Category: narcissist

Yes I have more than one

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Have you ever had surgery? What for?

More than 3

The first surgery I had was minor surgery as a child. I walked past a shard of glass from a large, broken picture window. I sliced my leg along my calf leg on the left side. I had to be rushed to the hospital. I also had hand surgery from letting a fire cracker blow up in my hand. Another minor surgery where stitches were needed.This is before the time of numbing the area so I had to get several stitches and the held down in order to stay still. My next surgery, was when I had been in labor for two days. My son was being very stubborn and not wanting to get in the right position so my labor was being prolong until the core began to wrap around his neck from all of his turning so I ended up having to have a C-section on an emergency my next surgery after that was a planned surgery my daughter then a third C-section after that, I had to have a thyroidectomy because my thyroid was not functioning correctly, and had created a mass, the size of a potato in my throat (a goiter) and another mass the size of a football in my chest, which was causing me to not be able to breathe correctly and have fainting spells often so I had to have open chest surgery and throat surgery. After that one, I had a total hysterectomy because of problems with my uterus and anemia and bleeding problems. My body has been through quite a bit, but I would say it has all been worth it.

God is life

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How important is spirituality in your life?

Spirituality is very important to me because God is life.

God has made my life worthwhile and worth living things haven’t always been easy but with him by my side, I’ve been able to get through a lot and not go over the deep end. I’ve had some very traumatic events in my life. I didn’t know what was coming next or what to do, but my faith and my belief kept me going. There’s so much more I could say, but I want him with this God is everything..

Respect is earned

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Describe something you learned in high school.

I had one of the best teacher at Blair High school taught history in my school. She was always respectful and understanding. She has passed on now I miss her She came at us so down to earth, and was pleasant always had the best intentions, and was just almost like one of us understood her. She made School fun I loved going to her class if I could go back I wouldn’t change the teachers I had because they made me into the person. I am now I see how the people who I have been around when I’ve moved to other places and I see how they are, and how they do not have the same morals and respect.She made School fun I loved going to her class if I could go back I wouldn’t change the teachers I had because they made me into the person. I am now I see how the people who I have been around when I’ve moved to other places and I see how they are, and how they do not have the same morals and respect. morals and respect for life that I have and it makes me appreciate and understand the way that I grew up even more because without those people that taught me humility and love and respect for life, I wouldn’t be this person that I am now and I greatly appreciate my upbringing and my village, because it was phenomenal. My scores were the greatest.

I can only change my self

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What is the last thing you learned?

No matter what life brings or throws at me I cannot put myself in the place of someone else. I can only change myself I can take a life throws at me, and either take the punches and cry, or learn from them and move on, and make different choices and change from what Those choices have brought me. I cannot expect the person who threw those packages to change no matter what I do because they are who they are and they are set in their stance and I just have to accept that and be OK with moving on with my life and be happy with who I am because I know that I am not the problem because of everyone that has been in that person‘s life has also love everyone else cannot be the problem so if that person will not look at themselves, they are meant to be alone and I have to accept that and be OK with moving on and buy my own happiness, so that is what I have learned here recently because I am not meant to be unhappy in an abusive, manipulative and unhappy relationship with someone who cannot appreciate me, so I will find my own happiness.

Happy 2023

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This year started out pretty slow. I wanted to be up to bring in the new year next to the man I wanted to spend the year with so as I was sitting there and the hours were passing by I decided to get up and go into the den to try to be next to him to watch whatever he was watching on TV and when I got to the door, he stopped me. And said, what are you doing? I said I’m coming in here with you so that we can bring in the year together. He said it’s not midnight, so go back and do whatever you was doing. I shouldn’t have let that bother me, but for some reason it did, and I decided to go lay down and get back up at midnight. I didn’t wake back up until around four in the morning. I had missed everything. I was so disappointed in myself and that fact. It started to paste of the new year letting me know this was going to be another lonely year, and I hate that fact that at least I’ve made some friends that I am going to capitalize on so even if I won’t be spending time with him, I will be spending time with them. Happy New Year y’all

This was the bus

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This was the bus

I got on the bus this morning and in the front seat where the people with disabilities is supposed to be able to see it were a bunch of teenagers sitting there looking at me giggling and then playing with their phones I looked at them and then I looked at the bus driver they were Hispanic that didn’t matter it was the fact that they saw that I didn’t have the balance that I had a cane and that those feet were obviously for people like me and they didn’t move so I looked at the bus driver she begins to speak in Spanish telling everyone to move back I really couldn’t understand her too well but I caught a little glimpses of what she was saying because I’m rudimentary in Spanish I feel a little dismayed by the whole thing because the driver is supposed to get up and empty those seats when she sees or he and people are not moving I shouldn’t of had to stand that hallway falling all over the place when those seats are there specifically for people like me it was really upsetting.

Rising cost

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Today I went into the store Walmart shout out to Walmart to pick up a few things and I was doing a price check on some eggs because generally when the price isn’t there it must be an astronomical price that they don’t want you to look at just pay when you get to the counter. I asked a Walmart employee what the price was for the eggs and I figured the price that was there was incorrect because I had never seen eggs cost almost $16. The employee came over to me and he told me that the price was correct so I asked him what was the price of the pack that was right below that 60 pack of eggs and he went on to tell me that I should blame the Biden administration for the price of the eggs I sat there and I thought why would I blame Biden for eggs why not blame you. Because your salary is $15.09 an hour so prices would have to go up in order to pay your salary why would I blame the government when it would be a wiser deduction to stay at home and blame what’s right here if I’m going to lay blame. But I let him go on and talk without uttering a word. He said there are all these people in office but none of them know how to run a country as if he was someone who knew about how to run a whole government or knew anything above a checkers profession it baffled me and it also made me think people are so quick to put blame on others instead of taking responsibility for their own actions I for one am guilty of that myself I am learning every day how to take accountability for what I do and not put the blame on others that is the right way to be. I don’t blame the president for the Senate or the House of Representatives they get the blame for their own actions. What President Biden and Vice President Harris does they take responsibility for no one else and I would not add to their plate by being arrogant or unjustly blaming them for stuff that is not their fault they might not be strong but they are also not weak and I support them. Enjoy the rest of your day happy Thursday!!!

Going to California

On By L Corelle GreenIn abusive partner, adventure, black family, family, Juneteenth, narcissist, Relationships, self love, travel, weight loss journeyLeave a comment

I’m going home in a few weeks I haven’t been back there in 5 years and I’m excited to go it’s one of those things where I know I’m going to be around people like me and I will have time to feel like myself and have people who love me for me and the excitement is overwhelming. While at the same time I feel a sadness that I’m leaving my stuff here with someone who doesn’t cherish the things that I cherish not knowing if the things that I love will be here when I get back because of his arrogance and I don’t care attitude even though I know I wouldn’t do that to him he would do that to me and I feel angry and scared all at the same time because these are the things that I didn’t want to lose that I’ve taken with me everywhere that I went. I am very happy to be going around people that celebrate each other where I won’t have to see another birthday alone this year and I will be able to visit friends who like having people over just so many things to do that make life worthwhile I can’t wait to go most of all to get away from here and be in a good happy environment for once without someone who is pessimistic about everything and never has a kind word to say about anyone especially women because he’s bitter and narcissistic on the Covert side due to lack of nurturing I no longer take the blame for that or even care life is to short to live unhappy with someone who is supposed to love me but puts me last at every turn I’m worth more than green that’s just my name anyway happy Juneteenth

Lil Durk concert

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Today I’m at a lil Durk concert because I won tickets it’s nothing more telling then when you win something and have no one to share it with so I came alone but I’m still happy to be here because I know good still comes to me even with out anyone else no matter how much they say I’m not favored I still am and it shows every day of my life anyway happy Tuesday.

My husband got out of the hospital

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It had been a week and he was still not doing well when I called 911 for him he had scared me and I wasn’t going to lose him. He was talking crazy but he was alive, I couldn’t put my finger on it and I didn’t know how to cope with it but I knew he wasn’t ready to go home in a short amount of time he was putting his affairs in order telling me what to do and how I would be able to sustain myself after he was gone and that was not rational to me him being in his 40s we have a whole life to live and I kept telling him that but he wasn’t trying to hear me he just kept saying let him go. When they finally got him to a point where he was starting to get of sound mind he began to blame me for keeping him there and that hurt even worse because when I care about somebody their life is the most important thing to me and their survival is paramount to everything else. I would never want anything to happen to him despite his treatment of people or me I still want him around because everybody deserves every chance until that last chance is given now I feel like an outsider because I wanted to check on him and was told they will see if he’s up for company (While staying at a non-immediate family members house) when I’m his wife now I’m a part of everybody else amazing that really hurts when I am the one that got him to the hospital it’s crazy if I’m only the tables were turned.