My daughter’s birthday

Today my youngest child turned 23. I am very happy that she has lived a whole Nother year. I am very proud of her and glad that she has done such a great job at surviving this long. I pray that the next year will be a great adventure for her full of great blessings and gifts, and welcome to potential that she will see nothing but goodness and treasure coming her way she is a blessing to be on this earth, and I love her very much. She makes my life happy and want to be encouraged about. I’m hoping to see her more and contribute to her happiness like my mom contributed to mine happy birthday my beautiful daughter. I love you. Lexys

My Birthday today 09/09

Today I turned 47 and I am very proud of that I had a very good day I woke up this morning to a delightfully wonderful cup of coffee that my sister made me she makes the best coffee I will say that it is always the right amount of sweetness and has this wonderful flavor that goes right along with it simply delicious next I wanted to get out for a while so I got on the bus and rolled around to the store to get some stuff for my favorite meal but to my surprise when I got back to the house I had some food waiting for me a delicious chicken meal with french fries and a soda. This made my day throughout the day I got all of the wonderful phone calls from all of my favorite people and then my sister made my favorite meal spaghetti which was the best in to my day I was going to go out but it decided to rain so I took a rain check on that I heard from everyone I needed to hear from and I am happy about that. I absolutely love my family and friends good night you guys happy birthday to me!

My husband got out of the hospital

It had been a week and he was still not doing well when I called 911 for him he had scared me and I wasn’t going to lose him. He was talking crazy but he was alive, I couldn’t put my finger on it and I didn’t know how to cope with it but I knew he wasn’t ready to go home in a short amount of time he was putting his affairs in order telling me what to do and how I would be able to sustain myself after he was gone and that was not rational to me him being in his 40s we have a whole life to live and I kept telling him that but he wasn’t trying to hear me he just kept saying let him go. When they finally got him to a point where he was starting to get of sound mind he began to blame me for keeping him there and that hurt even worse because when I care about somebody their life is the most important thing to me and their survival is paramount to everything else. I would never want anything to happen to him despite his treatment of people or me I still want him around because everybody deserves every chance until that last chance is given now I feel like an outsider because I wanted to check on him and was told they will see if he’s up for company (While staying at a non-immediate family members house) when I’m his wife now I’m a part of everybody else amazing that really hurts when I am the one that got him to the hospital it’s crazy if I’m only the tables were turned.

Late night hour

Most nights I don’t sleep I stay up and think and clean when I’m not working I do a lot of soul-searching and trying to figure out how I can get my passion out in the world because I love working with small children my dream is to have little children learning as much as they can before their brains become concrete and they are no longer able to absorb masses of information at an early age which will give them a love for learning for a lifetime. I have always watched from the time my children were little them absorb information so quickly and be in all by how they saw the world and so excited with them and for them to see everything that I had saw through fresh eyes.

When I look at children I know that they are the next great in this world and with the right nourishment and guidance they will become a memorable part of this society and this is why I try to work as hard as I can to encourage that growth and make them be the best that they can be I’m so proud of my own children and the children that I work with even though sometimes they can be difficult and give me a hard timeWhen I look at children I know that they are the next great in this world and with the right nourishment and guidance they will become a memorable part of this society and this is why I try to work as hard as I can to encourage that growth and make them be the best that they can be I’m so proud of my own children and the children that I work with even though sometimes they can be difficult and give me a hard time

I listen to Steve Harvey in the morning when I have time and he always gives the right motivational speech to say if you’re doing something that you love it never feels like a job and that is so true because when I’m working with kids it never feels like a drag or something that I hate doing I really love seeing their faces the joy in their eyes even when they roll their eyes because they see they’re gonna have to do some work with me it’s stillI listen to Steve Harvey in the morning when I have time and he always gives the right motivational speech to say if you’re doing something that you love it never feels like a job and that is so true because when I’m working with kids it never feels like a drag or something that I hate doing I really love seeing their faces the joy in their eyes even when they roll their eyes because they see they’re gonna have to do some work with me it’s still brings me peace in knowing that they will know something more when they leave my classroom and they will have a little bit more respect for themselves and their classmates as well as me for trying to help them be better at whatever it is they need to know. We’re going into spring break and I’m going to use this time to reflect on how I can help them better during this next period of time when I’ll be working with them. Happy break everyone I will be keeping up with my diet while on spring break I have lost even more weight over this time and I am not giving up this is my goal for the year and I will not stop until I reach my goal

He said I’m not worth shit wow

My husband said I’m not worth shit yeah because I did not agree with his opinion wow that’s crazy I never thought that I would have to deal with someone who’s out like I was not worth shit because I didn’t agree with their opinion quite interesting the classic definition of a narcissist would be this man. He seems to be upset right now because I’m not saying what he wants me to say and the words that he used our backfiring on him I guess and that’s why he’s mad now whatever and dealing with it he can be mad all he wants is at the end of the day he needs to learn that if he’s not decisive he’s indecisive and indecisiveness doesn’t get you nowhere so be mad be angry but deal with it the fuck ever it doesn’t pay to be a narcissist and have to deal with someone who knows how to deal with a narcissist I guess but I don’t give a fuck because my sister was a Libra just like my husband and he hast to learn so he grabbed me again and said he’s strong lol that’s funny he must not realize I’m just as strong as he is so I pushed his hand away showing him that his mediocre strength isn’t shit whatever I’m gonna go to bed now but if he touches me again it will be the last time he ever does

Merry Christmas/ family day

Today most of us get together to celebrate the end of the year, the birth of Christ or each other making it through another year. Because so many of us didn’t make it for verious reasons so on this December 25,2021 celebrate yourself and always remember no matter what happens in your life you are wonderful and worth a celebration everyday you wake up and see your beautiful face. Have a wonderful holiday no matter how you celebrate it. If no one told you I am telling you you are awesome sauce!!!

Feeling under the weather

Over the last few days I’ve been feeling under the weather. Because the boy I keep from time to time I tell him all the time to cover his mouth when he sneezes and I take my vitamins and try to make sure I keep myself healthy as possible but it’s hard when someone doesn’t take accountability for what they’re doing around you. I also work in the schools and a lot of times the kids have runny noses coughs and all kinds of unsavory health issues that they don’t want to take care of. These things over time can affect everyone’s health around them. The last time I was in the school there was a child who was really sick this child began to throw up and was just not feeling the best at all. I really felt bad for the child it’s hard to not feel good and to have to deal with it. One good thing that came out of today was I got to talk to my daughter and my cute as a button grandson who kept talking and giggling to me in his baby language that was a highlight of my day other than talking to my husband who is always full of unconventional knowledge and different aspects of life sometimes hard to take in

Anyway I have been having a headache a runny nose and my stomach has been bothering me for the last couple of days and I’ve been trying to work through it but I’m still not feeling the best I’m hoping that I will get better soon. Because feeling sick is the worst thing in the world to me. I’m hoping to feel better so I can work tomorrow I don’t want to be sick at work anyway, I hope you all are having a wonderful day or at least the better day than me happy Monday.

Happy Saturday Peep’s

I got a bonus today I am a true believer that if I take one step forward the universe will take 10. I have always believed that if I always put positive vibes out I will get positive vibes and actions back as well as be favored there’s nothing that I have put my best foot forward on and not seen a great outcome on in my life which is why I always say favor ain’t fair!

Then I got bad news my daughter broke her foot while walking her dog I hate it when they are hurting in any case it’s like I always know when something is wrong I wake up in the middle of the night and can’t go back to sleep then the child affected comes to mind and I can’t shake the feeling that something is going on with them and I will immediately begin to talk to them until I feel the problem is rectified then I can rest. I’m so glad it was just a broken foot because I am a person who doesn’t handle trauma well and loss even worse.

This week had it’s ups and downs but for the most part I’m really glad I made it through and I hope you all are glad you did too. I’m doing good on my weight loss journey as well I was able to put on some stretch pants that I couldn’t fit some time ago and they fit me good and I looked good in them talk about happy but I’m not stopping until I reach my goal. It’s my niece birthday party today I’m so happy for her she is so smart and beautiful I love her Enjoy the rest of your Saturday.

Monday workday

Today was a tough work day but very entertaining the kids I worked with were very outgoing and talkative they have a very intuitive mindset and we’re constantly on the move it was a massive overtaking of individualized personalities and innovative mindsets today on top of the back it’s my daughters birthday I’m really proud of her she always brings a smile to my face every time I think about the day of her birth and everything that happened that day I feel the glimpse of joy and happiness knowing that she was my last born and my life is all the better because she exists anyway happy birthday my youngest I love you