Tag: abuse

I completed my TMS

On By L Corelle GreenIn adventure, family, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

Today I went to my last TMS therapy appointment it has been my one constant for the last few weeks and the people there were so supportive and loving that I always wanted to go back even on the days when I felt the worst I always knew when I got there I would be greeted with a smile and treated with respect.

I enjoyed every minute of my time there with them and will miss them very much I almost cried leaving today but I do feel better having had been there with them for such a time as this.

I needed this break through and got it now it’s time for the work of life to begin. I will start something new and make that happen in my life to help better myself. Anyway happy Friday

He is back home yay

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, narcissist, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

My grandson is back home with my daughter I am so happy for her having him back she kept her cool kept doing the work and it paid off.

I tried to share my good news to my narcissistic husband (big mistake) he took my news and turned it into a whole conversation about him and how bad women are 🙃😒🙄 I just kept saying geeze I’m sure sorry I even told you because you can never just celebrate with me it always has to go into something about you.

He says that by me saying that I made the whole conversation about me I told him at this point I’m getting off the phone with you because I refuse to be your punching bag any more (verbally of course) and I hung up the phone he kept calling me back saying because he pays the phone bill I don’t have a right to get off the phone he is a classic Libra for real with his entitlement attitude he has all the time this crazy.

He lives in his karma and it doesn’t let up because of the way he treats everyone especially me I try to talk to him but he will tell me I’m karma which is not true because I don’t treat people bad or use people for personal gain I don’t have a, you do for me and I’ll do for you attitude, because that’s not a positive way to be. I believe it’s you do unto others as you would have them do unto you, but he doesn’t believe that he believes if they do for him he will do for them he always has to be getting something in return no matter what and that selfish.

He says I’m a narcissist

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

I was having a conversation with husband last night and he told me I was a narcissist and that I think about myself always first it’s crazy. Because I always put other people first I have been told that to many times.

When I got with him his very first statement out of his mouth was he comes first he is always first place so from that point on I realized that (with him) I have to put myself first cause he will never look out for my best interest.

Then I find out he feels men need more then one women to be happy and that he feels this is biblical it’s crazy especially when he has never read the Bible. I was taught to follow the man that follows God how do I follow someone who is clearly the opposite of a godly man that will lead me to clearly to destruction do I ignore my morals and go with the flow or do I keep praying that he finds his way.

I know I’m not a narcissist and I definitely know he is and the way I am with him is a direct result of his treatment of me over time. I just hope he finds his way before it’s too late and he finds himself in a problem he can’t get out of. Anyway good morning guys have a wonderful Wednesday.

Am I wrong

On By L Corelle GreenIn RelationshipsLeave a comment

I want to be with a man that is open and honest with me. Doesn’t beat around the bush and play games with my heart or my head. Is that to much to ask for in a relationship?

I am very open minded and willing to give my everything to the people I care about as long as I feel the same thing in return it’s hard to give when I feel like I’m not appreciated or whatever I do falls on deaf ears.

I know relationships are give an take but what happens when you’re always giving and the other person minimizes what you give and makes it seem as if what they give is more significant than what you do? Even when what you do is really their responsibility and you take up the slack for them in every way possible when is enough enough?

Does Truth really matter

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I was in a a relationship for over 10 years with a man I loved and hated all at the same time. I would often pray back then that God would either let him die first or end of in jail forever just so I could be free from him cause I was afraid of him but I also felt indebted to him as well. He was mentally and emotionally and physically sexually abusive not just to me but to our children I was so used to being used that I never even saw the person that he was until it was too late and I was back being that little girl who was used to being treated poorly with no way out.

I came to him with no self-esteem looking any old kind of way like a tomboy and he showed me how to drive, pay bills, get my own place, and care for my own life then he used all that to break me completely to the point where I was ready to end my own life after finding out he used my love for him to blind me to what he was doing to my children. But it is a true statement what is done ✅ in the dark will always come to the light 💡 so I guess that’s why he is in prison forever.

Which brings me to the question at hand ✍️ does truth really matter when I got with my now partner I had only one ☝️ criteria I didn’t care if he made mistakes just tell me the truth. I believe if someone has certain feelings or beliefs I should have the choice if I want to be apart of that or not don’t lie to me or about me to someone else and not let me in on this and expect me to go along with the story you told.

I am open to a poly relationship but not if me of the other person female/s don’t know about each other it’s (to me) not healthy or safe and most of all it’s not balanced no matter how people try to make it seem like it’s a great thing quality time is supposed to mean something not just words. It takes work to make a relationship succeed and the more people in that relationship the more work the dominant person which is supposed to be the man has to put in if it’s that kind of relationship. I always want to feel apart weather it be myself a woman and a man, myself and a woman or myself and a man I need to feel connected always. So tell me does the truth make relationships better or worse?