My daughter, my daughter, my daughter

I’ve always related to my youngest daughter and the most because she was the one I was closest to out of all of my kids. She was the one that had my face, and she was the one that when she was born my sister had already claimed my other two kids so tell me I had to keep her with me at all times so I always felt this close to her. She was my last child, my baby, the child that was born out of love because I was in love with her father when she was conceived I never dreamed that she would be the one to give me the most heartache or would be the one who would be the biggest liar out of all my kids even though my middle daughter, cosmic pain I never thought that my last daughter would be the one to make me one in my life. I would’ve done anything for her no matter the cost no matter what was going on in my life if I thought that she was in danger or anything was happening, I would’ve moved Heaven and earth for her I didn’t care what it cost me or if I had to lose everything I would do anything to make sure that she was OK. I know you shouldn’t have favorite kids, but she was the one who always had my back and who it felt like she had my back I never dream that she would let a dirtbag guy come in between her and me the reason I call him a dirtbag is because he’s abusive. He’s a cheat and he is a liar. I can’t blame her for the choices that she made because this is the example that I gave her so I should by myself but at some point, we have to take accountability for our actions so let me get down to the situation at hand my daughter have been homeless for sometime now, and she has two small children by two different men. The older son is by another abusive guy who put a gun to her head and the second child is by the most recent dirtbag who tried to throw over a balcony when she came out to California. It was because I was out here and where I am. She knows she always has to open door but she has this entitlement attitude about her She doesn’t like to. Do what’s right she feels like the world owes her something so so she doesn’t like to give anything toward anything whether she lives there with you or not and if you ask her to give towards the house where most people will say you can’t live anywhere for free she gets an attitude, unless it involves her activities such as her bud habit. Should do anything for our kids. I will give her that, but she had nothing to give them so the little bit of money that I had I spent on them she didn’t appreciate that either. She got this real big attitude because I didn’t want her to take my grandkids back over there to the abusive relationship that she Refused to let go of. She tries to claim that I tried to kidnap her kids when we all stayed in the same place and then she lied on the Internet about me claiming that I wanted her to have a baby for me which is disgusting. I never dreamed that the daughter I gave birth to would turn out to be an entitled spoiled brat. I know I have my flaws and I’m definitely not perfect but one thing I am not is sick in the head. I take my medicine every day and I live with the problems that I have. I’m so disappointed that she would buy me to get sympathy on the Internet. Just try to garner sympathy is no good reason to do these types of things I don’t want anything but the best for her I wouldn’t ever kidnap my grandkids even though she’s not stable and is unable to have a place for them to live right now so they’re staying with their other grandmother I still wouldn’t take them from her because that gives her a reason to continue to try to do better I just don’t know what to do because I don’t deserve that she deserves so much better in life but if she’s the kind of person, I just won’t accept help Even when it’s opera continuously I don’t know what else to do. I pray that she will one day find herself and get the help that she needs meanwhile, may the Lord keep her safe these are the things that I pray for all the time while she still bites with this man fist fights let her safety be first and everything else after that.

My my grandbabies keep them safe, protect them from hurt harm or danger

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Let’s see the last thing!

What was the last thing you did for play or fun?

The last thing I did for play or fun was do some baking and paint a picture or a piece of wood. I was trying to be innovative and enjoy my time to myself. I wanted to bake some cookies to sell, but I ended up just baking to be baking and enjoying some time and talking to my grandkids, even though they don’t talk back it was wonderful just to look at their cute little faces. They’re always so busy into whatever they’re doing. It’s wonderful watching them explore this new world that they’re in. I was also trying to figure out how to get new energy new parts into my life and see how I could explore and bring laughter into my grandkids lives even though I’m always away from them. I miss them anyway that’s what I did for fun what did you do?

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I would give it to my banks trust

If you had a million dollars to give away, who would you give it to?

I would put it aside to gain interest in a trust half for my children and half for my grandsons who are still little to help them realize their dreams when they grow up so they don’t have to worry about getting a head start on life they will know grandma always loved them.

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My ideal home is full of rooms

What does your ideal home look like?

The first room has large pictures of family history going back to grandparents and great grandparents lots of memorabilia with memories of adventures and get together’s of family, vacations and time spent learning about our history and things that we learned traits that we got from our elders it has Things that were passed down from our family members that was important to them that they wanted us to have so that they can be remembered and have a stake in our future. It has music, rooms and dining room with a record player that actually still plays records it has a long dining room table for Gas to come over and eat and sit down and talk to us about growing up With our parents and cousins and friends, it has TVs and DVD players, CDs and tape cassettes with our family members voices on it from times they were telling stories and let us sit around and talk about things that were important to us even when they didn’t want to hear it, and they would save us it has our school awards and our memory verses our time capsules that we would bury, and years later, the grandkids dug up that we put inside the mantle so that they could see it and remember the fun things we used to do when playing outside, making mud pies it has our bedrooms that has changed over the years to show how our growth and development has sprung up into new adventures to wear now when the grandkids come over and great grands, they see how their stuff has been added to the room so that they know it is their place also it has been modernize with still a playground in the backyard they have a game room, TV room, work room, and a indoor garden so that they can play with it and they can tell their kids how they used to play on those very swings and they’ve been kept up so that when they got old enough they can play with them too it has books on the shelves and different little trinkets that has been there for years that has shown them how they have come from a long line of thinkers and entrepreneurs, who always grow with the times, and how they are expected to do the same, even if they go their own way, they are still expected to achieve in one way or another it has beautiful furniture clean walls and really nice carpet in certain areas and work floors and others. Everybody has a space where they know what to do when they come in the door and how to cook all the utensils are put in a neat and orderly fashion, and it’s always fun around their house because they know that at grandmom’s house they are always welcome so in my house it is always home.

When I accomplish some thing big my meeting my grandchildren for the first time

What brings a tear of joy to your eye?

When my grandchild was born, and I found out that he was healthy and safe that made me the happiest brought tears of joy to my eyes knowing that my daughter was OK and my grandbaby was here and one piece I felt good I felt happy I felt like the world was right.

God is life

How important is spirituality in your life?

Spirituality is very important to me because God is life.

God has made my life worthwhile and worth living things haven’t always been easy but with him by my side, I’ve been able to get through a lot and not go over the deep end. I’ve had some very traumatic events in my life. I didn’t know what was coming next or what to do, but my faith and my belief kept me going. There’s so much more I could say, but I want him with this God is everything..

My Birthday today 09/09

Today I turned 47 and I am very proud of that I had a very good day I woke up this morning to a delightfully wonderful cup of coffee that my sister made me she makes the best coffee I will say that it is always the right amount of sweetness and has this wonderful flavor that goes right along with it simply delicious next I wanted to get out for a while so I got on the bus and rolled around to the store to get some stuff for my favorite meal but to my surprise when I got back to the house I had some food waiting for me a delicious chicken meal with french fries and a soda. This made my day throughout the day I got all of the wonderful phone calls from all of my favorite people and then my sister made my favorite meal spaghetti which was the best in to my day I was going to go out but it decided to rain so I took a rain check on that I heard from everyone I needed to hear from and I am happy about that. I absolutely love my family and friends good night you guys happy birthday to me!

Happy New Year Eve

Tomorrow starts 2022 and this year has been a year of change so many things have happened so many differences so many things that we will never forget and will never understand. I am for one happy that we have made it through another year. This is why I decided to post on the last day of the year so many changes have happened I am very excited to see how the next year will progress and how everyone will change and adapt with everything that has happened over the last 2 years.

I became a grandmother this year I got married this year I started a new job I’ve lost an abundance of weight and became more active and I’m still on a weight loss journey, and I realized I want more out of life this year so I will see how next year will add on to better things and build more on top of what has happened this year happy New Year’s Eve everyone I will see you in the new year

Merry Christmas/ family day

Today most of us get together to celebrate the end of the year, the birth of Christ or each other making it through another year. Because so many of us didn’t make it for verious reasons so on this December 25,2021 celebrate yourself and always remember no matter what happens in your life you are wonderful and worth a celebration everyday you wake up and see your beautiful face. Have a wonderful holiday no matter how you celebrate it. If no one told you I am telling you you are awesome sauce!!!

Feeling under the weather

Over the last few days I’ve been feeling under the weather. Because the boy I keep from time to time I tell him all the time to cover his mouth when he sneezes and I take my vitamins and try to make sure I keep myself healthy as possible but it’s hard when someone doesn’t take accountability for what they’re doing around you. I also work in the schools and a lot of times the kids have runny noses coughs and all kinds of unsavory health issues that they don’t want to take care of. These things over time can affect everyone’s health around them. The last time I was in the school there was a child who was really sick this child began to throw up and was just not feeling the best at all. I really felt bad for the child it’s hard to not feel good and to have to deal with it. One good thing that came out of today was I got to talk to my daughter and my cute as a button grandson who kept talking and giggling to me in his baby language that was a highlight of my day other than talking to my husband who is always full of unconventional knowledge and different aspects of life sometimes hard to take in

Anyway I have been having a headache a runny nose and my stomach has been bothering me for the last couple of days and I’ve been trying to work through it but I’m still not feeling the best I’m hoping that I will get better soon. Because feeling sick is the worst thing in the world to me. I’m hoping to feel better so I can work tomorrow I don’t want to be sick at work anyway, I hope you all are having a wonderful day or at least the better day than me happy Monday.