The strength in numbers

What aspects of your cultural heritage are you most proud of or interested in?

The aspects of my cultural heritage that I am most proud of is how we come together when something needs to be done, and we put our strength in our numbers and accomplish the goal that we are seeking out to accomplish. How we manage to put our differences aside and really focus on, the goal at hand to make whatever is the issue at hand to go away even if we all go our separate ways after that, we will stand together on that issue to make it a top priority to get it accomplished no matter how long it takes no matter how much it may Keep us from doing something else at that moment it is the most important thing that needs to be accomplished, and we will do any and everything to accomplish it until it is done for example, in Alabama when the man was being attacked everyone stopped what they were doing at that moment to go and Protect him. It didn’t matter what was happening around him or them. They stopped another example when they made Rosa parks get off the bus and was disrespectful to her. We stopped riding the bus and it took over a year, but we persisted to make it happen, so that they would give us equal rights to ride the bus freely and fairly another example is when we want it to be able to vote we stopped, allowing them to treat us any other kind of way, and we’ve been together to accomplish, making it a nationwide goal to not work with anything they have going on to make it happen every time when it’s something that we all want we will stand together to make it happen that is something that I love about my culture. We still are that way just in a different way now, and I appreciate that inner strength that we have to do that in order to accomplish the goal of having us matter things like that or what keeps us moving forward And all of us working together we still have a long way to go, but I do appreciate that about my culture, even though it takes an immense strength and something major to happen for us to do that the fact that we will do it I love it about us And I appreciate my culture for it

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Stupid

If you had to give up one word that you use regularly, what would it be?

I have several conversations with a certain person during the day and as I am talking to this person, I am always saying in my mind. In my thoughts when I walk away this person is so stupid. Why do they think like this? That was stupid this is stupid. Why do they act so stupid? Why is there behavior so stupid Why do I put up with this stupid Ness of this person every other word out of my mouth when dealing with this person is always the word stupid coming out of my mouth or a certain instances coming out of my mouth about this person makes me think that I am becoming stupid from dealing with them and I keep thinking that you are a product of the company that you keep so I always try to rephrase my thoughts and cautioned myself to put a cap on what I’m about to say or do so that I do not let that word stupid come out of my mouth because I know the more that I said the more I am bringing that back into my life so that is the one word there are others, but that is the main word that I really am working on getting rid of out of my thoughts out of my mouth and out of my heart when it comes to things that happen during my daily routine.

God is life

How important is spirituality in your life?

Spirituality is very important to me because God is life.

God has made my life worthwhile and worth living things haven’t always been easy but with him by my side, I’ve been able to get through a lot and not go over the deep end. I’ve had some very traumatic events in my life. I didn’t know what was coming next or what to do, but my faith and my belief kept me going. There’s so much more I could say, but I want him with this God is everything..

My husband got out of the hospital

It had been a week and he was still not doing well when I called 911 for him he had scared me and I wasn’t going to lose him. He was talking crazy but he was alive, I couldn’t put my finger on it and I didn’t know how to cope with it but I knew he wasn’t ready to go home in a short amount of time he was putting his affairs in order telling me what to do and how I would be able to sustain myself after he was gone and that was not rational to me him being in his 40s we have a whole life to live and I kept telling him that but he wasn’t trying to hear me he just kept saying let him go. When they finally got him to a point where he was starting to get of sound mind he began to blame me for keeping him there and that hurt even worse because when I care about somebody their life is the most important thing to me and their survival is paramount to everything else. I would never want anything to happen to him despite his treatment of people or me I still want him around because everybody deserves every chance until that last chance is given now I feel like an outsider because I wanted to check on him and was told they will see if he’s up for company (While staying at a non-immediate family members house) when I’m his wife now I’m a part of everybody else amazing that really hurts when I am the one that got him to the hospital it’s crazy if I’m only the tables were turned.

A piece of paper

I had to take a long ride with my husband to advocate for him out of town but for me it was a time to get away with someone I love ❤️ and also help him convey how he is doing on a daily basis like I always do. Instead of this being a relaxing time it became an interrogation of all the things he feels I have done wrong because of his belief that he should have many relationships but not let those people know he has a wife or mate and I feel that’s wrong because he is taking their right to choose away because he can not comment to any of them so I feel like he is using them and he gets angry 😡 with me and denys me the things I desire.

He told me on this trip we are only married on paper he is not really married to me and as I thought 💭 about that and all that I have done for him it really hurt 😔 my feelings that he could be that disrespectful to me but then again what did I expect from a person that uses and disrespects women all the time in (including his own sisters) the first place can’t blame anyone but myself. Happy Saturday the last one in February! Happy Black History month

Long term love that’s real

This week on the 25th marked my one year anniversary being married to my husband Làron and you know what we did nothing because he has said that I don’t follow him which is not true I knew not to be with someone like him in the first place but my loving heart told me to try to make it work now I’m with a person who never celebrates me or takes in the things that I feel are important and has an explosive argumentative personality that no matter what I say he always say the opposite and honestly I’m really tired of it I want my peace back where I can have my hope and watch things work out for me in my face with out his hate speech because nothing works out for him because of what he spews out of his mouth all the time Anyway I am in the process of making new friends that are like minded so that I can have people to celebrate and who will celebrate me it seems to be working and I’m good with it.

Today was a hard day

I started out this day so tired that I even woke up late I still made it to work on time but I felt rushed and out of sync because of the last couple of days I like the making my own schedule because it gives my body time to rest and we cooperate from all the walking and moving and mental strain of being in the work world so I came on here and to say this always put your help and well-being first because jobs come and go the human being doing the job does not happy Wednesday

He is so evil

I was up late last night trying to find new friends and enjoy my night when my husband begins to tell me to go to bed like I’m a child he tells me to chill out cause I was laughing at some of the conversations I was having with my friends on my computer to the point that he came to see who I was talking to and demanding that I stop being happy and go to bed saying I would have to get up early when that was not true. When I told him that he began to hit me over and over again and yell at me for no reason like what I was doing was so terrible then he took my things away (my phone, computer, and pad and told me my things were not mine which was crazy I was so upset I was crying and couldn’t think straight as he kept demanding that I listen to him or he would hurt me again he kept forcing me to drink and telling me how much he doesn’t care about how I feel it was so disrespectful and disheartening but I made it through he will get his soon enough.

Why is it so hard

I’m tired of trying to get him to understand who I am and what’s important to me. I never dreamed I would be with a person who only sees things from their own twisted point of view and tried to make that view be law always. I was raised to give without expecting anything in return but my partner give’s always expecting something in return with interest then wonder’s why no one loves him without conditions yeah I know it’s crazy but true. I can’t tell him anything without him making it seem as if I’m being unreasonable or unrealistic when it’s him who is taking things to a place they don’t need to go.

My frustration is overwhelming and I’m tired of trying to always be the good person when I’m being beat down by someone who can’t respect anything that we don’t agree on or that I don’t agree with him on I’m tired of the my way or high way method with him. He is not always right matter of fact half the time he is not right and I’m tired of being taken advantage of for keeping the peace while he continues to keep his narcissistic beliefs no matter how far fetched they are anyway I want better for my life this unhealthy unhappiness is for the birds!

He’s Jealous of my past

When I met my ex-husband I was in a very vulnerable state I was young and needed to feel appreciated and loved it was the simple things that mattered to me and he saw that and did what I needed at the time.

I had no idea he was just grooming me to be blinded to the dirt he was doing behind my back so yes I loved him unconditionally to the detriment of everything I loved or that matter to me in my life.

Fast-forward my new husband the libra ♎ is always probing for information whatever he can use against anyone at any given moment he kept asking me about my life with my ex and I explained a little bit about it and he went on and on talking about how I worked for my ex and how I like broke ni$_as even though that was not the case at all.

There were situations that my kids needed things and I definitely was not about to let them go without so I took a temporary job to satisfy the need at the time but he just kept going on and on about it saying I should work for him now I keep telling him the situation is not the same he is not him and my kids are grown. Then he’ll say I really loved that ni#$a. He wants that kind of love truth be told he has never treated me the way my ex did my feelings are not the same for him at all and more then likely never will be.

I am older wiser stronger and don’t want to love that way again especially with a man that can’t belong to me and only me. I have a lot to offer a mate and if he can’t give me something as simple as some of his time why would I give him my unconditional love I matter and to the right person I will mean the world to. He refuses to see that but still wants my best for him while he never sees his faults or what causes me my distress in him he will say I find things wrong that are not wrong. Happy Saturday y’all I will not let him mess with my mind period.