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Am I wrong

On By L Corelle GreenIn RelationshipsLeave a comment

I want to be with a man that is open and honest with me. Doesn’t beat around the bush and play games with my heart or my head. Is that to much to ask for in a relationship?

I am very open minded and willing to give my everything to the people I care about as long as I feel the same thing in return it’s hard to give when I feel like I’m not appreciated or whatever I do falls on deaf ears.

I know relationships are give an take but what happens when you’re always giving and the other person minimizes what you give and makes it seem as if what they give is more significant than what you do? Even when what you do is really their responsibility and you take up the slack for them in every way possible when is enough enough?

MY CURSE Her Life

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, RelationshipsLeave a comment

When I was 3yrs old I lost my father to a heart attack I remembered small things about him but for the most part the main thing I remembered most was him falling down in church and never getting back up again. There was a lot around him falling but that was the main thing for me a small 3yr old on the front row in church.

After that we only had my mom and even though she was a great parent there are things that boys and girls really need from their dad. So when I thought to myself about when I grew up I knew just like my mom, and grandparents I was going to be a wife and mother raise my children with both parents. What I didn’t know was I never learned how to be a mate better yet a girlfriend I just knew how to obey and follow instructions. That’s what I was taught be seen and not heard and don’t cause a seen even if you don’t like it deal with it because they are your elder. It wasn’t proper to let my feelings be known. So I let men run all over me give me children and not take responsibility and leave me alone.

I thought I reversed it when I married and stayed with a man while my children were still young but he turned out to be the worst of the worse and my ex.

Now I’m watching the same pattern unfold in front of my eyes and I feel helpless to fight it and sad that I was unable to make sure that this didn’t happen to my children as it did to me the one thing I am super happy about is no matter what is going on with them they always support each other as I and my siblings did I didn’t go wrong there.

I take full responsibility

On By L Corelle GreenIn Relationships2 Comments

When I was growing up I was the youngest of 4 children my sister was the oldest who was 7 years older than me. My brothers were in the middle the younger of the two of them was still 4 years older than me often me and my (as I would call him) my older younger brother would bump heads a lot cause he always seem to be a big head to me but as a child my favorite word was “black dog” I would always get in trouble over that and fighting with my brother my other brother was my favorite he was funny and always cool to be around.

My mom always left my sister in charge we had the most fun on our block being latchkey kids our house was the spot to be at. It always seemed like we were the life of the party no matter where we lived there was this unspoken bond between us that made a world 🌎 of difference no matter who was around us. Especially if we sang together the harmony was out of this world.

We all live in different places now and we don’t get together like we use to I think 💭 of my siblings often and sometimes miss those holidays we would eat and watch movie marathons together because our interest are so much the same.

I realize there is nothing wrong with being smart or having smart people in my corner and I will not dumb down how I communicate in order to please anyone I take full responsibility for my own life and happiness and I choose to surround myself with like minded people who have goals and dreams that they plan on achieving I will not quit until I complete my task!

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Backwards can not go forward

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I have always been the person to listen to each and every person’s feelings and hear their heart’s desire. It’s one of those things that made me the person everyone found easy to talk to or even if I was in line at the store I’m that person that the person in line all of a sudden feels this undeniable urge to start a conversation with because my aura made him/her feel connected.

When I got with my now mate I saw something in him that was so different that I could not help but take a closer look at him. I first thought he was really crazy because he saw the world so different in my mind completely dyslexic but he was strong and smart with a severe hatred for women and was really open about it. I just figured he had been really hurt by women so this was he way of dealing with it no matter how he felt about them he would not ever feel that way about me. Because I was different from all of them. One thing I have learned is if someone is going to be angry about small things they are going to really blow up over big things. Now 6 years in and he is still as angry 😡 as he was when I met him and I realized I can’t make someone be free if they want to be bound I have to free myself and show him how it looks to not dwell on the past.

I choose to continue to move forward and be happy and not let his attitude or behavior make me unhappy because I am responsible for my own happiness even if that means having side friendships to make my life better and productive.