I understand that everyone has their personal issues but my personal issue today is I am sick of seeing dogs everywhere. I can’t go into a grocery store a place of business or even just a walk down the street without seeing peoples dogs everywhere I was at somewhere that is supposed to be sanitary today and here comes this man with his dog, which is unsanitary in this place of business that should only be allowed service dogs. I am so sick of seeing dogs everywhere I go on the bus. I don’t know where I can go to get some semblance of peace without having everyone and friends on my right for my peace of mind. I wish we could go back to the days where things were assemblance of normal. I really hope that people will start standing up for what normalcy really looks like. I shouldn’t see a dog in the grocery store or in a place of business that is not a service dog. It’s not sanitary and it really is starting to get on my nerves. Anyway that’s my  gripe  for today.
My daughter is going through a rough patch right now and I have been very concerned about her for months I had finally gotten her and my grandsons (1&3) out here where she could finally get on her feet and not have to worry about babysitting and homelessness just working building her money up and getting on her feet.
But unbeknownst to me she was still dealing with her abusive ex-baby daddy who got her homeless in the first place tried to kill her 3 different times and is her drug dealer. So at the last minute after I got her (me and other family members) all set up with clothes baby items and was working on getting her a place to live she decided to send the kids back to Texas.
Then sprung on me she was going too but the thing is she has no where to live there plus she has evictions because of the tumultuous relationship with this ex so I told her it didn’t make any sense to live on the streets over there just to be near a guy who told you to your face he hates you. But now she has stopped talking to me.
I don’t take back anything that I said because he doesn’t mean her any good and I got all my information from her it’s crazy what drugs will make you do I just pray he doesn’t hurt her cause I will end up in prison frfr!!!
Please keep my daughter and grandsons in your thoughts and prayers cause they need to be protected back here in California asap
I picked up and moved to start a new chapter in my life. I don’t regret that I regret what happened when I got there, but I don’t regret moving. They have venture was wonderful. The experience was eye-opening and I learned a lot about different states and how they operate and let me know that a lot of things that happen in different places are not like home so it also gave me different perspectives on how people are when they grow up in certain environments and with certain aspects of life when they are influenced by a certain atmosphere all of their lives, knowing that lets me know Where I would not want to live ever again and where the people are, that are not my kind of people.  For example Florida is one of the most toxic states I’ve ever lived in. They are not the moral high ground, and they are very explicit in the way they live there. They don’t believe in being faithful and most of the men there do not respect the women they have in their lives as well as the women are the same way as the man compared to California or New Jersey. I won’t even mention Texas because that would take 100 more pages. 
I lived my life for my children. I wanted them to have the life that I didn’t get to have growing up. I was looking for something that I wasn’t able to get. I ended up failing all the way around I sometimes wonder was any of it worth it? I lost everything. I continue to lose the more I live. I wonder why I’m still alive now. I cry every day. I have this immense sense of brokenness and sadness because all I wanted was a life filled with love and happiness, and all I got was pain and sadness. I wear a smile on my face but inside 90% of the time I wish I was dead. 
I suffer from anxiety and depression so I have support animals dogs that help me to cope with my issues they help keep me calm. Give me the support. I need so that I can focus on other things. I also have schizophrenia my support animals along with my medication that I take on a daily basis, they get me outside. They give me a routine and they help me to manage my life. Well, I had a neighbor that moved in behind me. I never had any problems with any of my animals before this neighbor moved in, but because my dogs barked to let me know when someone was coming when danger was near, and just to talk to me, the neighbor called animal protective services on my dogs they came and made up excuses to take my dogs. I am devastated by the loss of my animals and I am asking for your help so that I can bite to get my animals back. They are a part of my family never harmed anyone they don’t deserve this neither do I, I am fighting to raise $7000 for all the fees that I’m having to pay to get them back so that my family can be home again. Please help me bring my dogs home. They mean the world to me.
I have a go fund me if you were donating anything to go towards getting my dogs back I would greatly appreciate it.
People who can never take responsibilities for their own actions who always blame everyone else for things that are their responsibility or who always turn things around that are their responsibility and act as if they are going to take responsibilities for something, but really don’t take no responsibility no accountabilityand no real put no effort into anything. They do do this reverse psychology stuff when you know it’s there backwards thinking that caused the thing to happen. They make me nervous.
When someone is fake on the outside and people believe them end up, getting hurt, not me
I always believe in myself and my instincts I haven’t come across an impact that my instincts have told me not to trust where I have been wrong. I see things and people, and I know what their intentions are, and I listen closely and pay attention, and once I learn what they are about, I know how to act accordingly because when a person tells me who they are, I believe them from the very beginning if they tell me, they are a liar I believe them, and I don’t trust anything they say after that point, I look at them I see what they do. I listen to what they say how they talk the things they say about other people and everything and I know not to tell them anything or trust them with anything because they have proven and shown to me that they are a total liar. They are a total user, and they are literally limited person that should not be trusted to be a part of my life or it could be a job that says I will get benefits after a certain amount of time, but then they contradict themselves that says the job doesn’t come with benefits, I believe the latter once I know the truth about something I go with my first instant, because I know that no matter what a person will say the truth about them is the truth about them, and I won’t put myself in jeopardy by believing their lies, so I will give the minimal instead of trying to hurt myself by giving the most and not getting the most back, I will put my intentions into what is best for my future as best I can I have too many things going on to trust someone who can’t be trusted, so yes, I do follow my instincts always.
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I’ve met a few but I will start with my favorite few of them
Who is the most famous or infamous person you have ever met?
The first ones I remember meeting our Tia & Tamera Mowry and their little brother smart guy they came to my church when it was named the neighborhood Church of God before it changed the name to Pasadena Church guy in Pasadena California they were so nice and pleasant at my church they came with their parents they were still in their early teens and smart guy was so short and cute The next star I met was Stevie Wonder and then I met Mr. Cooper from hanging with Mr. Cooper I guess being from California you see a lot of stars but you don’t meet a lot of them I want to me personally CeCe Winans Brandy and maybe Oprah Winfrey one day but at the top of my list is Michelle Obama that would be a great day. I enjoy inspirational women it shows me that I can meet an inspirational person and be an influence on that inspirational man you became something great that’s what I love about Michelle Obama the most because President Obama became president and her influence encouraged that. Those are the kind of woman I want to be around that kind of influence takes people were in line even like the conversation I watched between Jeezy and Nia Long
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I have been fighting Social Security for over six years now and for the life of me I have been in a fog just going through the motions every day trying to figure out what The next step is to get my life back in order which direction to go or whether to just cut my losses and do what I know best to do and every time I start to go in that direction I feel like I am on the brink of, doing something that will turn my life upside down if I go that route because making rash choices in my life in the past has cost me greatly and I don’t wanna do it again even though I don’t regret those choices I don’t want to do them again and end up in a hole bigger than I’ve ever been in even though I’m not happy in the situation I’m in right now and I know I don’t wanna be in it for the rest of my life I don’t want to uproot again and start over somewhere else without having my ducks in a row or having a solid plan I don’t want to begin again without at least having everything that I know I came here with because it wouldn’t be right and I would be devastated so I’m trying to understand what it is that I need to do and why I am so hesitant to move forward even though I know I am able to land on my feet and get things done I just don’t feel like I am supposed to go anywhere right now and I don’t understand why so that is why I am trying to figure out why and why it’s taking so long and it’s such a difficult fight to get everything moving forward for me right now why am I being held here.
I am putting off making plans I am really living my life the way that I want to live it actually finding the love that will love me the way that I am used to being loved having someone who is compatible with me who is honest and loving and giving and has roots like I do and who is honorable who I wouldn’t mind taking Home to my mom and who has morals and things of that sort who I can travel with who will cherish me and celebrate me as I would them this is what I’m putting off with the life I’m living right now it’s like my life is shrouded in secrecy because of who I am with and what I’m dealing with and I’m tired of living in shame. I am a family oriented person and I want the person who I am with to be family oriented as well I love my family and I love traveling I don’t want to be just one of many I am the one and that is how it should be so this is what I’m putting off and I don’t want to continue that for much longer.
The struggle is now not forever 