Tag: friendship

Happy Friday it’s raining

On By L Corelle GreenIn adventure, family, Relationships, self love, travelLeave a comment

Today is Friday November 5th 2021 I took my puppy outside I didn’t like that too much because it’s raining and the rain just makes you cold and uncomfortable I use to love to play in the rain as a child because in New Jersey when it rain it would get pitch black dark and you would see thunder and lightning and the rain would just pour and pour and pour it was always fun to just run through the rain.

When I got older and move to California the rain wasn’t so fun anymore because it was always uncomfortable made your clothes feel weird and sticky so I stopped going out in the rain especially after my mom fell on the bus and broke her leg in three places had a cast all the way up to her waist because it was raining and the bus what’s really wet and she slipped and fell.

I try not to come out in the rain too much because traffic be crazy people drive different and you always have to be extra extra cautious just to stay safe. I really miss those times as a child happy and just not worried about anything coming towards me in a negative way. Sometimes adulting is very difficult but when you have peace of mind it’s always worth it. Enjoy the rest of y’alls day!

Raining over here

Still in this everyday

On By L Corelle GreenIn adventure, family, holiday season, Relationships, travelLeave a comment

I struggle everyday to get up and go I suffer from depression and anxiety and it’s hard for me to function in the world some days are harder than others I wonder why I’m still here and other days I have crazy bursts of energy where I want to go and go and go and not stop. I can’t remember the last time I slept through the night.

It doesn’t help that I spent an enormous amount of time alone without a lot of friends out here in Florida things are different out here. The best place I can remember is my street in Trenton New Jersey I know it’s not the same as when I was growing up but the camaraderie and the love that we all have for each other I haven’t felt or seen that anywhere else I have lived since we moved from there back in the 80s.

California was a whole different beast it was the first place we lived where you didn’t know your neighbors and everybody was very individualized it was so different but we were the same always loving supportive of whoever we was around that type of magnetic personality that made you want to be around us. I love the way my family has been throughout my life I wouldn’t be who I am today had they not been who they were as I was growing up. We did so many things together growing up traveling going places seeing stuff I’ll never forget how my mom opened us up to seeing the United States in a different light it’s a great thing when you have a parent who doesn’t mind traveling. I would have never been exposed to the things I was exposed to had my mom not done the things she’s done. I appreciate her a lot I wish I would have kept her traditions up like that conventions and the campground my kids will be different people had I done that.

I wouldn’t have been so open to moving to other states or exploring out of the country had my mom not showed me how big this world is. There are so many things that I still have to do in this world that I know that I want to do and won’t quit until I do. Have a great Tuesday. If you can travel as much as you can cause this is a big world that needs to be explored.

I completed my TMS

On By L Corelle GreenIn adventure, family, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

Today I went to my last TMS therapy appointment it has been my one constant for the last few weeks and the people there were so supportive and loving that I always wanted to go back even on the days when I felt the worst I always knew when I got there I would be greeted with a smile and treated with respect.

I enjoyed every minute of my time there with them and will miss them very much I almost cried leaving today but I do feel better having had been there with them for such a time as this.

I needed this break through and got it now it’s time for the work of life to begin. I will start something new and make that happen in my life to help better myself. Anyway happy Friday

Happy Monday

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

Today is the first day of my workout I’m focused on my stomach area I’ve been working on my stomach area for years lol it has been the bane of my existence ever since my first C-section that pouch at the bottom of my stomach I have not been able to get rid of ever since then. My children are well grown now and I’m still working on getting rid of that couch I have thought about liposuction and taking fat burners eaten all kinds of healthy foods and steal that stomach is still sitting there I don’t know what else to try I even did the keto diet

I’m always the one trying to be as healthy as possible but nothing seems to work for me I think it has something to do with my thyroid problem and the fact that my knees are bad but I still keep trying. i’m always working at building myself up so that I can be here for the long-haul that’s important to me because I haven’t always wanted to be here for a long period of time there were some times when I was in a really dark place and I didn’t even want to live.

But I’m happy now that I’m doing better and feeling better and wanting more out of life even if it seems I’m not where I want to be I’m getting there and I’m working at getting better and that’s what’s important no matter what’s happening around me me being here is enough enjoy the rest of you guises day

Sunday Vibes

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

Today started out pretty good I woke up late in the morning went to pick up my meds and then came back home. To a man that always feels the things he says are simple when everything he says or ask is always a prelude to something way more sinister and taxing but he doesn’t ever see it that way so I’m always left with feelings of inadequacy or like I’ve caused a problem when I haven’t.

Then he’ll attach it to something else that has nothing to do with the subject at hand like he did me a favor by doing something when in the end he was the one that got the pleasure out of it, it’s crazy but I don’t get upset I’m used to it by I know I shouldn’t be because it’s not normal. I’m working on working through things and getting myself together so that I can be the best me possible.

I’m learning to enjoy my life even if I have to do that alone because my peace of mind is the most important to me and living my life the best way that I can is to me the best thing that I can do for myself and my family. Have a great Sunday you guys.

A victory

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Today was a good day I got out did some running around and accomplished some of my goals. The thing that I’m most happy about is that my daughter won in court I believed that she would and I had a huge amount of Faith and family support for her rooting for her to win and it happened it’s not easy when you feel all alone when everyone is far away but you know that people love you no matter what.

I’m so proud of the woman that she has become and how she’s always willing to give and be a support system for others her and her sister are always there for each other and that makes it that much better knowing that they are over there dealing with life on life’s terms with each other it makes me proud to know that I instilled some great values in them for each other.

There is nothing better than the love of family and the commitment of relationship that is there for each of us to have each other I always love family and no matter what happens in life no matter how far apart we are I always know that when push comes to shove we have each other’s back anyway that was today’s venture tomorrow will be a new one.

Am I wrong

On By L Corelle GreenIn RelationshipsLeave a comment

I want to be with a man that is open and honest with me. Doesn’t beat around the bush and play games with my heart or my head. Is that to much to ask for in a relationship?

I am very open minded and willing to give my everything to the people I care about as long as I feel the same thing in return it’s hard to give when I feel like I’m not appreciated or whatever I do falls on deaf ears.

I know relationships are give an take but what happens when you’re always giving and the other person minimizes what you give and makes it seem as if what they give is more significant than what you do? Even when what you do is really their responsibility and you take up the slack for them in every way possible when is enough enough?

Does Truth really matter

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I was in a a relationship for over 10 years with a man I loved and hated all at the same time. I would often pray back then that God would either let him die first or end of in jail forever just so I could be free from him cause I was afraid of him but I also felt indebted to him as well. He was mentally and emotionally and physically sexually abusive not just to me but to our children I was so used to being used that I never even saw the person that he was until it was too late and I was back being that little girl who was used to being treated poorly with no way out.

I came to him with no self-esteem looking any old kind of way like a tomboy and he showed me how to drive, pay bills, get my own place, and care for my own life then he used all that to break me completely to the point where I was ready to end my own life after finding out he used my love for him to blind me to what he was doing to my children. But it is a true statement what is done ✅ in the dark will always come to the light 💡 so I guess that’s why he is in prison forever.

Which brings me to the question at hand ✍️ does truth really matter when I got with my now partner I had only one ☝️ criteria I didn’t care if he made mistakes just tell me the truth. I believe if someone has certain feelings or beliefs I should have the choice if I want to be apart of that or not don’t lie to me or about me to someone else and not let me in on this and expect me to go along with the story you told.

I am open to a poly relationship but not if me of the other person female/s don’t know about each other it’s (to me) not healthy or safe and most of all it’s not balanced no matter how people try to make it seem like it’s a great thing quality time is supposed to mean something not just words. It takes work to make a relationship succeed and the more people in that relationship the more work the dominant person which is supposed to be the man has to put in if it’s that kind of relationship. I always want to feel apart weather it be myself a woman and a man, myself and a woman or myself and a man I need to feel connected always. So tell me does the truth make relationships better or worse?