I don’t understand

My daughter is going through a rough patch right now and I have been very concerned about her for months I had finally gotten her and my grandsons (1&3) out here where she could finally get on her feet and not have to worry about babysitting and homelessness just working building her money up and getting on her feet.

But unbeknownst to me she was still dealing with her abusive ex-baby daddy who got her homeless in the first place tried to kill her 3 different times and is her drug dealer. So at the last minute after I got her (me and other family members) all set up with clothes baby items and was working on getting her a place to live she decided to send the kids back to Texas.

Then sprung on me she was going too but the thing is she has no where to live there plus she has evictions because of the tumultuous relationship with this ex so I told her it didn’t make any sense to live on the streets over there just to be near a guy who told you to your face he hates you. But now she has stopped talking to me.

I don’t take back anything that I said because he doesn’t mean her any good and I got all my information from her it’s crazy what drugs will make you do I just pray he doesn’t hurt her cause I will end up in prison frfr!!!

Please keep my daughter and grandsons in your thoughts and prayers cause they need to be protected back here in California asap

Moved out of state

Describe a risk you took that you do not regret.

I picked up and moved to start a new chapter in my life. I don’t regret that I regret what happened when I got there, but I don’t regret moving. They have venture was wonderful. The experience was eye-opening and I learned a lot about different states and how they operate and let me know that a lot of things that happen in different places are not like home so it also gave me different perspectives on how people are when they grow up in certain environments and with certain aspects of life when they are influenced by a certain atmosphere all of their lives, knowing that lets me know Where I would not want to live ever again and where the people are, that are not my kind of people.  For example Florida is one of the most toxic states I’ve ever lived in. They are not the moral high ground, and they are very explicit in the way they live there. They don’t believe in being faithful and most of the men there do not respect the women they have in their lives as well as the women are the same way as the man compared to California or New Jersey. I won’t even mention Texas because that would take 100 more pages. 

He is more than one

Describe a man who has positively impacted your life.

The first man who impacted my life, was my dad. He was larger than life to me, but he left me early, but I still have fond memories of him, and I loved him the best the second man or male in my life. That was my favorite was my big brother Always called him Ben Junior, because he made me laugh. He was funny and energetic and a long distance runner. I always looked up to him. He left and went to the Navy when I was still a girl and I always had this admiration about him the next man would be, the man who was over me at my church, my Uncle Tyrone he was always hard on me but also loving to me him and one other man, Dr, Ruffin or brother Ruffin the man who caught me with the belt while I was running around chasing somebody around the church property But I remember them so finally, because they always kept up with me and made sure I stayed in my lane as being a little girl and in a little girls place the next my other brother William, he was always a stickler for right and wrong but he was also Fun to be around I took him with me to my grad night for high school and he showed me what a gentleman was like. The next one was my Godbrother Thomas he showed me what a husband should look like and what a protective brother should look like with the way he was with my sister Nettie And how he acted around her it let me know how a man is supposed to treat his wife, so I’ve had several men in my life who have played significant roles to have a real impression on me. Even the ones who didn’t have such good impressions they showed me what to look for to keep them away from me or ones like them. I have two examples of that, but I won’t name them. They didn’t earn that place down here.

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I’ve met a few but I will start with my favorite few of them

Who is the most famous or infamous person you have ever met?

The first ones I remember meeting our Tia & Tamera Mowry and their little brother smart guy they came to my church when it was named the neighborhood Church of God before it changed the name to Pasadena Church guy in Pasadena California they were so nice and pleasant at my church they came with their parents they were still in their early teens and smart guy was so short and cute The next star I met was Stevie Wonder and then I met Mr. Cooper from hanging with Mr. Cooper I guess being from California you see a lot of stars but you don’t meet a lot of them I want to me personally CeCe Winans Brandy and maybe Oprah Winfrey one day but at the top of my list is Michelle Obama that would be a great day. I enjoy inspirational women it shows me that I can meet an inspirational person and be an influence on that inspirational man you became something great that’s what I love about Michelle Obama the most because President Obama became president and her influence encouraged that. Those are the kind of woman I want to be around that kind of influence takes people were in line even like the conversation I watched between Jeezy and Nia Long

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My favorite form of physical exercise is walking

What is your favorite form of physical exercise?

I enjoy walking because I enjoy the scenery around me I enjoy that thinking patterns that happened while I am moving going towards something and I enjoy the rest breaks that I often have to take while doing a consistent but overwhelmingly basic walk I am able to clear my head and know that I have burned at least 160 cal it makes me feel good knowing that I put some kind of effort into maintaining an active lifestyle even though I know I’m going to feel any Normas amount of pain later at that moment I am proud that I was able to get it done. I don’t get out and do these walks all the time I used to ride a bike and breathe the air in while just exploring around praying and just focusing on what I was doing while enjoying the scenery but here lately over the past few years those tasks have become impossible to do so a little walk here and there I can still accomplish that goal and still feel proud of myself that I am still being active and able to share my joy of exercise and I still love it. What are the exercises that you enjoy doing?

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I was 18 years old and:

When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)?

I was always a homebody and my mom always told us to be in the house by dark when we were little. One thing you never wanted to hear is her calling your name ever or you were in big trouble. When we got older she got more lenient and we could stay out a little later like 9 or 9:30 unless we were going to church or something then there was no time limit cause church was like a marathon. This one Wednesday night I had just turned 18 in September I was feeling so big and grownup like I could do anything I wanted to I had met this man who was pursuing me really hard I invited him to church and he came my naïve behind thinking he is really into me this lying 35 claiming he is 22 then 28 years old man had my 17 then 18 years old nose wide open. I got out of church and me being all grown now was going to walk home with him at night it was a great walk even if it cast me my senior activities due to the child that came from me being so damn grown. You live and you learn.

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Becoming a social activist for the well-being of small children

What’s something you would attempt if you were guaranteed not to fail.

I would start a nonprofit for the well-being of small children five and under to teach them how to learn adapt and grow in an environment that is not geared toward helping them succeed in life but is more geared toward showing them how to grow up too fast and navigate the world as adults before they are even able to speak I would create programs that would help them utilize their small developing adventurous imaginations so that they are able to still be children but also be the great minds of the future without having a bunch of responsibility and a bunch of unnecessary attitude around them they would have different approaches to education and learning as well as different approaches to growth and development with a myriad of developmental bases of learning where it’s fun but also Educational with different kinds of motivational people in their environment who also have a heart for children and I would advocate for them on every level whether it’s food games education athletics or just as simple as communication between children and parents activism is more than just marching and talking it is also real life action and that is what I would do if I knew I would not fail.

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Stupid

If you had to give up one word that you use regularly, what would it be?

I have several conversations with a certain person during the day and as I am talking to this person, I am always saying in my mind. In my thoughts when I walk away this person is so stupid. Why do they think like this? That was stupid this is stupid. Why do they act so stupid? Why is there behavior so stupid Why do I put up with this stupid Ness of this person every other word out of my mouth when dealing with this person is always the word stupid coming out of my mouth or a certain instances coming out of my mouth about this person makes me think that I am becoming stupid from dealing with them and I keep thinking that you are a product of the company that you keep so I always try to rephrase my thoughts and cautioned myself to put a cap on what I’m about to say or do so that I do not let that word stupid come out of my mouth because I know the more that I said the more I am bringing that back into my life so that is the one word there are others, but that is the main word that I really am working on getting rid of out of my thoughts out of my mouth and out of my heart when it comes to things that happen during my daily routine.

Yes I have more than one

Have you ever had surgery? What for?

More than 3

The first surgery I had was minor surgery as a child. I walked past a shard of glass from a large, broken picture window. I sliced my leg along my calf leg on the left side. I had to be rushed to the hospital. I also had hand surgery from letting a fire cracker blow up in my hand. Another minor surgery where stitches were needed.This is before the time of numbing the area so I had to get several stitches and the held down in order to stay still. My next surgery, was when I had been in labor for two days. My son was being very stubborn and not wanting to get in the right position so my labor was being prolong until the core began to wrap around his neck from all of his turning so I ended up having to have a C-section on an emergency my next surgery after that was a planned surgery my daughter then a third C-section after that, I had to have a thyroidectomy because my thyroid was not functioning correctly, and had created a mass, the size of a potato in my throat (a goiter) and another mass the size of a football in my chest, which was causing me to not be able to breathe correctly and have fainting spells often so I had to have open chest surgery and throat surgery. After that one, I had a total hysterectomy because of problems with my uterus and anemia and bleeding problems. My body has been through quite a bit, but I would say it has all been worth it.