I understand that everyone has their personal issues but my personal issue today is I am sick of seeing dogs everywhere. I can’t go into a grocery store a place of business or even just a walk down the street without seeing peoples dogs everywhere I was at somewhere that is supposed to be sanitary today and here comes this man with his dog, which is unsanitary in this place of business that should only be allowed service dogs. I am so sick of seeing dogs everywhere I go on the bus. I don’t know where I can go to get some semblance of peace without having everyone and friends on my right for my peace of mind. I wish we could go back to the days where things were assemblance of normal. I really hope that people will start standing up for what normalcy really looks like. I shouldn’t see a dog in the grocery store or in a place of business that is not a service dog. It’s not sanitary and it really is starting to get on my nerves. Anyway that’s my  gripe  for today.
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My daughter, my daughter, my daughter
I’ve always related to my youngest daughter and the most because she was the one I was closest to out of all of my kids. She was the one that had my face, and she was the one that when she was born my sister had already claimed my other two kids so tell me I had to keep her with me at all times so I always felt this close to her. She was my last child, my baby, the child that was born out of love because I was in love with her father when she was conceived I never dreamed that she would be the one to give me the most heartache or would be the one who would be the biggest liar out of all my kids even though my middle daughter, cosmic pain I never thought that my last daughter would be the one to make me one in my life. I would’ve done anything for her no matter the cost no matter what was going on in my life if I thought that she was in danger or anything was happening, I would’ve moved Heaven and earth for her I didn’t care what it cost me or if I had to lose everything I would do anything to make sure that she was OK. I know you shouldn’t have favorite kids, but she was the one who always had my back and who it felt like she had my back I never dream that she would let a dirtbag guy come in between her and me the reason I call him a dirtbag is because he’s abusive. He’s a cheat and he is a liar. I can’t blame her for the choices that she made because this is the example that I gave her so I should by myself but at some point, we have to take accountability for our actions so let me get down to the situation at hand my daughter have been homeless for sometime now, and she has two small children by two different men. The older son is by another abusive guy who put a gun to her head and the second child is by the most recent dirtbag who tried to throw over a balcony when she came out to California. It was because I was out here and where I am. She knows she always has to open door but she has this entitlement attitude about her She doesn’t like to. Do what’s right she feels like the world owes her something so so she doesn’t like to give anything toward anything whether she lives there with you or not and if you ask her to give towards the house where most people will say you can’t live anywhere for free she gets an attitude, unless it involves her activities such as her bud habit. Should do anything for our kids. I will give her that, but she had nothing to give them so the little bit of money that I had I spent on them she didn’t appreciate that either. She got this real big attitude because I didn’t want her to take my grandkids back over there to the abusive relationship that she Refused to let go of. She tries to claim that I tried to kidnap her kids when we all stayed in the same place and then she lied on the Internet about me claiming that I wanted her to have a baby for me which is disgusting. I never dreamed that the daughter I gave birth to would turn out to be an entitled spoiled brat. I know I have my flaws and I’m definitely not perfect but one thing I am not is sick in the head. I take my medicine every day and I live with the problems that I have. I’m so disappointed that she would buy me to get sympathy on the Internet. Just try to garner sympathy is no good reason to do these types of things I don’t want anything but the best for her I wouldn’t ever kidnap my grandkids even though she’s not stable and is unable to have a place for them to live right now so they’re staying with their other grandmother I still wouldn’t take them from her because that gives her a reason to continue to try to do better I just don’t know what to do because I don’t deserve that she deserves so much better in life but if she’s the kind of person, I just won’t accept help Even when it’s opera continuously I don’t know what else to do. I pray that she will one day find herself and get the help that she needs meanwhile, may the Lord keep her safe these are the things that I pray for all the time while she still bites with this man fist fights let her safety be first and everything else after that.
My my grandbabies keep them safe, protect them from hurt harm or danger
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I feel broken
I lived my life for my children. I wanted them to have the life that I didn’t get to have growing up. I was looking for something that I wasn’t able to get. I ended up failing all the way around I sometimes wonder was any of it worth it? I lost everything. I continue to lose the more I live. I wonder why I’m still alive now. I cry every day. I have this immense sense of brokenness and sadness because all I wanted was a life filled with love and happiness, and all I got was pain and sadness. I wear a smile on my face but inside 90% of the time I wish I was dead. 
God has always been there
God is so good he has done so much for me even though I gave up on Him at one point in my life I remember Him so well here is a story about His protection over me and my family: I was living in Long Beach California and my family had to move and had not found another place to live I told God what am I going to do I had the money just not the place and God said nothing. So I went with my kids to a hotel but now my money was running out. I said God I know you got me what am I to do (this came from being taught all my life God takes care of His own) I went down to catholic  charities and they didn’t have anything I went back to the hotel the very day I ran out of money I said God it’s all on you this is it and that very day all doors open and every door after that was nothing but Him. Even though I may not always agree with what or the way God does stuff He always makes me move the way I’m supposed to move God is good!!
Whatever is made
What are your feelings about eating meat?
 meat is something that is needed for good nourishment. It taste good it gives you energy and it helps. You continue to flourish in life. I like meat. I am very picky about the kinds of meats I eat I wouldn’t give them up. For any reason.
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The disappointment 
I’ve never felt more disappointed and disgusted by a result that I am today I can’t believe that people who look like me would vote for a racist asinine idiot like Donald Trump? I’ve never been more embarrassed to be an American than I am today. I can’t believe that we are so poor minded that we would vote somebody in just because he put his name on a little bitty, check this man doesn’t care about anybody but himself, and for them to vote him in is asinine to me we are laughing Stock of the world I cannot believe that this happened why are we so petty? Why would we set ourselves back like this? I only hope that everyone of those idiots who put him in office get the brunt of everything that he does.
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There’s more
There’s more life than wanting to do more and not accomplishing more. I’m with the narcissistic sociopath who only cares about himself. I wanted more out of life that’s why I got with him I never in my wildest dreams figured I would end up with a serial cheater who didn’t know how to keep his peter in his pants and had a woman in every city but at the same time hated women so much now have women all around the world off of a pipe dream of coming to America and living off of the state just so he can’t be put on child support how sick is that I’m praying to get away from this sick bastard. I hope he gets everything coming to him.
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My tolerance for things
What do you think gets better with age?
As I get older I noticed that my ability to deal with circumstances and people have gotten better I live my life almost aging like a fine wine. I recognize that I am able to function a lot better when I am more tolerant of circumstances and people I live life to the fullest I marvel at circumstances with a hard topic to discuss or people who don’t take you into consideration when accomplishing a goal but I’ve also learned that I can’t function much better when I either deal with those types of people less or have a more functional ability to love them through everything they’re doing. What do you think gets better with age?
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I wake up
Right now I wake up early in the morning around 6:30 AM I am always thinking about where are my future is going so it keeps me up I go to bed at 9 PM because my body needs rest and I have to take that seriously I love my sleeping hours it helps me to think and to work through things that I couldn’t accomplish during The day what are you are sleeping hours and how do you wake up are there things on your mind that make you stir during the night let me know in the comments.
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Peace of mind
What are the most important things needed to live a good life?
In order to live a good life, you must have peace of mind. Nothing comes before that nothing can take the place of that peace of mind can make a world of difference in the world full of chaos.
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The struggle is now not forever 