do the same, even if they go their own way, they are still expected to achieve in one way or another it has beautiful furniture clean walls and really nice carpet in certain areas and work floors and others. Everybody has a space where they know what to do when they come in the door and how to cook all the utensils are put in a neat and orderly fashion, and it’s always fun around their house because they know that at grandmom’s house they are always welcome so in my house it is always home.
I blog because I have something to say and many others can’t say how they really feel out of fear of cancel culture and social media as well as shame.
I speak for black and brown people who are always on the low end of things and don’t know how to catch a break. To let them know someone knows what they’re going through and can relate
While also expressing my own life’s journey triumphs and trials, while going through it to let people know you can make it through and how fun it is to make it through.
When I’m in my room and I’m able to think about the things I accomplished during the day and I’m able to meditate and bring peace before I go to sleep and think about what my day brought, and how I made it through all of it and then to see what is to come And begin to manifest what is next for the future? It brings me a calm and makes me smile every time before I lay down, take my deep breath and breathe in all the gratitude that I feel for having made it through one more day, knowing that what a have just manifest it is already on the way And I feel happy and grateful right before I go to sleep.
My city of the future, what reside with men who want sons and daughters to grow up and be respectable, loving, caring, supportive, and intelligent, who believe in family and community it would have women who believe in the growth and development of strong minds great atmospheres and technology of the future it would also have schools that employ scientists history buffs a strong black community stores that accentuate health and healthy living also cooking classes with trades to help kids who don’t have a desire to go to college develop skills to develop into things that will help our city stay revolving. My city of the future would also have recycling that pays and replenishes needed accessories in our city. It would have virtual reality, community centers, hospitals of the future, with the best technology and doctors in it. Fitness centers, churches, and activity centers. It would be an all inclusive, helpful, hopeful, and pleasant place to be.
The struggle is now not forever 