My husband said I’m not worth shit yeah because I did not agree with his opinion wow that’s crazy I never thought that I would have to deal with someone who’s out like I was not worth shit because I didn’t agree with their opinion quite interesting the classic definition of a narcissist would be this man. He seems to be upset right now because I’m not saying what he wants me to say and the words that he used our backfiring on him I guess and that’s why he’s mad now whatever and dealing with it he can be mad all he wants is at the end of the day he needs to learn that if he’s not decisive he’s indecisive and indecisiveness doesn’t get you nowhere so be mad be angry but deal with it the fuck ever it doesn’t pay to be a narcissist and have to deal with someone who knows how to deal with a narcissist I guess but I don’t give a fuck because my sister was a Libra just like my husband and he hast to learn so he grabbed me again and said he’s strong lol that’s funny he must not realize I’m just as strong as he is so I pushed his hand away showing him that his mediocre strength isn’t shit whatever I’m gonna go to bed now but if he touches me again it will be the last time he ever does
Tag: feelings
Happy New Year
Today is January 1st 2021 I finally came up with my New Year’s resolutions this year is a year of completion I’m going to work at completing a lot of my goals this year I started them last year but this year it is my goal to complete them. I am excited to live my best life and do the things that will bring joy happiness and excitement to my life and those that I love around me.
Always feel like everyday is a new beginning a chance to start over and accomplish things that I didn’t accomplish the day before but this time I’m not only will accomplish those things I will add on to them and not give up anyway happy New Year here’s to a year of accomplishing goals finishing task and having fun while doing it.
Merry Christmas/ family day
Today most of us get together to celebrate the end of the year, the birth of Christ or each other making it through another year. Because so many of us didn’t make it for verious reasons so on this December 25,2021 celebrate yourself and always remember no matter what happens in your life you are wonderful and worth a celebration everyday you wake up and see your beautiful face. Have a wonderful holiday no matter how you celebrate it. If no one told you I am telling you you are awesome sauce!!!
Why is it so hard
I’m tired of trying to get him to understand who I am and what’s important to me. I never dreamed I would be with a person who only sees things from their own twisted point of view and tried to make that view be law always. I was raised to give without expecting anything in return but my partner give’s always expecting something in return with interest then wonder’s why no one loves him without conditions yeah I know it’s crazy but true. I can’t tell him anything without him making it seem as if I’m being unreasonable or unrealistic when it’s him who is taking things to a place they don’t need to go.
My frustration is overwhelming and I’m tired of trying to always be the good person when I’m being beat down by someone who can’t respect anything that we don’t agree on or that I don’t agree with him on I’m tired of the my way or high way method with him. He is not always right matter of fact half the time he is not right and I’m tired of being taken advantage of for keeping the peace while he continues to keep his narcissistic beliefs no matter how far fetched they are anyway I want better for my life this unhealthy unhappiness is for the birds!
Feeling under the weather
Over the last few days I’ve been feeling under the weather. Because the boy I keep from time to time I tell him all the time to cover his mouth when he sneezes and I take my vitamins and try to make sure I keep myself healthy as possible but it’s hard when someone doesn’t take accountability for what they’re doing around you. I also work in the schools and a lot of times the kids have runny noses coughs and all kinds of unsavory health issues that they don’t want to take care of. These things over time can affect everyone’s health around them. The last time I was in the school there was a child who was really sick this child began to throw up and was just not feeling the best at all. I really felt bad for the child it’s hard to not feel good and to have to deal with it. One good thing that came out of today was I got to talk to my daughter and my cute as a button grandson who kept talking and giggling to me in his baby language that was a highlight of my day other than talking to my husband who is always full of unconventional knowledge and different aspects of life sometimes hard to take in
Anyway I have been having a headache a runny nose and my stomach has been bothering me for the last couple of days and I’ve been trying to work through it but I’m still not feeling the best I’m hoping that I will get better soon. Because feeling sick is the worst thing in the world to me. I’m hoping to feel better so I can work tomorrow I don’t want to be sick at work anyway, I hope you all are having a wonderful day or at least the better day than me happy Monday.
Happy Saturday Peep’s
I got a bonus today I am a true believer that if I take one step forward the universe will take 10. I have always believed that if I always put positive vibes out I will get positive vibes and actions back as well as be favored there’s nothing that I have put my best foot forward on and not seen a great outcome on in my life which is why I always say favor ain’t fair!
Then I got bad news my daughter broke her foot while walking her dog I hate it when they are hurting in any case it’s like I always know when something is wrong I wake up in the middle of the night and can’t go back to sleep then the child affected comes to mind and I can’t shake the feeling that something is going on with them and I will immediately begin to talk to them until I feel the problem is rectified then I can rest. I’m so glad it was just a broken foot because I am a person who doesn’t handle trauma well and loss even worse.
This week had it’s ups and downs but for the most part I’m really glad I made it through and I hope you all are glad you did too. I’m doing good on my weight loss journey as well I was able to put on some stretch pants that I couldn’t fit some time ago and they fit me good and I looked good in them talk about happy but I’m not stopping until I reach my goal. It’s my niece birthday party today I’m so happy for her she is so smart and beautiful I love her Enjoy the rest of your Saturday.
Passion is a great thing
When there is a lot of passion in your relationship you can get past some really hard spots. The most important parts of a relationship is communication, passion, trust, dependability, and mutual respect. These things show us how to love each other because love is an action word.
We can’t say we love someone and don’t do any of these things to verify the action of what we are saying. Passion is important in any relationship and needs to stay active and present. Happy TBT
Too many cooks in the kitchen
I love working with children as a teacher but sometimes when there are too many people who feel like they are the authority figure in the room it becomes a conflict of who is the most qualified to do the job. One thing I’ve learned over time is there can only be one Master chef and the rest have their own specialties but everyone compliments each other by working together there can’t be five master chefs and no subordinates because everyone is always going to buttheads at every turn since everyone feels like they are the one in charge.
I want to feel comfortable in my environment and right now I’m having trouble focusing on what I’m supposed to do when I’m constantly being redirected by the subordinates in the classroom and it gets frustrating sometimes but other than that today was a good day happy Monday.
I didn’t get the post yesterday
Yesterday I had a long day I got up first thing in the morning thinking I was going to go and do my second donation at plasma and got disappointed because their system was down I waited there for over an hour to no avail it was very disappointing I ended up having to leave it would have been my high day which I was kind of looking forward to but since that didn’t happen I figured I’ll go and take care of some other business. I left there came home and all of a sudden I felt drained I wanted to rest for a while I knew a friend of mine was going to an event later on and I was excited to go with him to that event we had talked about it and it was going to be a nice event but when it came time he asked me what I was going to do and I said I’m going with you and he commenced to tell me that I wasn’t going with him I was going to have to drive myself there and meet him there that was another disappointment because I didn’t think it made sense for us to be leaving from the same house going to the same event but in different cars so I decided not to go.
I decided to stay home take a nice long bath and relax for the rest of the day I was a little frustrated by the turn of events of the day but I was willing to just let the day slide by and start a new the next day so as I was in the tub I got a text from another friend of mine who invited me out to chill with her and had I had went to that other event I wouldn’t have been here to get that call so I went out with her and had a wonderful time came back home in high spirits sat down had a drink and went to bed happy the day wasn’t a total bust after all woke up this morning and enjoyed my Sunday I hope you enjoyed your day too. Sometimes taking care of self and your own mental stability can change everything around you self care is very important I’m learning that everyday.
I also was able to talk to my daughter and grandson and see his cute little bubbly face that made my day too I love when I have these moments to enjoy little times with family it makes life seem not so lonely and I also love my job very much the kids I work with can be challenging but that makes it that much better because they keep my mind running and they keep me focused on what needs to be done and I enjoyed that a lot too anyway good night
I love my friends and family
I have had many people in my life from the time I was born many of which I call to this day my family and close friends. Many of us are taught through words and life experience that sometimes friends can sometimes considered closer than a family member or the one person who can understand exactly what the person is going through.anyway.
The struggle is now not forever 