The thing that makes me feel the most nostalgic is my Christmas collection watching old Christmas movies, one at a time for the whole Christmas season, putting them all together and sitting back laughing and remembering how growing up it was the greatest time, laughing and enjoying life remembering even after I was in doubt, and had kids in my own, watching them, open their stuff and watching my daughters play with their Dance videos, games, seeing them laughing and enjoying life the whole season just has a nostalgic feeling about it.
I have always wanted to be remembered as someone who helped and made a difference in my families life that I have memories to cherish with my kids, grandkids and great grands along with my brothers and sisters that I was a generous person and I built a legacy that would help not only children grow into productive human beings, but also would build well for generations to come so that my family would have a family business that was surrounded by mental health, togetherness the village concept of raising children, and the connectedness of having one generation after another know each other, and be together. This is not what I see in my family society, and the world at large, my fear is that we will become a technological society and forget what it feels like to have that connection with each other to where we understand how each other thinks how each other is dependent on one another and able to function in this world so that you understand subliminal messages you understand the simple things I decide I you understand when you’re talking too much you understand when you go out to eat, you don’t act a monkey These things are important attributes of human life and it is so important for me to be able to be there to show my grandchildren and great grands how to be great human beings. These are my fears of the future because so much time has been lost, and it seems this new thought of being a working person has taken the place of being a family unit People don’t understand how important family is and what family brings you that kind of stability. Love care, unconditional love, especially when it’s your own child so this is my goal is for the future because no matter what happens in my life I know in my heart, that I will always have the love of my brothers and sisters, my nieces and nephews, because at the end of the day, we literally grew up together and I wouldn’t ever abandon them for any reason or my children no matter what they do, even if they’re hardhead as hell I still with it because I was taught better. Thank God for a mother, who prayed and still does.
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Name the professional athletes you respect the most and why.
The athletes that I drew to marveled by and loved to watch and hear about where Flo Jo Jackie Robinson Muhammad Ali the marvelous Marvin Hagler Joe Louis Jesse Owens you couldn’t get past these names in the different sports because they were the ones who made all the headlines they were so important and so good at what they did that no matter what they were involved in you knew that they were the best and you wanted to be the next one just like them I marveled at them and wanted to be just like them or even better I respected them never knew how hard it was for them until I got older thought they had the best lives not realizing what struggle it was to be them during those times so I have the upmost respect and love for them knowing that not only did they have the fight just to do what they loved but they also persevered made it happen so that someone like me could come forward and do it too so I have much respect for each and everyone of them still do to this day.
The first surgery I had was minor surgery as a child. I walked past a shard of glass from a large, broken picture window. I sliced my leg along my calf leg on the left side. I had to be rushed to the hospital. I also had hand surgery from letting a fire cracker blow up in my hand. Another minor surgery where stitches were needed.This is before the time of numbing the area so I had to get several stitches and the held down in order to stay still. My next surgery, was when I had been in labor for two days. My son was being very stubborn and not wanting to get in the right position so my labor was being prolong until the core began to wrap around his neck from all of his turning so I ended up having to have a C-section on an emergency my next surgery after that was a planned surgery my daughter then a third C-section after that, I had to have a thyroidectomy because my thyroid was not functioning correctly, and had created a mass, the size of a potato in my throat (a goiter) and another mass the size of a football in my chest, which was causing me to not be able to breathe correctly and have fainting spells often so I had to have open chest surgery and throat surgery. After that one, I had a total hysterectomy because of problems with my uterus and anemia and bleeding problems. My body has been through quite a bit, but I would say it has all been worth it.
My dream chocolate bar would be dark chocolate with maca root, horny goat weed & sea moss with a hint of banana & purple haze sweetened with agave nectar this is my dream chocolate bar. What is yours? Happy throwback Thursday.
I’m going home in a few weeks I haven’t been back there in 5 years and I’m excited to go it’s one of those things where I know I’m going to be around people like me and I will have time to feel like myself and have people who love me for me and the excitement is overwhelming. While at the same time I feel a sadness that I’m leaving my stuff here with someone who doesn’t cherish the things that I cherish not knowing if the things that I love will be here when I get back because of his arrogance and I don’t care attitude even though I know I wouldn’t do that to him he would do that to me and I feel angry and scared all at the same time because these are the things that I didn’t want to lose that I’ve taken with me everywhere that I went. I am very happy to be going around people that celebrate each other where I won’t have to see another birthday alone this year and I will be able to visit friends who like having people over just so many things to do that make life worthwhile I can’t wait to go most of all to get away from here and be in a good happy environment for once without someone who is pessimistic about everything and never has a kind word to say about anyone especially women because he’s bitter and narcissistic on the Covert side due to lack of nurturing I no longer take the blame for that or even care life is to short to live unhappy with someone who is supposed to love me but puts me last at every turn I’m worth more than green that’s just my name anyway happy Juneteenth
The struggle is now not forever 