When I was in school, I was always intrigued by debate. I always wanted to give speeches and speak in front of the school, but I always thought I would be too afraid in front of everyone or that I wasn’t pretty enough or able to get my words out so I stayed out the spotlight, but I had a passion for speaking and I knew I would be good at it. If I could get up the courage to do it I gave one speech I did really well at it, but I didn’t do it again I went into coding But saw that it was very intricate and I need it so much information in order to learn how to put things in order and to understand all of the detail that would go into getting everything to move right function right and be perfect on the screen, so that is something I would love to learn, in order to build my own world in the virtual world I am really into technology and the architecture of things, especially when it comes to aesthetics of my house in my head and how I am vision it looking, so these are the things that I would like to learn other than Swahili, and become fluent in Spanish and French as well as Getting down a steady diet.
What details of your life could you pay more attention to?
Sometimes the people in my life who I find myself sharing my life with or not the best company the little details that mattered to me the most are not held in high esteem, and it seems to bring my vibration down like if I want to celebrate an accomplishment that I feel is important You would think someone who is supposed to be your biggest cheerleader would also be your biggest fan as well but sometimes that person is only there to be your devils advocate, and be the one to always try and tell you that they are the realist or the pessimist in your life And it doesn’t help you get anywhere when you just want somebody to talk to you instead of constantly give you that underhanded backhand that you wasn’t looking for or that you didn’t need
I have learned to pay attention to those small details, and no win to stop giving details to people who were only give back. I needed rhetoric instead of needed conversation. I now talk to people who give me considerate confirmation even if it’s constructive criticism, the objective word is constructive, and it’s necessary not unnecessary always giving with love not sarcasm and I can appreciate that.
I sometimes wonder what happened to society I was reading a post about a person who went into a fast food restaurant to get something to eat not inside through the drive-through and they ordered some nuggets because they had a deal going on you order the 10 or 20 piece and you’ll get it a free fry with it small or large so she got a large and matter fact she got two free large fries with it. She told them the kind of sauces that she wanted for the nuggets and when I’m through the line she paid for it before she got there cause she ordered it online, the app since everything is done by app these days, but as she got through the line paid for her stuff left got home she realized that not only has she not gotten the kind of nuggets that she ordered. She didn’t even get any sauce for the nuggets as she thought about that, she just kept thinking how society is always complaining about wages and pay and how people don’t get a living wage and she just kept thinking how the government keeps lifting wages to make life easier but when she needs something and she goes to get simple things like the food that she wants to eat from a simple fast food restaurant Who is now going to be making $15-$20 an hour she can’t even get her order correct even though she’s putting so much time to learn what she’s learned at the job that she does that she hast to get correct or someone’s life could be in danger or someone’s Family could be hurt if she gets it wrong and she thinks about how all of these people don’t take their career and live seriously but they always take their pay seriously but they don’t put in the effort. It is when it comes time to go towards that future, they just want society to feel sorry for them and give them a leg up And then she wanders why are we as a society OK with that? Why are we always so willing to give give give instead of challenging people to do better with their self and their goals in life when will we start letting them know that if you want better, you need to do better you can’t expect a hand out all the time and still think that you deserve everything that other people have worked really hard for you can’t become an overnight sensation when you’ve only practice one Time, you want become a superstar singer if you only sang in the bathroom, so that record deal will not be coming your way you won’t be the lead cook at a restaurant if your favorite dish is cereal us as a society have got to begin to stand up for the things that we have worked hard for and stop letting people jump in and demand what they have not earned because it’s not fair to each and everyone of us and it’s definitely not OK when we keep getting the wrong stuff for what we paid for that was just an observation. Have a great evening.
I have always wanted to be remembered as someone who helped and made a difference in my families life that I have memories to cherish with my kids, grandkids and great grands along with my brothers and sisters that I was a generous person and I built a legacy that would help not only children grow into productive human beings, but also would build well for generations to come so that my family would have a family business that was surrounded by mental health, togetherness the village concept of raising children, and the connectedness of having one generation after another know each other, and be together. This is not what I see in my family society, and the world at large, my fear is that we will become a technological society and forget what it feels like to have that connection with each other to where we understand how each other thinks how each other is dependent on one another and able to function in this world so that you understand subliminal messages you understand the simple things I decide I you understand when you’re talking too much you understand when you go out to eat, you don’t act a monkey These things are important attributes of human life and it is so important for me to be able to be there to show my grandchildren and great grands how to be great human beings. These are my fears of the future because so much time has been lost, and it seems this new thought of being a working person has taken the place of being a family unit People don’t understand how important family is and what family brings you that kind of stability. Love care, unconditional love, especially when it’s your own child so this is my goal is for the future because no matter what happens in my life I know in my heart, that I will always have the love of my brothers and sisters, my nieces and nephews, because at the end of the day, we literally grew up together and I wouldn’t ever abandon them for any reason or my children no matter what they do, even if they’re hardhead as hell I still with it because I was taught better. Thank God for a mother, who prayed and still does.
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One thing I do not spend a lot of time on is self-care and time meditating for myself I spend a lot of time wondering where I should have went right when I went wrong instead of doing self evaluation’s and healing I think I would do better spending my time on self-care and self healing, and not worrying about the little hurdles that come toward me that I know, I have no power over that they are there for a reason and not to make a mountain out of a mole hill because some people are just broken and it is not my responsibility to fix them. I have to work on me and once I’m done working on me the right vibes and intensity and person will enter my life who matches my vibe, and since I know that I have to focus on what brings me peace and happiness and exit out of anything that takes away my peace and my happiness so that I stay on track and I move forward with my best life so these are things that I’ve learned and that I am working on every day sometimes I fall down but I always get back up. It might not be quick, but it is getting faster and faster.
What’s the best piece of advice you’ve ever received?
I have always been around people who have wisdom beyond their years who would always tell me never second guess the first thought you had about a situation that you found yourself in. That feeling that you get when you know something isn’t right but you try to justify it And make it be right and things just keep going wrong and getting worse the longer you try to stay in it or try to keep doing it that person that you don’t want to meet your family or that venture that you want to keep a secret because you know it is a get rich quick scheme that will probably not work. Your first mind tells you don’t do it but you push that aside and listen to the person in your ear who is saying it’ll be OK and then all fails and you realize I should’ve follow my first mind, so I realize now that first voice that I hear is always the right one to listen to because if no one is going to look out for me, I will always look out for me and I know me best one thing I know for sure is, I won’t fail me no matter what is going on and I always have fun with me even when no one else is around.
When I was growing up, holidays were the best time of year. It was something you look forward to you celebrate it with family and friends doing things being out and about (I am so upset. I had a whole post right here and this phone decided to delete it, and I have to start again, anyway just a little pissed off about it) I loved being out with my sister and brothers or even just shopping alone thinking about them and the things I would do for them for the holidays or the things we were going to do together there were times when I would see something, and we knew each other so well that we knew each other‘s interests And likes and dislikes, so I love whichever way always make us desire to do something special for each other. If it was my mom, she was a human information seeker so I would always get her something like books or something to figure out like puzzles and things like that if it was my sister, she like trinkets and little gadget type things so if I was in a store and I saw like a little Figurine type teddy bear I would pick up a few of those knowing that she would appreciate it. If it was my brothers, they were always into moving parts so it was going to be something like a model car or a game that they had to figure out or a bike to put together, we all knew each other so well because we cared about each others inner workings so we did whatever it took to be a part of each other’s lives if it was a national holiday like the Fourth of July we planned out what to cook we were going to be at a park we were going to have some kind of major Food gathering and we were going to play games and have fun and be with either a bunch of friends, playing baseball or tag or whatever it was. We were all going to be together doing it and join each other laughing and just having a all-around good time for most of the day, and that was the most exhilarating part of life everything made sense even if it was the camaraderie of people around you one year we had been out to Santa Anita mall in California and it was just a few of us on the bus on the way back home, and the bus driver was in such good spirits But he allowed us to jump off the bus grab a Christmas tree and get back on. That was the kind of care that all of us have for each other. The seasons mattered we cooked with each other whether it was my mom doing bread my sister doing something in the kitchen, me baking cookies at the table, my brother sitting over there on the couch with my nieces and nephews, watching some kind a game or a movie
That was outrageously loud and laughing with the kids. My brother has the most infectious laugh that when he lives it trickles down the block and you can just feel people coming because it’s an atmosphere of happiness around holidays were time to get together. Enjoy each other, always think about the next person and have a feeling of connectedness And we were the kind of family that didn’t just bring gifts for our mom. We bought gifts for everyone if we’re coming, we’re going to bring something for everybody so that we all know that we have let you know you matter to us with my own children, the look on their faces when they would come out and see all the stuff under the tree it was like they would be in shock and then watching them dance to whatever new game it was that they were playing singing along to that new Michael Jackson game trying to get the beat right so they didn’t get out was funny in itself it would take me back to going to visit my grandmother and see how my cousin would be so overjoyed to find out that he got the Michael Jackson doll or a vest or shoe or whatever it was memories like that stay with you as life goes on because I no longer have my grandparents but I can still see them in my mind like they’re right here with me. I no longer have some of my cousins, but I can still see them, saying my name and talking to me and laughing and being just as silly as they were back, then and a serious as they were but still loving me all the way through my holidays are not the same now because I didn’t vet well and the person that I’m with doesn’t cherish the things that I cherish or love the things that I love so when my birthday comes I don’t get to do the things that I would do with my family as I grew up I don’t get to do Christmas or New Year’s or Thanksgiving the way that I remember it as I was growing up I don’t get to be there to bury my love ones or see how life is and feel connected the way that I used to feel some choices are regrettable. One thing I have learned, though life is full of change, and you can’t keep doing the same thing expecting a different result, because that is the very definition of insanity and I am not insane. Anyway, my holidays are different now, but they won’t be different forever
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Self love is important. I have the love me before anything.
Write about your most epic baking or cooking fail.
I love to cook one of my favorite things to make at holiday time is macaroni and cheese made from scratch. I made some macaroni and cheese for my husband to show him that I knew how to make it and instead of him, just eating it before the festivities start it Around Thanksgiving he decided he was going to turn my masterpiece into one of his resounding concoctions and add it get this some marshmallows to my macaroni and cheese. I was disgusted by it and did not eat any of it. It did not turn out right it reminded me of a kid who is trying to do a experimental product in the kitchen like making, a peanut butter and pickle sandwich or a honey and mustard, peanut butter and jelly sandwich. It did not turn out well at all. After that point, I decided I would not cook for him ever again he complained and complained that I was not doing my womanly duty for him after that, I didn’t care because I felt as if he did not appreciate the things that I was doing for him And my kids were grown and gone and I did not have a reason to be slaving in the kitchen for anyone when I could just eat out or throw something quick together but I now have started trying to get back in the habit of doing cooking for a better purpose not Jess Because I want to eat anyway that is my experience with cooking for a better purpose and my purpose for cooking. That was an epic fail.
Share a lesson you wish you had learned earlier in life.
When I was younger, I prayed about everything, and I always knew what to do which way to go what was right and if the choice I was getting ready to make was going to add to my life or subtract from it and I would always follow my first mind And that choice always turned out to be the right one no matter if it was something as simple as driving down the street and turning right instead of left doing that always got me to the right point at the right time in the right journey. When I started hearing, my first mind tell me you know this isn’t what you should do and instead of shutting it down immediately starting to question that and justify the choice that I was making instead of shutting it down everything after that point started going the wrong way and every choice after that did not go right until I apologized for not listening to that first choice and cut everything down that did not coincide with what happened that I did not listen to after that choice. It was so distinct that I knew down to a T when things were turned around and the point when they were turned around, so now I know that that statement is so true you do better (you will do better when you knew better) and I haven’t went back to the former since that point and things have slowed in the right direction since then this is why I have always believed prayer changes things.
I have been on a virtual roller coaster because the meta-verse is so new to me and it’s so awesome that I find myself immersed in so many different aspects of it and so excited by all the things that I’m finding and seeing and being involved in that it is so much fun That the New World and sceneries in places that I am going to I can’t seem to get enough of it. It is mine blowing so when I am done with my chores for the day and my writing, and my immense decision, making about life and all that is going on I go into a whole New World to see and meet new people and explore what it is that is out there that I didn’t know about and I am really enjoying it so far. I can travel I can vacation I can earn, and I can meet and greet all wow in the comfort of my own home. I absolutely enjoy every aspect of it. It is a world in itself. Not to mention, I can cook and learn new cultures and languages and ways to work. It is amazing. Plus the like-minded people. I am having a blast. Still looking for my friends though.
The struggle is now not forever 