One who has changed

Describe a family member.

Best family member has always been the strong one the one everyone goes to for almost everything, the one everyone depends on talks to lanes on is the defender the one everyone looks too for guidance and mental stability the one everyone fears but I also trust and also runs away from this family member always has a heart of gold but also has The ability to touch you in a way that will make you think about life in a whole new way and no matter what they do you still want to be around them even when you’re angry or mad at them for a while you overlook that anger because you love them so much this family member dresses beautifully hair is always done always has the right thing to say never looks vulnerable even though you know they’re human you don’t see that part of them this family member is a role model and also I’ll go get her someone to be proud of someone to look up to a best friend and can also be a frienime too but at the end of the day she is beautiful on the inside and the outside over the years she has become a beautiful person a heartfelt golden dynamic woman that I would not change the world for and I am proud that she is a part of my family. I am proud to call her family.

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Understanding why!

What have you been putting off doing? Why?

I have been fighting Social Security for over six years now and for the life of me I have been in a fog just going through the motions every day trying to figure out what The next step is to get my life back in order which direction to go or whether to just cut my losses and do what I know best to do and every time I start to go in that direction I feel like I am on the brink of, doing something that will turn my life upside down if I go that route because making rash choices in my life in the past has cost me greatly and I don’t wanna do it again even though I don’t regret those choices I don’t want to do them again and end up in a hole bigger than I’ve ever been in even though I’m not happy in the situation I’m in right now and I know I don’t wanna be in it for the rest of my life I don’t want to uproot again and start over somewhere else without having my ducks in a row or having a solid plan I don’t want to begin again without at least having everything that I know I came here with because it wouldn’t be right and I would be devastated so I’m trying to understand what it is that I need to do and why I am so hesitant to move forward even though I know I am able to land on my feet and get things done I just don’t feel like I am supposed to go anywhere right now and I don’t understand why so that is why I am trying to figure out why and why it’s taking so long and it’s such a difficult fight to get everything moving forward for me right now why am I being held here.

I am putting off making plans I am really living my life the way that I want to live it actually finding the love that will love me the way that I am used to being loved having someone who is compatible with me who is honest and loving and giving and has roots like I do and who is honorable who I wouldn’t mind taking Home to my mom and who has morals and things of that sort who I can travel with who will cherish me and celebrate me as I would them this is what I’m putting off with the life I’m living right now it’s like my life is shrouded in secrecy because of who I am with and what I’m dealing with and I’m tired of living in shame. I am a family oriented person and I want the person who I am with to be family oriented as well I love my family and I love traveling I don’t want to be just one of many I am the one and that is how it should be so this is what I’m putting off and I don’t want to continue that for much longer.

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Florida-Georgia weekend

Yesterday was the Florida Georgia game unfortunately Florida lost by a landslide maybe next year but on a brighter note there were a million people out there some folks were selling things some folks were making money from parking some folks wear just walking around with their Florida Georgia colors and some folks were just out and about to be in the atmosphere no matter what was going on everyone was enjoying themselves and enjoying the atmosphere out and about.

I didn’t go outside until late maybe around 5 p.m. because I was doing some stuff in the house but when I finally went outside that atmosphere was electric and it made me desire to walk and experience it I added a video as I walked around to look and see what was happening it was just so nice out the weather was nice everyone was just chilling and enjoying the camaraderie of everything happening. It was a great experience one of those things that you just want to experience again and again.

I think I will make the Florida-Georgia weekend a tradition for me because the experience is one that is really great I’m hoping next year I will experience it with someone who is wonderful to walk around with and chill with. Happy Sunday!