He says I’m a narcissist

I was having a conversation with husband last night and he told me I was a narcissist and that I think about myself always first it’s crazy. Because I always put other people first I have been told that to many times.

When I got with him his very first statement out of his mouth was he comes first he is always first place so from that point on I realized that (with him) I have to put myself first cause he will never look out for my best interest.

Then I find out he feels men need more then one women to be happy and that he feels this is biblical it’s crazy especially when he has never read the Bible. I was taught to follow the man that follows God how do I follow someone who is clearly the opposite of a godly man that will lead me to clearly to destruction do I ignore my morals and go with the flow or do I keep praying that he finds his way.

I know I’m not a narcissist and I definitely know he is and the way I am with him is a direct result of his treatment of me over time. I just hope he finds his way before it’s too late and he finds himself in a problem he can’t get out of. Anyway good morning guys have a wonderful Wednesday.

The Event

Today my husband is going to be Selling food

At the Rains and Rebault game I hope he does well he has been planning this for a couple weeks now him and a friend of his go Ron good luck baby come out and support your favorite team and give him a little support too while you’re out there

Am I wrong

I want to be with a man that is open and honest with me. Doesn’t beat around the bush and play games with my heart or my head. Is that to much to ask for in a relationship?

I am very open minded and willing to give my everything to the people I care about as long as I feel the same thing in return it’s hard to give when I feel like I’m not appreciated or whatever I do falls on deaf ears.

I know relationships are give an take but what happens when you’re always giving and the other person minimizes what you give and makes it seem as if what they give is more significant than what you do? Even when what you do is really their responsibility and you take up the slack for them in every way possible when is enough enough?

MY CURSE Her Life

When I was 3yrs old I lost my father to a heart attack I remembered small things about him but for the most part the main thing I remembered most was him falling down in church and never getting back up again. There was a lot around him falling but that was the main thing for me a small 3yr old on the front row in church.

After that we only had my mom and even though she was a great parent there are things that boys and girls really need from their dad. So when I thought to myself about when I grew up I knew just like my mom, and grandparents I was going to be a wife and mother raise my children with both parents. What I didn’t know was I never learned how to be a mate better yet a girlfriend I just knew how to obey and follow instructions. That’s what I was taught be seen and not heard and don’t cause a seen even if you don’t like it deal with it because they are your elder. It wasn’t proper to let my feelings be known. So I let men run all over me give me children and not take responsibility and leave me alone.

I thought I reversed it when I married and stayed with a man while my children were still young but he turned out to be the worst of the worse and my ex.

Now I’m watching the same pattern unfold in front of my eyes and I feel helpless to fight it and sad that I was unable to make sure that this didn’t happen to my children as it did to me the one thing I am super happy about is no matter what is going on with them they always support each other as I and my siblings did I didn’t go wrong there.