It’s my birthday let’s talk

What personality trait in people raises a red flag with you?

The personality traits that raised red flags with me out of other people are when they are incapable of having a conversation. They just talk and talk and talk and never listen to what the other person has to say to me that’s a red flag because they don’t take the time to get to know the other person they just go off on a tangent and never have any kind of real conversation. It shows me that the person is selfish and very self-centered, and it starts off the relationship in a bad light

Today is my birthday. I turned 50 years old. I celebrated my birthday by going to eat with my mom. I had a very nice meal and enjoyed her company as well. I always loved my birthday because it’s my national holiday. there were times when I was celebrating my birthday all month long because one day just wasn’t enough. My birthday is a very special time to me and I’m glad I was able to celebrate it with my mom now I have to make preparations for the next few days in order to keep the celebration happy and going today was a good day. Happy birthday to me.

Happy 50th birthday to me

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Sick of seeing dogs everywhere

I understand that everyone has their personal issues but my personal issue today is I am sick of seeing dogs everywhere. I can’t go into a grocery store a place of business or even just a walk down the street without seeing peoples dogs everywhere I was at somewhere that is supposed to be sanitary today and here comes this man with his dog, which is unsanitary in this place of business that should only be allowed service dogs. I am so sick of seeing dogs everywhere I go on the bus. I don’t know where I can go to get some semblance of peace without having everyone and friends on my right for my peace of mind. I wish we could go back to the days where things were assemblance of normal. I really hope that people will start standing up for what normalcy really looks like. I shouldn’t see a dog in the grocery store or in a place of business that is not a service dog. It’s not sanitary and it really is starting to get on my nerves. Anyway that’s my  gripe  for today.

My daughter, my daughter, my daughter

I’ve always related to my youngest daughter and the most because she was the one I was closest to out of all of my kids. She was the one that had my face, and she was the one that when she was born my sister had already claimed my other two kids so tell me I had to keep her with me at all times so I always felt this close to her. She was my last child, my baby, the child that was born out of love because I was in love with her father when she was conceived I never dreamed that she would be the one to give me the most heartache or would be the one who would be the biggest liar out of all my kids even though my middle daughter, cosmic pain I never thought that my last daughter would be the one to make me one in my life. I would’ve done anything for her no matter the cost no matter what was going on in my life if I thought that she was in danger or anything was happening, I would’ve moved Heaven and earth for her I didn’t care what it cost me or if I had to lose everything I would do anything to make sure that she was OK. I know you shouldn’t have favorite kids, but she was the one who always had my back and who it felt like she had my back I never dream that she would let a dirtbag guy come in between her and me the reason I call him a dirtbag is because he’s abusive. He’s a cheat and he is a liar. I can’t blame her for the choices that she made because this is the example that I gave her so I should by myself but at some point, we have to take accountability for our actions so let me get down to the situation at hand my daughter have been homeless for sometime now, and she has two small children by two different men. The older son is by another abusive guy who put a gun to her head and the second child is by the most recent dirtbag who tried to throw over a balcony when she came out to California. It was because I was out here and where I am. She knows she always has to open door but she has this entitlement attitude about her She doesn’t like to. Do what’s right she feels like the world owes her something so so she doesn’t like to give anything toward anything whether she lives there with you or not and if you ask her to give towards the house where most people will say you can’t live anywhere for free she gets an attitude, unless it involves her activities such as her bud habit. Should do anything for our kids. I will give her that, but she had nothing to give them so the little bit of money that I had I spent on them she didn’t appreciate that either. She got this real big attitude because I didn’t want her to take my grandkids back over there to the abusive relationship that she Refused to let go of. She tries to claim that I tried to kidnap her kids when we all stayed in the same place and then she lied on the Internet about me claiming that I wanted her to have a baby for me which is disgusting. I never dreamed that the daughter I gave birth to would turn out to be an entitled spoiled brat. I know I have my flaws and I’m definitely not perfect but one thing I am not is sick in the head. I take my medicine every day and I live with the problems that I have. I’m so disappointed that she would buy me to get sympathy on the Internet. Just try to garner sympathy is no good reason to do these types of things I don’t want anything but the best for her I wouldn’t ever kidnap my grandkids even though she’s not stable and is unable to have a place for them to live right now so they’re staying with their other grandmother I still wouldn’t take them from her because that gives her a reason to continue to try to do better I just don’t know what to do because I don’t deserve that she deserves so much better in life but if she’s the kind of person, I just won’t accept help Even when it’s opera continuously I don’t know what else to do. I pray that she will one day find herself and get the help that she needs meanwhile, may the Lord keep her safe these are the things that I pray for all the time while she still bites with this man fist fights let her safety be first and everything else after that.

My my grandbabies keep them safe, protect them from hurt harm or danger

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I don’t understand

My daughter is going through a rough patch right now and I have been very concerned about her for months I had finally gotten her and my grandsons (1&3) out here where she could finally get on her feet and not have to worry about babysitting and homelessness just working building her money up and getting on her feet.

But unbeknownst to me she was still dealing with her abusive ex-baby daddy who got her homeless in the first place tried to kill her 3 different times and is her drug dealer. So at the last minute after I got her (me and other family members) all set up with clothes baby items and was working on getting her a place to live she decided to send the kids back to Texas.

Then sprung on me she was going too but the thing is she has no where to live there plus she has evictions because of the tumultuous relationship with this ex so I told her it didn’t make any sense to live on the streets over there just to be near a guy who told you to your face he hates you. But now she has stopped talking to me.

I don’t take back anything that I said because he doesn’t mean her any good and I got all my information from her it’s crazy what drugs will make you do I just pray he doesn’t hurt her cause I will end up in prison frfr!!!

Please keep my daughter and grandsons in your thoughts and prayers cause they need to be protected back here in California asap

My Mother’s Day

I got up early to make sure I made it to church with my mom I got her some of her favorite stuff and a adventurous book to learn more about her life and things that she had never thought about before because one day I would love to pass on her knowledge to my kids and grandchildren something I was not able to do with my grandmom.

Church was ok except for the fact that they didn’t celebrate mom’s they celebrated women and in doing that they didn’t have enough of the celebratory stuff for all the moms cause they gave everyone even girls (not moms) the gift so I gave mine to my mom so she wouldn’t be without one since they ran out before getting to her.

After church we went to my sisters house to chill for Mother’s Day and my sister got me the best gift she got me a personalized blanket made for me with really special words and photo on it she made me cry I got her a meal plan book so she can write her meals out for the week since she loves to eat healthy

We watched a movie together all 3 of us that was really nice I love our time together after that me and my mom left and I got her something to eat then we came home our day was pretty good I hope yours was too

Happy Mother’s Day 2025

Mother’s Day’s 2025

Moved out of state

Describe a risk you took that you do not regret.

I picked up and moved to start a new chapter in my life. I don’t regret that I regret what happened when I got there, but I don’t regret moving. They have venture was wonderful. The experience was eye-opening and I learned a lot about different states and how they operate and let me know that a lot of things that happen in different places are not like home so it also gave me different perspectives on how people are when they grow up in certain environments and with certain aspects of life when they are influenced by a certain atmosphere all of their lives, knowing that lets me know Where I would not want to live ever again and where the people are, that are not my kind of people.  For example Florida is one of the most toxic states I’ve ever lived in. They are not the moral high ground, and they are very explicit in the way they live there. They don’t believe in being faithful and most of the men there do not respect the women they have in their lives as well as the women are the same way as the man compared to California or New Jersey. I won’t even mention Texas because that would take 100 more pages. 

I feel broken

I lived my life for my children. I wanted them to have the life that I didn’t get to have growing up. I was looking for something that I wasn’t able to get. I ended up failing all the way around I sometimes wonder was any of it worth it? I lost everything. I continue to lose the more I live. I wonder why I’m still alive now. I cry every day. I have this immense sense of brokenness and sadness because all I wanted was a life filled with love and happiness, and all I got was pain and sadness. I wear a smile on my face but inside 90% of the time I wish I was dead. 

God has always been there

God is so good he has done so much for me even though I gave up on Him at one point in my life I remember Him so well here is a story about His protection over me and my family: I was living in Long Beach California and my family had to move and had not found another place to live I told God what am I going to do I had the money just not the place and God said nothing. So I went with my kids to a hotel but now my money was running out. I said God I know you got me what am I to do (this came from being taught all my life God takes care of His own) I went down to catholic  charities and they didn’t have anything I went back to the hotel the very day I ran out of money I said God it’s all on you this is it and that very day all doors open and every door after that was nothing but Him. Even though I may not always agree with what or the way God does stuff He always makes me move the way I’m supposed to move God is good!!

There’s more

There’s more life than wanting to do more and not accomplishing more. I’m with the narcissistic sociopath who only cares about himself. I wanted more out of life that’s why I got with him I never in my wildest dreams figured I would end up with a serial cheater who didn’t know how to keep his peter in his pants and had a woman in every city but at the same time hated women so much now have women all around the world off of a pipe dream of coming to America and living off of the state just so he can’t be put on child support how sick is that I’m praying to get away from this sick bastard. I hope he gets everything coming to him.

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