Going to Workout today

Today I woke up early and couldn’t go back to sleep my body is conditioned to waking up at a certain hours so it’s really impossible for me to go back to sleep after that. I try to lay there but I feel this nervous energy and can’t stay laying down or else I will get a headache it’s as if I’m meant to do something that I am compelled to do that I still have not found out what that is yet.

I am going to the YMCA today to start my summer fitness program to help me get on track with my weight transformation I’ll keep you guys posted on my progress I’m really looking for a workout partner to hold me accountable during this time and celebrate the little victories with me.

This year has has had it’s set of challenges but for the most part I am still seeing change coming my way every day and it’s in a positive way. Either by the karma I see going on to someone who has not shown me the love and care I deserve or by the winning spree I have been on this year. The best part is I see great experiences coming that will be even better than what has happened already. The best it yet to come and I’m excited to see it in action. Happy Hump day everyone! Keep your head up and never give up.

Still in this everyday

I struggle everyday to get up and go I suffer from depression and anxiety and it’s hard for me to function in the world some days are harder than others I wonder why I’m still here and other days I have crazy bursts of energy where I want to go and go and go and not stop. I can’t remember the last time I slept through the night.

It doesn’t help that I spent an enormous amount of time alone without a lot of friends out here in Florida things are different out here. The best place I can remember is my street in Trenton New Jersey I know it’s not the same as when I was growing up but the camaraderie and the love that we all have for each other I haven’t felt or seen that anywhere else I have lived since we moved from there back in the 80s.

California was a whole different beast it was the first place we lived where you didn’t know your neighbors and everybody was very individualized it was so different but we were the same always loving supportive of whoever we was around that type of magnetic personality that made you want to be around us. I love the way my family has been throughout my life I wouldn’t be who I am today had they not been who they were as I was growing up. We did so many things together growing up traveling going places seeing stuff I’ll never forget how my mom opened us up to seeing the United States in a different light it’s a great thing when you have a parent who doesn’t mind traveling. I would have never been exposed to the things I was exposed to had my mom not done the things she’s done. I appreciate her a lot I wish I would have kept her traditions up like that conventions and the campground my kids will be different people had I done that.

I wouldn’t have been so open to moving to other states or exploring out of the country had my mom not showed me how big this world is. There are so many things that I still have to do in this world that I know that I want to do and won’t quit until I do. Have a great Tuesday. If you can travel as much as you can cause this is a big world that needs to be explored.

A new month A new beginning

Today is November 1st and I am ready to embark on a whole new journey a month of new beginnings with balance and abundance I’m very excited about what is to come this month is a month of Thanksgiving which will be a happy month for me I’m hoping I will see my grandson.

It’s the start of the holiday season and I absolutely love the holiday season because it’s a time to bring people together and where love starts to flow like never before and this year will be much better than last year so happy November 1st everyone

A victory

Today was a good day I got out did some running around and accomplished some of my goals. The thing that I’m most happy about is that my daughter won in court I believed that she would and I had a huge amount of Faith and family support for her rooting for her to win and it happened it’s not easy when you feel all alone when everyone is far away but you know that people love you no matter what.

I’m so proud of the woman that she has become and how she’s always willing to give and be a support system for others her and her sister are always there for each other and that makes it that much better knowing that they are over there dealing with life on life’s terms with each other it makes me proud to know that I instilled some great values in them for each other.

There is nothing better than the love of family and the commitment of relationship that is there for each of us to have each other I always love family and no matter what happens in life no matter how far apart we are I always know that when push comes to shove we have each other’s back anyway that was today’s venture tomorrow will be a new one.