A new month A new beginning

Today is November 1st and I am ready to embark on a whole new journey a month of new beginnings with balance and abundance I’m very excited about what is to come this month is a month of Thanksgiving which will be a happy month for me I’m hoping I will see my grandson.

It’s the start of the holiday season and I absolutely love the holiday season because it’s a time to bring people together and where love starts to flow like never before and this year will be much better than last year so happy November 1st everyone

Florida-Georgia weekend

Yesterday was the Florida Georgia game unfortunately Florida lost by a landslide maybe next year but on a brighter note there were a million people out there some folks were selling things some folks were making money from parking some folks wear just walking around with their Florida Georgia colors and some folks were just out and about to be in the atmosphere no matter what was going on everyone was enjoying themselves and enjoying the atmosphere out and about.

I didn’t go outside until late maybe around 5 p.m. because I was doing some stuff in the house but when I finally went outside that atmosphere was electric and it made me desire to walk and experience it I added a video as I walked around to look and see what was happening it was just so nice out the weather was nice everyone was just chilling and enjoying the camaraderie of everything happening. It was a great experience one of those things that you just want to experience again and again.

I think I will make the Florida-Georgia weekend a tradition for me because the experience is one that is really great I’m hoping next year I will experience it with someone who is wonderful to walk around with and chill with. Happy Sunday!

He says I’m a narcissist

I was having a conversation with husband last night and he told me I was a narcissist and that I think about myself always first it’s crazy. Because I always put other people first I have been told that to many times.

When I got with him his very first statement out of his mouth was he comes first he is always first place so from that point on I realized that (with him) I have to put myself first cause he will never look out for my best interest.

Then I find out he feels men need more then one women to be happy and that he feels this is biblical it’s crazy especially when he has never read the Bible. I was taught to follow the man that follows God how do I follow someone who is clearly the opposite of a godly man that will lead me to clearly to destruction do I ignore my morals and go with the flow or do I keep praying that he finds his way.

I know I’m not a narcissist and I definitely know he is and the way I am with him is a direct result of his treatment of me over time. I just hope he finds his way before it’s too late and he finds himself in a problem he can’t get out of. Anyway good morning guys have a wonderful Wednesday.

Happy Monday

Today is the first day of my workout I’m focused on my stomach area I’ve been working on my stomach area for years lol it has been the bane of my existence ever since my first C-section that pouch at the bottom of my stomach I have not been able to get rid of ever since then. My children are well grown now and I’m still working on getting rid of that couch I have thought about liposuction and taking fat burners eaten all kinds of healthy foods and steal that stomach is still sitting there I don’t know what else to try I even did the keto diet

I’m always the one trying to be as healthy as possible but nothing seems to work for me I think it has something to do with my thyroid problem and the fact that my knees are bad but I still keep trying. i’m always working at building myself up so that I can be here for the long-haul that’s important to me because I haven’t always wanted to be here for a long period of time there were some times when I was in a really dark place and I didn’t even want to live.

But I’m happy now that I’m doing better and feeling better and wanting more out of life even if it seems I’m not where I want to be I’m getting there and I’m working at getting better and that’s what’s important no matter what’s happening around me me being here is enough enjoy the rest of you guises day

Sunday Vibes

Today started out pretty good I woke up late in the morning went to pick up my meds and then came back home. To a man that always feels the things he says are simple when everything he says or ask is always a prelude to something way more sinister and taxing but he doesn’t ever see it that way so I’m always left with feelings of inadequacy or like I’ve caused a problem when I haven’t.

Then he’ll attach it to something else that has nothing to do with the subject at hand like he did me a favor by doing something when in the end he was the one that got the pleasure out of it, it’s crazy but I don’t get upset I’m used to it by I know I shouldn’t be because it’s not normal. I’m working on working through things and getting myself together so that I can be the best me possible.

I’m learning to enjoy my life even if I have to do that alone because my peace of mind is the most important to me and living my life the best way that I can is to me the best thing that I can do for myself and my family. Have a great Sunday you guys.

A victory

Today was a good day I got out did some running around and accomplished some of my goals. The thing that I’m most happy about is that my daughter won in court I believed that she would and I had a huge amount of Faith and family support for her rooting for her to win and it happened it’s not easy when you feel all alone when everyone is far away but you know that people love you no matter what.

I’m so proud of the woman that she has become and how she’s always willing to give and be a support system for others her and her sister are always there for each other and that makes it that much better knowing that they are over there dealing with life on life’s terms with each other it makes me proud to know that I instilled some great values in them for each other.

There is nothing better than the love of family and the commitment of relationship that is there for each of us to have each other I always love family and no matter what happens in life no matter how far apart we are I always know that when push comes to shove we have each other’s back anyway that was today’s venture tomorrow will be a new one.