This year started out pretty slow. I wanted to be up to bring in the new year next to the man I wanted to spend the year with so as I was sitting there and the hours were passing by I decided to get up and go into the den to try to be next to him to watch whatever he was watching on TV and when I got to the door, he stopped me. And said, what are you doing? I said I’m coming in here with you so that we can bring in the year together. He said it’s not midnight, so go back and do whatever you was doing. I shouldn’t have let that bother me, but for some reason it did, and I decided to go lay down and get back up at midnight. I didn’t wake back up until around four in the morning. I had missed everything. I was so disappointed in myself and that fact. It started to paste of the new year letting me know this was going to be another lonely year, and I hate that fact that at least I’ve made some friends that I am going to capitalize on so even if I won’t be spending time with him, I will be spending time with them. Happy New Year y’all
Tag: freedom
My daughter’s birthday
Today my youngest child turned 23. I am very happy that she has lived a whole Nother year. I am very proud of her and glad that she has done such a great job at surviving this long. I pray that the next year will be a great adventure for her full of great blessings and gifts, and welcome to potential that she will see nothing but goodness and treasure coming her way she is a blessing to be on this earth, and I love her very much. She makes my life happy and want to be encouraged about. I’m hoping to see her more and contribute to her happiness like my mom contributed to mine happy birthday my beautiful daughter. I love you. Lexys
My sisters birthday
This is my last week here in California today is my sister‘s birthday happy birthday Lynette I hope you had a fantastic birthday I have completely enjoyed myself being able to get out and about travel around see things in California that are going on around here and riding the bus and train everywhere I will enjoy my time visiting with my mom my niece I even got to see my nephew Justin while I was out here so I feel good now I’m heading back to Florida it’s been a good day next year will be even better good night. Plus I’ve lost some weight I’ll be on a plane Friday night
Rising cost
Today I went into the store Walmart shout out to Walmart to pick up a few things and I was doing a price check on some eggs because generally when the price isn’t there it must be an astronomical price that they don’t want you to look at just pay when you get to the counter. I asked a Walmart employee what the price was for the eggs and I figured the price that was there was incorrect because I had never seen eggs cost almost $16. The employee came over to me and he told me that the price was correct so I asked him what was the price of the pack that was right below that 60 pack of eggs and he went on to tell me that I should blame the Biden administration for the price of the eggs I sat there and I thought why would I blame Biden for eggs why not blame you. Because your salary is $15.09 an hour so prices would have to go up in order to pay your salary why would I blame the government when it would be a wiser deduction to stay at home and blame what’s right here if I’m going to lay blame. But I let him go on and talk without uttering a word. He said there are all these people in office but none of them know how to run a country as if he was someone who knew about how to run a whole government or knew anything above a checkers profession it baffled me and it also made me think people are so quick to put blame on others instead of taking responsibility for their own actions I for one am guilty of that myself I am learning every day how to take accountability for what I do and not put the blame on others that is the right way to be. I don’t blame the president for the Senate or the House of Representatives they get the blame for their own actions. What President Biden and Vice President Harris does they take responsibility for no one else and I would not add to their plate by being arrogant or unjustly blaming them for stuff that is not their fault they might not be strong but they are also not weak and I support them. Enjoy the rest of your day happy Thursday!!!
Going to California
I’m going home in a few weeks I haven’t been back there in 5 years and I’m excited to go it’s one of those things where I know I’m going to be around people like me and I will have time to feel like myself and have people who love me for me and the excitement is overwhelming. While at the same time I feel a sadness that I’m leaving my stuff here with someone who doesn’t cherish the things that I cherish not knowing if the things that I love will be here when I get back because of his arrogance and I don’t care attitude even though I know I wouldn’t do that to him he would do that to me and I feel angry and scared all at the same time because these are the things that I didn’t want to lose that I’ve taken with me everywhere that I went. I am very happy to be going around people that celebrate each other where I won’t have to see another birthday alone this year and I will be able to visit friends who like having people over just so many things to do that make life worthwhile I can’t wait to go most of all to get away from here and be in a good happy environment for once without someone who is pessimistic about everything and never has a kind word to say about anyone especially women because he’s bitter and narcissistic on the Covert side due to lack of nurturing I no longer take the blame for that or even care life is to short to live unhappy with someone who is supposed to love me but puts me last at every turn I’m worth more than green that’s just my name anyway happy Juneteenth
Lil Durk concert
Today I’m at a lil Durk concert because I won tickets it’s nothing more telling then when you win something and have no one to share it with so I came alone but I’m still happy to be here because I know good still comes to me even with out anyone else no matter how much they say I’m not favored I still am and it shows every day of my life anyway happy Tuesday.
First day of spring break
What I plan to do for spring break is organize plan and make new provisions for this house and hang out with friends it will be a relaxing time for me and a time to replenish rethink and re-strategize while thinking of new ways to make money I have a few things in the works but I’m going to continue to look for new ways to add to those things to bring in new streams of income. While still working on my weight and working on my house. 
This rain is relentless it makes the day seem really dreary but it is much needed I just hate having to go out in it because it’s so uncomfortable and I have to jump in the shower a lot in order to keep myself calm and comfortable it’s a real pain happy Friday everyone.
Late night hour
Most nights I don’t sleep I stay up and think and clean when I’m not working I do a lot of soul-searching and trying to figure out how I can get my passion out in the world because I love working with small children my dream is to have little children learning as much as they can before their brains become concrete and they are no longer able to absorb masses of information at an early age which will give them a love for learning for a lifetime. I have always watched from the time my children were little them absorb information so quickly and be in all by how they saw the world and so excited with them and for them to see everything that I had saw through fresh eyes.
When I look at children I know that they are the next great in this world and with the right nourishment and guidance they will become a memorable part of this society and this is why I try to work as hard as I can to encourage that growth and make them be the best that they can be I’m so proud of my own children and the children that I work with even though sometimes they can be difficult and give me a hard timeWhen I look at children I know that they are the next great in this world and with the right nourishment and guidance they will become a memorable part of this society and this is why I try to work as hard as I can to encourage that growth and make them be the best that they can be I’m so proud of my own children and the children that I work with even though sometimes they can be difficult and give me a hard time
I listen to Steve Harvey in the morning when I have time and he always gives the right motivational speech to say if you’re doing something that you love it never feels like a job and that is so true because when I’m working with kids it never feels like a drag or something that I hate doing I really love seeing their faces the joy in their eyes even when they roll their eyes because they see they’re gonna have to do some work with me it’s stillI listen to Steve Harvey in the morning when I have time and he always gives the right motivational speech to say if you’re doing something that you love it never feels like a job and that is so true because when I’m working with kids it never feels like a drag or something that I hate doing I really love seeing their faces the joy in their eyes even when they roll their eyes because they see they’re gonna have to do some work with me it’s still brings me peace in knowing that they will know something more when they leave my classroom and they will have a little bit more respect for themselves and their classmates as well as me for trying to help them be better at whatever it is they need to know. We’re going into spring break and I’m going to use this time to reflect on how I can help them better during this next period of time when I’ll be working with them. Happy break everyone I will be keeping up with my diet while on spring break I have lost even more weight over this time and I am not giving up this is my goal for the year and I will not stop until I reach my goal
A piece of paper
I had to take a long ride with my husband to advocate for him out of town but for me it was a time to get away with someone I love ❤️ and also help him convey how he is doing on a daily basis like I always do. Instead of this being a relaxing time it became an interrogation of all the things he feels I have done wrong because of his belief that he should have many relationships but not let those people know he has a wife or mate and I feel that’s wrong because he is taking their right to choose away because he can not comment to any of them so I feel like he is using them and he gets angry 😡 with me and denys me the things I desire.
He told me on this trip we are only married on paper he is not really married to me and as I thought 💭 about that and all that I have done for him it really hurt 😔 my feelings that he could be that disrespectful to me but then again what did I expect from a person that uses and disrespects women all the time in (including his own sisters) the first place can’t blame anyone but myself. Happy Saturday the last one in February! Happy Black History month
I’ve lost 22 pounds yay
I have been on this weight loss journey since last year Nov and have not given up well I’ve been on it for years without success so I talked to my doctor about my frustrations and he helped me so ñow I have been dropping pounds consistently and I am very happy about that I’m still looking for my workout partners who will be my companions as well anyway we have almost made it through January already I can see this is going to be a great year and I am very excited about it work is going well and I’m finding like-minded friends that I’m looking to build with this year is helping me see me and I’m loving it Happy Wednesday
The struggle is now not forever 