I would love to jump out of a airplane from 1300 feet and not be scared with a bunch of my friends like when I went bungee jumping and that was scary as well but I don’t regret it and would do it again
The principles that grew up with was always be loyal, be transparent, and be as honest as possible have integrity, and everything that you do, and don’t mislead people, because being misleading can cost you your life always let people make their own choices. Don’t take the choice from them because it’s not fair and it’s not right And they can hurt you in more ways than one when you devote yourself to something follow through because when you follow through more than likely when the tables turn around and you need someone they will follow through for you don’t give to receive give just because because those things Matter the most and it always comes back around and one way or another always have faith and know that things will work out. It might not be the way you see it but it will be the way it needs to be because things always work out in my favor Weather now or later and never give up no matter how bad it looks or how it seems and even if it looks as if everything is going wrong and everyone is against you because it might be 100 knows where are you in 1000 it only takes one gas to make all the difference And I know that yes it’s coming so these are the principles I live by and I haven’t messed yet. I falling down and I’ve been down for a while but I always get back up.
I have been fighting Social Security for over six years now and for the life of me I have been in a fog just going through the motions every day trying to figure out what The next step is to get my life back in order which direction to go or whether to just cut my losses and do what I know best to do and every time I start to go in that direction I feel like I am on the brink of, doing something that will turn my life upside down if I go that route because making rash choices in my life in the past has cost me greatly and I don’t wanna do it again even though I don’t regret those choices I don’t want to do them again and end up in a hole bigger than I’ve ever been in even though I’m not happy in the situation I’m in right now and I know I don’t wanna be in it for the rest of my life I don’t want to uproot again and start over somewhere else without having my ducks in a row or having a solid plan I don’t want to begin again without at least having everything that I know I came here with because it wouldn’t be right and I would be devastated so I’m trying to understand what it is that I need to do and why I am so hesitant to move forward even though I know I am able to land on my feet and get things done I just don’t feel like I am supposed to go anywhere right now and I don’t understand why so that is why I am trying to figure out why and why it’s taking so long and it’s such a difficult fight to get everything moving forward for me right now why am I being held here.
I am putting off making plans I am really living my life the way that I want to live it actually finding the love that will love me the way that I am used to being loved having someone who is compatible with me who is honest and loving and giving and has roots like I do and who is honorable who I wouldn’t mind taking Home to my mom and who has morals and things of that sort who I can travel with who will cherish me and celebrate me as I would them this is what I’m putting off with the life I’m living right now it’s like my life is shrouded in secrecy because of who I am with and what I’m dealing with and I’m tired of living in shame. I am a family oriented person and I want the person who I am with to be family oriented as well I love my family and I love traveling I don’t want to be just one of many I am the one and that is how it should be so this is what I’m putting off and I don’t want to continue that for much longer.
When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)?
I was always a homebody and my mom always told us to be in the house by dark when we were little. One thing you never wanted to hear is her calling your name ever or you were in big trouble. When we got older she got more lenient and we could stay out a little later like 9 or 9:30 unless we were going to church or something then there was no time limit cause church was like a marathon. This one Wednesday night I had just turned 18 in September I was feeling so big and grownup like I could do anything I wanted to I had met this man who was pursuing me really hard I invited him to church and he came my naïve behind thinking he is really into me this lying 35 claiming he is 22 then 28 years old man had my 17 then 18 years old nose wide open. I got out of church and me being all grown now was going to walk home with him at night it was a great walk even if it cast me my senior activities due to the child that came from me being so damn grown. You live and you learn.
If you had a million dollars to give away, who would you give it to?
I would put it aside to gain interest in a trust half for my children and half for my grandsons who are still little to help them realize their dreams when they grow up so they don’t have to worry about getting a head start on life they will know grandma always loved them.
What’s something you would attempt if you were guaranteed not to fail.
I would start a nonprofit for the well-being of small children five and under to teach them how to learn adapt and grow in an environment that is not geared toward helping them succeed in life but is more geared toward showing them how to grow up too fast and navigate the world as adults before they are even able to speak I would create programs that would help them utilize their small developing adventurous imaginations so that they are able to still be children but also be the great minds of the future without having a bunch of responsibility and a bunch of unnecessary attitude around them they would have different approaches to education and learning as well as different approaches to growth and development with a myriad of developmental bases of learning where it’s fun but also Educational with different kinds of motivational people in their environment who also have a heart for children and I would advocate for them on every level whether it’s food games education athletics or just as simple as communication between children and parents activism is more than just marching and talking it is also real life action and that is what I would do if I knew I would not fail.
What was the hardest personal goal you’ve set for yourself?
I have always wanted to own a pregnant teens group home for a long time so I set up a goal to achieve this by the age of 55. It has become a bit daunting because I don’t know the steps by which to take in order to accomplish it I know that I need to own a building and I need support plus staff, but trying to figure out what steps to take and the people to talk to to accomplish. This is difficult to understand and how to go about getting my foot in the door to get the houses in order to achieve this feet so I have constantly stopped before really getting started. This has been a passion of mine, since I was a teenager when I went from school to school talking about being a pregnant teen myself, or I want to own a total of three, and get into the business part of it to accomplish my goal of becoming someone to help society, and girls and learn that they can still make it even after they have children early.
In music there are some in R&B some in gospel some in reggae some soft country some in Christian some in pop some in soft rock some and country rap some in regular rap all of these have touched my life in different ways there are also artists that have touched my life in movie genres television genres as well as Radio genres and in books they all play a different role and have a different part of my life.
If I was to say my favorite artist someone I could listen to all day every day it would be either a mixture of Kirk Franklin, R. Kelly, Janet Jackson, Tupac Shakur biggie smalls Marvin Sapp, Fantasia, Joe, Chris Brown, Tank, BB and CC Winans, Marvin Winans, The Winans Luther Vandross. There are many others but these are the ones I can listen to nonstop and not ever get tired of listening to them
I have always been a dream or a person that likes to write and a person who likes to think and then I became a person who likes to speak so the things that I would write down I started seeing them aloud and watching them happen around me. I would always see things like a person who didn’t agree with what I saw or what I had said say it’s not because of what I said that this thing happened but I knew that it was because of what I said that it came about because of the sequence of events that took place that made it happen and it would make me chuckle because I didn’t knew that how it happened the process of what happened wouldn’t have happened like that if I hadn’t said it like that so I became a habit of mine to speak it into existence and watch it happen I’ve always been an optimist and I enjoy being an optimist because things always work out in my favor even when it doesn’t look like it. There’s always room for a win and since I’m a winner I always win in the end so my hobby is winning and writing about what I won. Whether that is weight loss Money understanding or peace of mind there are always little wins in everything.
What would you do if you lost all your possessions?
I have had to start over again so many times because of circumstances and life choices I lost all my stuff but I got back up and started over again got in a bad relationship and that guy was abusive and ripped up all my stuff and scared me in the process so I ended up in a shelter lost all my stuff a second time but what I would do is build myself up again getting my stuff a little by little
The struggle is now not forever 