I understand that everyone has their personal issues but my personal issue today is I am sick of seeing dogs everywhere. I can’t go into a grocery store a place of business or even just a walk down the street without seeing peoples dogs everywhere I was at somewhere that is supposed to be sanitary today and here comes this man with his dog, which is unsanitary in this place of business that should only be allowed service dogs. I am so sick of seeing dogs everywhere I go on the bus. I don’t know where I can go to get some semblance of peace without having everyone and friends on my right for my peace of mind. I wish we could go back to the days where things were assemblance of normal. I really hope that people will start standing up for what normalcy really looks like. I shouldn’t see a dog in the grocery store or in a place of business that is not a service dog. It’s not sanitary and it really is starting to get on my nerves. Anyway that’s my  gripe  for today.
Tag: freedom
I don’t understand
My daughter is going through a rough patch right now and I have been very concerned about her for months I had finally gotten her and my grandsons (1&3) out here where she could finally get on her feet and not have to worry about babysitting and homelessness just working building her money up and getting on her feet.
But unbeknownst to me she was still dealing with her abusive ex-baby daddy who got her homeless in the first place tried to kill her 3 different times and is her drug dealer. So at the last minute after I got her (me and other family members) all set up with clothes baby items and was working on getting her a place to live she decided to send the kids back to Texas.
Then sprung on me she was going too but the thing is she has no where to live there plus she has evictions because of the tumultuous relationship with this ex so I told her it didn’t make any sense to live on the streets over there just to be near a guy who told you to your face he hates you. But now she has stopped talking to me.
I don’t take back anything that I said because he doesn’t mean her any good and I got all my information from her it’s crazy what drugs will make you do I just pray he doesn’t hurt her cause I will end up in prison frfr!!!
Please keep my daughter and grandsons in your thoughts and prayers cause they need to be protected back here in California asap


Moved out of state
Describe a risk you took that you do not regret.
I picked up and moved to start a new chapter in my life. I don’t regret that I regret what happened when I got there, but I don’t regret moving. They have venture was wonderful. The experience was eye-opening and I learned a lot about different states and how they operate and let me know that a lot of things that happen in different places are not like home so it also gave me different perspectives on how people are when they grow up in certain environments and with certain aspects of life when they are influenced by a certain atmosphere all of their lives, knowing that lets me know Where I would not want to live ever again and where the people are, that are not my kind of people.  For example Florida is one of the most toxic states I’ve ever lived in. They are not the moral high ground, and they are very explicit in the way they live there. They don’t believe in being faithful and most of the men there do not respect the women they have in their lives as well as the women are the same way as the man compared to California or New Jersey. I won’t even mention Texas because that would take 100 more pages. 
I feel broken
I lived my life for my children. I wanted them to have the life that I didn’t get to have growing up. I was looking for something that I wasn’t able to get. I ended up failing all the way around I sometimes wonder was any of it worth it? I lost everything. I continue to lose the more I live. I wonder why I’m still alive now. I cry every day. I have this immense sense of brokenness and sadness because all I wanted was a life filled with love and happiness, and all I got was pain and sadness. I wear a smile on my face but inside 90% of the time I wish I was dead. 
There’s more
There’s more life than wanting to do more and not accomplishing more. I’m with the narcissistic sociopath who only cares about himself. I wanted more out of life that’s why I got with him I never in my wildest dreams figured I would end up with a serial cheater who didn’t know how to keep his peter in his pants and had a woman in every city but at the same time hated women so much now have women all around the world off of a pipe dream of coming to America and living off of the state just so he can’t be put on child support how sick is that I’m praying to get away from this sick bastard. I hope he gets everything coming to him.

Join the discussion you are welcome here thank you for reading 
Peace of mind
What are the most important things needed to live a good life?
In order to live a good life, you must have peace of mind. Nothing comes before that nothing can take the place of that peace of mind can make a world of difference in the world full of chaos.

Join the discussion you are welcome here thank you for reading
Christmas is my favorite holiday
What is your favorite holiday? Why is it your favorite?
I love the camaraderie, the love and the joy of Christmas. I love the movie watching the celebratory Ness of the season. I love how people act around the season. I enjoy the food around the season. I love how everyone is happier and have a smile on their face is more Enlighten and have more peace in their hearts around the season. I love that families come together for the season and how the kids celebrate. I love the stories that are told around this seasons and how everything is remembered around this season I love that there is so much giving around this season And the fact that there’s so much growth around the season so Christmas is my favorite season around the year

Join the discussion you are welcome here thank you for reading
Moved to Texas
When is the last time you took a risk? How did it work out?
Worst decision I ever made if I could take it all back I would it changed my life forever. I wish I had a do over. I would have made a completely different decision. I would have made completely different choices and would have saw my life for what it was, and not left my family in the hands of a person who I never really knew in the first place I would’ve stayed in my safe place in the first place and I would not be living the life from living now my life would be in a totally different direction I am certain of that so many choices created a butterfly effect and made my life completely opposite of what I was trying to achieve one decision change my life forever and that one ripple effect changed for lives so if I had to do again, I would do it completely different Point blank.

Join the discussion thank you for reading. You are welcome here.
People who
What makes you nervous?
People who can never take responsibilities for their own actions who always blame everyone else for things that are their responsibility or who always turn things around that are their responsibility and act as if they are going to take responsibilities for something, but really don’t take no responsibility no accountabilityand no real put no effort into anything. They do do this reverse psychology stuff when you know it’s there backwards thinking that caused the thing to happen. They make me nervous.
trying to get rid of us
What were your parents doing at your age?
my mom had raised us, and was trying to get us on our own because we were in the stage of failure to launch when she was my age we were still trying to be up under her wing because we loved our mom so much that we had a failure to lunch but eventually we got out on our own and she was still working hard enjoying her life and now we’re doing the same. I guess that’s why we love her so much because she didn’t give up on us. She kept in there and we ended up doing just as good as her greatest mom ever.

Join the discussion you are welcome here. Thank you for reading.