This year started out pretty slow. I wanted to be up to bring in the new year next to the man I wanted to spend the year with so as I was sitting there and the hours were passing by I decided to get up and go into the den to try to be next to him to watch whatever he was watching on TV and when I got to the door, he stopped me. And said, what are you doing? I said I’m coming in here with you so that we can bring in the year together. He said it’s not midnight, so go back and do whatever you was doing. I shouldn’t have let that bother me, but for some reason it did, and I decided to go lay down and get back up at midnight. I didn’t wake back up until around four in the morning. I had missed everything. I was so disappointed in myself and that fact. It started to paste of the new year letting me know this was going to be another lonely year, and I hate that fact that at least I’ve made some friends that I am going to capitalize on so even if I won’t be spending time with him, I will be spending time with them. Happy New Year y’all
Category: holiday season
My daughter’s birthday
Today my youngest child turned 23. I am very happy that she has lived a whole Nother year. I am very proud of her and glad that she has done such a great job at surviving this long. I pray that the next year will be a great adventure for her full of great blessings and gifts, and welcome to potential that she will see nothing but goodness and treasure coming her way she is a blessing to be on this earth, and I love her very much. She makes my life happy and want to be encouraged about. I’m hoping to see her more and contribute to her happiness like my mom contributed to mine happy birthday my beautiful daughter. I love you. Lexys
A hard day but good one
Today when I got to where I was going for work I ended up changing classrooms today and even though I ended up working with the same students that I worked with a couple days ago I still had to raise my voice a few times because it’s like a natural instinct for kids to be more rambunctious with a substitute teacher I’ve noticed that pattern because kids seem to think that because you’re subbing for them they can do whatever they want because you’re there for a limited time but one thing I think these students learned for the last few days is that if you want someone to give you time and attention you need to give them that respect of quietness when they are dealing with you so today and then on a good note and I feel more confident about it anyway happy throwback Thursday I’m still on my way lost journey and I believe I’m doing pretty good at it right now so I will continue to work towards my goal of dropping this hundred pounds over the next 9 months
Today was a hard day
I started out this day so tired that I even woke up late I still made it to work on time but I felt rushed and out of sync because of the last couple of days I like the making my own schedule because it gives my body time to rest and we cooperate from all the walking and moving and mental strain of being in the work world so I came on here and to say this always put your help and well-being first because jobs come and go the human being doing the job does not happy Wednesday
He did it on purpose
I was out looking at my car today I saw all these scratches on her at first couldn’t understand what had happened to my baby then I realized my husband’s son is the only one who washes my car and he washed my car with a rag that had branches and leaves in it and didn’t care what it did to my car even though I am the one who drives him around everywhere he goes I felt like that was messed up and if I had the choice he would walk everywhere from now on frfr anyway happy Monday
He said I’m not worth shit wow
My husband said I’m not worth shit yeah because I did not agree with his opinion wow that’s crazy I never thought that I would have to deal with someone who’s out like I was not worth shit because I didn’t agree with their opinion quite interesting the classic definition of a narcissist would be this man. He seems to be upset right now because I’m not saying what he wants me to say and the words that he used our backfiring on him I guess and that’s why he’s mad now whatever and dealing with it he can be mad all he wants is at the end of the day he needs to learn that if he’s not decisive he’s indecisive and indecisiveness doesn’t get you nowhere so be mad be angry but deal with it the fuck ever it doesn’t pay to be a narcissist and have to deal with someone who knows how to deal with a narcissist I guess but I don’t give a fuck because my sister was a Libra just like my husband and he hast to learn so he grabbed me again and said he’s strong lol that’s funny he must not realize I’m just as strong as he is so I pushed his hand away showing him that his mediocre strength isn’t shit whatever I’m gonna go to bed now but if he touches me again it will be the last time he ever does
Happy New Year
Today is January 1st 2021 I finally came up with my New Year’s resolutions this year is a year of completion I’m going to work at completing a lot of my goals this year I started them last year but this year it is my goal to complete them. I am excited to live my best life and do the things that will bring joy happiness and excitement to my life and those that I love around me.
Always feel like everyday is a new beginning a chance to start over and accomplish things that I didn’t accomplish the day before but this time I’m not only will accomplish those things I will add on to them and not give up anyway happy New Year here’s to a year of accomplishing goals finishing task and having fun while doing it.
Happy New Year Eve
Tomorrow starts 2022 and this year has been a year of change so many things have happened so many differences so many things that we will never forget and will never understand. I am for one happy that we have made it through another year. This is why I decided to post on the last day of the year so many changes have happened I am very excited to see how the next year will progress and how everyone will change and adapt with everything that has happened over the last 2 years.
I became a grandmother this year I got married this year I started a new job I’ve lost an abundance of weight and became more active and I’m still on a weight loss journey, and I realized I want more out of life this year so I will see how next year will add on to better things and build more on top of what has happened this year happy New Year’s Eve everyone I will see you in the new year
Merry Christmas/ family day
Today most of us get together to celebrate the end of the year, the birth of Christ or each other making it through another year. Because so many of us didn’t make it for verious reasons so on this December 25,2021 celebrate yourself and always remember no matter what happens in your life you are wonderful and worth a celebration everyday you wake up and see your beautiful face. Have a wonderful holiday no matter how you celebrate it. If no one told you I am telling you you are awesome sauce!!!
Why is it so hard
I’m tired of trying to get him to understand who I am and what’s important to me. I never dreamed I would be with a person who only sees things from their own twisted point of view and tried to make that view be law always. I was raised to give without expecting anything in return but my partner give’s always expecting something in return with interest then wonder’s why no one loves him without conditions yeah I know it’s crazy but true. I can’t tell him anything without him making it seem as if I’m being unreasonable or unrealistic when it’s him who is taking things to a place they don’t need to go.
My frustration is overwhelming and I’m tired of trying to always be the good person when I’m being beat down by someone who can’t respect anything that we don’t agree on or that I don’t agree with him on I’m tired of the my way or high way method with him. He is not always right matter of fact half the time he is not right and I’m tired of being taken advantage of for keeping the peace while he continues to keep his narcissistic beliefs no matter how far fetched they are anyway I want better for my life this unhealthy unhappiness is for the birds!
The struggle is now not forever 