Tag: freedom

Starting a new job

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My passion is small children because they learn so much so quickly the different stages of life are so new to them and when they’re really small everything they experience is an adventure to them it is so wonderful to watch them explore and learn and create the world around them that they will be a part of for a lifetime. This is one of the reasons why I became a teacher in order to teach them and show them how great the world around them is and help them develop a love for learning.

I love learning and every aspect of it the kids in primary School can be challenging at times. I still believe they are wonderful and special every last one of them they have so much to offer the world and I am always in awe by them especially when I see them putting their best foot forward and excited about learning. Today was a good day a few challenges but overall a good day.

Wouldn’t change my profession for the world would love to take up psychology though to understand the human mind a little bit better. I’m also happy that I’m working in the field that I’m happiest in and that I feel worthwhile while doing it I am manifesting something that is moving me forward.

A New Career Now

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I’m starting a new career it has never really been a difficult for me to find work because of my optimism in my ability to see the positive side of things. I have always been able to foresee something put action to it and make it happen but here lately I was waiting on something to come about that happened taken an enormous amount of time to materialize to the point where I was calling for something and it wasn’t happening.

I am worried but also excited at the same time because it seems as if this is the path I’m supposed to take because of the changes that I want to happen that have been in my face so now I am putting my best foot forward and moving toward what needs to be done in order for me to have the life I seek. I will be starting a new career tomorrow and working really hard at it to get things in order so that I can have the life I desire.

Once I go down this path there is no turning back that’s the part that scares me because I have a myriad of problems that can pop up at any time but I’m willing to do it in order to generate what I need to generate. Happy Sunday!

Happy Friday it’s raining

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Today is Friday November 5th 2021 I took my puppy outside I didn’t like that too much because it’s raining and the rain just makes you cold and uncomfortable I use to love to play in the rain as a child because in New Jersey when it rain it would get pitch black dark and you would see thunder and lightning and the rain would just pour and pour and pour it was always fun to just run through the rain.

When I got older and move to California the rain wasn’t so fun anymore because it was always uncomfortable made your clothes feel weird and sticky so I stopped going out in the rain especially after my mom fell on the bus and broke her leg in three places had a cast all the way up to her waist because it was raining and the bus what’s really wet and she slipped and fell.

I try not to come out in the rain too much because traffic be crazy people drive different and you always have to be extra extra cautious just to stay safe. I really miss those times as a child happy and just not worried about anything coming towards me in a negative way. Sometimes adulting is very difficult but when you have peace of mind it’s always worth it. Enjoy the rest of y’alls day!

Raining over here

Florida-Georgia weekend

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Yesterday was the Florida Georgia game unfortunately Florida lost by a landslide maybe next year but on a brighter note there were a million people out there some folks were selling things some folks were making money from parking some folks wear just walking around with their Florida Georgia colors and some folks were just out and about to be in the atmosphere no matter what was going on everyone was enjoying themselves and enjoying the atmosphere out and about.

I didn’t go outside until late maybe around 5 p.m. because I was doing some stuff in the house but when I finally went outside that atmosphere was electric and it made me desire to walk and experience it I added a video as I walked around to look and see what was happening it was just so nice out the weather was nice everyone was just chilling and enjoying the camaraderie of everything happening. It was a great experience one of those things that you just want to experience again and again.

I think I will make the Florida-Georgia weekend a tradition for me because the experience is one that is really great I’m hoping next year I will experience it with someone who is wonderful to walk around with and chill with. Happy Sunday!

He’s Jealous of my past

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When I met my ex-husband I was in a very vulnerable state I was young and needed to feel appreciated and loved it was the simple things that mattered to me and he saw that and did what I needed at the time.

I had no idea he was just grooming me to be blinded to the dirt he was doing behind my back so yes I loved him unconditionally to the detriment of everything I loved or that matter to me in my life.

Fast-forward my new husband the libra ♎ is always probing for information whatever he can use against anyone at any given moment he kept asking me about my life with my ex and I explained a little bit about it and he went on and on talking about how I worked for my ex and how I like broke ni$_as even though that was not the case at all.

There were situations that my kids needed things and I definitely was not about to let them go without so I took a temporary job to satisfy the need at the time but he just kept going on and on about it saying I should work for him now I keep telling him the situation is not the same he is not him and my kids are grown. Then he’ll say I really loved that ni#$a. He wants that kind of love truth be told he has never treated me the way my ex did my feelings are not the same for him at all and more then likely never will be.

I am older wiser stronger and don’t want to love that way again especially with a man that can’t belong to me and only me. I have a lot to offer a mate and if he can’t give me something as simple as some of his time why would I give him my unconditional love I matter and to the right person I will mean the world to. He refuses to see that but still wants my best for him while he never sees his faults or what causes me my distress in him he will say I find things wrong that are not wrong. Happy Saturday y’all I will not let him mess with my mind period.

I completed my TMS

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Today I went to my last TMS therapy appointment it has been my one constant for the last few weeks and the people there were so supportive and loving that I always wanted to go back even on the days when I felt the worst I always knew when I got there I would be greeted with a smile and treated with respect.

I enjoyed every minute of my time there with them and will miss them very much I almost cried leaving today but I do feel better having had been there with them for such a time as this.

I needed this break through and got it now it’s time for the work of life to begin. I will start something new and make that happen in my life to help better myself. Anyway happy Friday

He is back home yay

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My grandson is back home with my daughter I am so happy for her having him back she kept her cool kept doing the work and it paid off.

I tried to share my good news to my narcissistic husband (big mistake) he took my news and turned it into a whole conversation about him and how bad women are 🙃😒🙄 I just kept saying geeze I’m sure sorry I even told you because you can never just celebrate with me it always has to go into something about you.

He says that by me saying that I made the whole conversation about me I told him at this point I’m getting off the phone with you because I refuse to be your punching bag any more (verbally of course) and I hung up the phone he kept calling me back saying because he pays the phone bill I don’t have a right to get off the phone he is a classic Libra for real with his entitlement attitude he has all the time this crazy.

He lives in his karma and it doesn’t let up because of the way he treats everyone especially me I try to talk to him but he will tell me I’m karma which is not true because I don’t treat people bad or use people for personal gain I don’t have a, you do for me and I’ll do for you attitude, because that’s not a positive way to be. I believe it’s you do unto others as you would have them do unto you, but he doesn’t believe that he believes if they do for him he will do for them he always has to be getting something in return no matter what and that selfish.

He says I’m a narcissist

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I was having a conversation with husband last night and he told me I was a narcissist and that I think about myself always first it’s crazy. Because I always put other people first I have been told that to many times.

When I got with him his very first statement out of his mouth was he comes first he is always first place so from that point on I realized that (with him) I have to put myself first cause he will never look out for my best interest.

Then I find out he feels men need more then one women to be happy and that he feels this is biblical it’s crazy especially when he has never read the Bible. I was taught to follow the man that follows God how do I follow someone who is clearly the opposite of a godly man that will lead me to clearly to destruction do I ignore my morals and go with the flow or do I keep praying that he finds his way.

I know I’m not a narcissist and I definitely know he is and the way I am with him is a direct result of his treatment of me over time. I just hope he finds his way before it’s too late and he finds himself in a problem he can’t get out of. Anyway good morning guys have a wonderful Wednesday.

Sunday Vibes

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Today started out pretty good I woke up late in the morning went to pick up my meds and then came back home. To a man that always feels the things he says are simple when everything he says or ask is always a prelude to something way more sinister and taxing but he doesn’t ever see it that way so I’m always left with feelings of inadequacy or like I’ve caused a problem when I haven’t.

Then he’ll attach it to something else that has nothing to do with the subject at hand like he did me a favor by doing something when in the end he was the one that got the pleasure out of it, it’s crazy but I don’t get upset I’m used to it by I know I shouldn’t be because it’s not normal. I’m working on working through things and getting myself together so that I can be the best me possible.

I’m learning to enjoy my life even if I have to do that alone because my peace of mind is the most important to me and living my life the best way that I can is to me the best thing that I can do for myself and my family. Have a great Sunday you guys.

Am I wrong

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I want to be with a man that is open and honest with me. Doesn’t beat around the bush and play games with my heart or my head. Is that to much to ask for in a relationship?

I am very open minded and willing to give my everything to the people I care about as long as I feel the same thing in return it’s hard to give when I feel like I’m not appreciated or whatever I do falls on deaf ears.

I know relationships are give an take but what happens when you’re always giving and the other person minimizes what you give and makes it seem as if what they give is more significant than what you do? Even when what you do is really their responsibility and you take up the slack for them in every way possible when is enough enough?