Happy Friday it’s raining

Today is Friday November 5th 2021 I took my puppy outside I didn’t like that too much because it’s raining and the rain just makes you cold and uncomfortable I use to love to play in the rain as a child because in New Jersey when it rain it would get pitch black dark and you would see thunder and lightning and the rain would just pour and pour and pour it was always fun to just run through the rain.

When I got older and move to California the rain wasn’t so fun anymore because it was always uncomfortable made your clothes feel weird and sticky so I stopped going out in the rain especially after my mom fell on the bus and broke her leg in three places had a cast all the way up to her waist because it was raining and the bus what’s really wet and she slipped and fell.

I try not to come out in the rain too much because traffic be crazy people drive different and you always have to be extra extra cautious just to stay safe. I really miss those times as a child happy and just not worried about anything coming towards me in a negative way. Sometimes adulting is very difficult but when you have peace of mind it’s always worth it. Enjoy the rest of y’alls day!

Raining over here

Going to Workout today

Today I woke up early and couldn’t go back to sleep my body is conditioned to waking up at a certain hours so it’s really impossible for me to go back to sleep after that. I try to lay there but I feel this nervous energy and can’t stay laying down or else I will get a headache it’s as if I’m meant to do something that I am compelled to do that I still have not found out what that is yet.

I am going to the YMCA today to start my summer fitness program to help me get on track with my weight transformation I’ll keep you guys posted on my progress I’m really looking for a workout partner to hold me accountable during this time and celebrate the little victories with me.

This year has has had it’s set of challenges but for the most part I am still seeing change coming my way every day and it’s in a positive way. Either by the karma I see going on to someone who has not shown me the love and care I deserve or by the winning spree I have been on this year. The best part is I see great experiences coming that will be even better than what has happened already. The best it yet to come and I’m excited to see it in action. Happy Hump day everyone! Keep your head up and never give up.

Still in this everyday

I struggle everyday to get up and go I suffer from depression and anxiety and it’s hard for me to function in the world some days are harder than others I wonder why I’m still here and other days I have crazy bursts of energy where I want to go and go and go and not stop. I can’t remember the last time I slept through the night.

It doesn’t help that I spent an enormous amount of time alone without a lot of friends out here in Florida things are different out here. The best place I can remember is my street in Trenton New Jersey I know it’s not the same as when I was growing up but the camaraderie and the love that we all have for each other I haven’t felt or seen that anywhere else I have lived since we moved from there back in the 80s.

California was a whole different beast it was the first place we lived where you didn’t know your neighbors and everybody was very individualized it was so different but we were the same always loving supportive of whoever we was around that type of magnetic personality that made you want to be around us. I love the way my family has been throughout my life I wouldn’t be who I am today had they not been who they were as I was growing up. We did so many things together growing up traveling going places seeing stuff I’ll never forget how my mom opened us up to seeing the United States in a different light it’s a great thing when you have a parent who doesn’t mind traveling. I would have never been exposed to the things I was exposed to had my mom not done the things she’s done. I appreciate her a lot I wish I would have kept her traditions up like that conventions and the campground my kids will be different people had I done that.

I wouldn’t have been so open to moving to other states or exploring out of the country had my mom not showed me how big this world is. There are so many things that I still have to do in this world that I know that I want to do and won’t quit until I do. Have a great Tuesday. If you can travel as much as you can cause this is a big world that needs to be explored.

A new month A new beginning

Today is November 1st and I am ready to embark on a whole new journey a month of new beginnings with balance and abundance I’m very excited about what is to come this month is a month of Thanksgiving which will be a happy month for me I’m hoping I will see my grandson.

It’s the start of the holiday season and I absolutely love the holiday season because it’s a time to bring people together and where love starts to flow like never before and this year will be much better than last year so happy November 1st everyone

Florida-Georgia weekend

Yesterday was the Florida Georgia game unfortunately Florida lost by a landslide maybe next year but on a brighter note there were a million people out there some folks were selling things some folks were making money from parking some folks wear just walking around with their Florida Georgia colors and some folks were just out and about to be in the atmosphere no matter what was going on everyone was enjoying themselves and enjoying the atmosphere out and about.

I didn’t go outside until late maybe around 5 p.m. because I was doing some stuff in the house but when I finally went outside that atmosphere was electric and it made me desire to walk and experience it I added a video as I walked around to look and see what was happening it was just so nice out the weather was nice everyone was just chilling and enjoying the camaraderie of everything happening. It was a great experience one of those things that you just want to experience again and again.

I think I will make the Florida-Georgia weekend a tradition for me because the experience is one that is really great I’m hoping next year I will experience it with someone who is wonderful to walk around with and chill with. Happy Sunday!

I completed my TMS

Today I went to my last TMS therapy appointment it has been my one constant for the last few weeks and the people there were so supportive and loving that I always wanted to go back even on the days when I felt the worst I always knew when I got there I would be greeted with a smile and treated with respect.

I enjoyed every minute of my time there with them and will miss them very much I almost cried leaving today but I do feel better having had been there with them for such a time as this.

I needed this break through and got it now it’s time for the work of life to begin. I will start something new and make that happen in my life to help better myself. Anyway happy Friday