I understand that everyone has their personal issues but my personal issue today is I am sick of seeing dogs everywhere. I can’t go into a grocery store a place of business or even just a walk down the street without seeing peoples dogs everywhere I was at somewhere that is supposed to be sanitary today and here comes this man with his dog, which is unsanitary in this place of business that should only be allowed service dogs. I am so sick of seeing dogs everywhere I go on the bus. I don’t know where I can go to get some semblance of peace without having everyone and friends on my right for my peace of mind. I wish we could go back to the days where things were assemblance of normal. I really hope that people will start standing up for what normalcy really looks like. I shouldn’t see a dog in the grocery store or in a place of business that is not a service dog. It’s not sanitary and it really is starting to get on my nerves. Anyway that’s my  gripe  for today.
Category: Mental health
I don’t understand
My daughter is going through a rough patch right now and I have been very concerned about her for months I had finally gotten her and my grandsons (1&3) out here where she could finally get on her feet and not have to worry about babysitting and homelessness just working building her money up and getting on her feet.
But unbeknownst to me she was still dealing with her abusive ex-baby daddy who got her homeless in the first place tried to kill her 3 different times and is her drug dealer. So at the last minute after I got her (me and other family members) all set up with clothes baby items and was working on getting her a place to live she decided to send the kids back to Texas.
Then sprung on me she was going too but the thing is she has no where to live there plus she has evictions because of the tumultuous relationship with this ex so I told her it didn’t make any sense to live on the streets over there just to be near a guy who told you to your face he hates you. But now she has stopped talking to me.
I don’t take back anything that I said because he doesn’t mean her any good and I got all my information from her it’s crazy what drugs will make you do I just pray he doesn’t hurt her cause I will end up in prison frfr!!!
Please keep my daughter and grandsons in your thoughts and prayers cause they need to be protected back here in California asap
They are :
List your top 5 favorite fruits.
My favorite fruits are 1: bananas 2: pineapples 3: tangerines 4: pears 5: strawberries because I can use them in smoothies all the time and they taste so good
Moved out of state
Describe a risk you took that you do not regret.
I picked up and moved to start a new chapter in my life. I don’t regret that I regret what happened when I got there, but I don’t regret moving. They have venture was wonderful. The experience was eye-opening and I learned a lot about different states and how they operate and let me know that a lot of things that happen in different places are not like home so it also gave me different perspectives on how people are when they grow up in certain environments and with certain aspects of life when they are influenced by a certain atmosphere all of their lives, knowing that lets me know Where I would not want to live ever again and where the people are, that are not my kind of people.  For example Florida is one of the most toxic states I’ve ever lived in. They are not the moral high ground, and they are very explicit in the way they live there. They don’t believe in being faithful and most of the men there do not respect the women they have in their lives as well as the women are the same way as the man compared to California or New Jersey. I won’t even mention Texas because that would take 100 more pages. 
I feel broken
I lived my life for my children. I wanted them to have the life that I didn’t get to have growing up. I was looking for something that I wasn’t able to get. I ended up failing all the way around I sometimes wonder was any of it worth it? I lost everything. I continue to lose the more I live. I wonder why I’m still alive now. I cry every day. I have this immense sense of brokenness and sadness because all I wanted was a life filled with love and happiness, and all I got was pain and sadness. I wear a smile on my face but inside 90% of the time I wish I was dead. 
God has always been there
God is so good he has done so much for me even though I gave up on Him at one point in my life I remember Him so well here is a story about His protection over me and my family: I was living in Long Beach California and my family had to move and had not found another place to live I told God what am I going to do I had the money just not the place and God said nothing. So I went with my kids to a hotel but now my money was running out. I said God I know you got me what am I to do (this came from being taught all my life God takes care of His own) I went down to catholic  charities and they didn’t have anything I went back to the hotel the very day I ran out of money I said God it’s all on you this is it and that very day all doors open and every door after that was nothing but Him. Even though I may not always agree with what or the way God does stuff He always makes me move the way I’m supposed to move God is good!!
There’s more
There’s more life than wanting to do more and not accomplishing more. I’m with the narcissistic sociopath who only cares about himself. I wanted more out of life that’s why I got with him I never in my wildest dreams figured I would end up with a serial cheater who didn’t know how to keep his peter in his pants and had a woman in every city but at the same time hated women so much now have women all around the world off of a pipe dream of coming to America and living off of the state just so he can’t be put on child support how sick is that I’m praying to get away from this sick bastard. I hope he gets everything coming to him.
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