My husband said I’m not worth shit yeah because I did not agree with his opinion wow that’s crazy I never thought that I would have to deal with someone who’s out like I was not worth shit because I didn’t agree with their opinion quite interesting the classic definition of a narcissist would be this man. He seems to be upset right now because I’m not saying what he wants me to say and the words that he used our backfiring on him I guess and that’s why he’s mad now whatever and dealing with it he can be mad all he wants is at the end of the day he needs to learn that if he’s not decisive he’s indecisive and indecisiveness doesn’t get you nowhere so be mad be angry but deal with it the fuck ever it doesn’t pay to be a narcissist and have to deal with someone who knows how to deal with a narcissist I guess but I don’t give a fuck because my sister was a Libra just like my husband and he hast to learn so he grabbed me again and said he’s strong lol that’s funny he must not realize I’m just as strong as he is so I pushed his hand away showing him that his mediocre strength isn’t shit whatever I’m gonna go to bed now but if he touches me again it will be the last time he ever does
Tag: happiness
Merry Christmas/ family day
Today most of us get together to celebrate the end of the year, the birth of Christ or each other making it through another year. Because so many of us didn’t make it for verious reasons so on this December 25,2021 celebrate yourself and always remember no matter what happens in your life you are wonderful and worth a celebration everyday you wake up and see your beautiful face. Have a wonderful holiday no matter how you celebrate it. If no one told you I am telling you you are awesome sauce!!!
Why is it so hard
I’m tired of trying to get him to understand who I am and what’s important to me. I never dreamed I would be with a person who only sees things from their own twisted point of view and tried to make that view be law always. I was raised to give without expecting anything in return but my partner give’s always expecting something in return with interest then wonder’s why no one loves him without conditions yeah I know it’s crazy but true. I can’t tell him anything without him making it seem as if I’m being unreasonable or unrealistic when it’s him who is taking things to a place they don’t need to go.
My frustration is overwhelming and I’m tired of trying to always be the good person when I’m being beat down by someone who can’t respect anything that we don’t agree on or that I don’t agree with him on I’m tired of the my way or high way method with him. He is not always right matter of fact half the time he is not right and I’m tired of being taken advantage of for keeping the peace while he continues to keep his narcissistic beliefs no matter how far fetched they are anyway I want better for my life this unhealthy unhappiness is for the birds!
Happy Saturday Peep’s
I got a bonus today I am a true believer that if I take one step forward the universe will take 10. I have always believed that if I always put positive vibes out I will get positive vibes and actions back as well as be favored there’s nothing that I have put my best foot forward on and not seen a great outcome on in my life which is why I always say favor ain’t fair!
Then I got bad news my daughter broke her foot while walking her dog I hate it when they are hurting in any case it’s like I always know when something is wrong I wake up in the middle of the night and can’t go back to sleep then the child affected comes to mind and I can’t shake the feeling that something is going on with them and I will immediately begin to talk to them until I feel the problem is rectified then I can rest. I’m so glad it was just a broken foot because I am a person who doesn’t handle trauma well and loss even worse.
This week had it’s ups and downs but for the most part I’m really glad I made it through and I hope you all are glad you did too. I’m doing good on my weight loss journey as well I was able to put on some stretch pants that I couldn’t fit some time ago and they fit me good and I looked good in them talk about happy but I’m not stopping until I reach my goal. It’s my niece birthday party today I’m so happy for her she is so smart and beautiful I love her Enjoy the rest of your Saturday.
Too many cooks in the kitchen
I love working with children as a teacher but sometimes when there are too many people who feel like they are the authority figure in the room it becomes a conflict of who is the most qualified to do the job. One thing I’ve learned over time is there can only be one Master chef and the rest have their own specialties but everyone compliments each other by working together there can’t be five master chefs and no subordinates because everyone is always going to buttheads at every turn since everyone feels like they are the one in charge.
I want to feel comfortable in my environment and right now I’m having trouble focusing on what I’m supposed to do when I’m constantly being redirected by the subordinates in the classroom and it gets frustrating sometimes but other than that today was a good day happy Monday.
I didn’t get the post yesterday
Yesterday I had a long day I got up first thing in the morning thinking I was going to go and do my second donation at plasma and got disappointed because their system was down I waited there for over an hour to no avail it was very disappointing I ended up having to leave it would have been my high day which I was kind of looking forward to but since that didn’t happen I figured I’ll go and take care of some other business. I left there came home and all of a sudden I felt drained I wanted to rest for a while I knew a friend of mine was going to an event later on and I was excited to go with him to that event we had talked about it and it was going to be a nice event but when it came time he asked me what I was going to do and I said I’m going with you and he commenced to tell me that I wasn’t going with him I was going to have to drive myself there and meet him there that was another disappointment because I didn’t think it made sense for us to be leaving from the same house going to the same event but in different cars so I decided not to go.
I decided to stay home take a nice long bath and relax for the rest of the day I was a little frustrated by the turn of events of the day but I was willing to just let the day slide by and start a new the next day so as I was in the tub I got a text from another friend of mine who invited me out to chill with her and had I had went to that other event I wouldn’t have been here to get that call so I went out with her and had a wonderful time came back home in high spirits sat down had a drink and went to bed happy the day wasn’t a total bust after all woke up this morning and enjoyed my Sunday I hope you enjoyed your day too. Sometimes taking care of self and your own mental stability can change everything around you self care is very important I’m learning that everyday.
I also was able to talk to my daughter and grandson and see his cute little bubbly face that made my day too I love when I have these moments to enjoy little times with family it makes life seem not so lonely and I also love my job very much the kids I work with can be challenging but that makes it that much better because they keep my mind running and they keep me focused on what needs to be done and I enjoyed that a lot too anyway good night
Monday workday
Today was a tough work day but very entertaining the kids I worked with were very outgoing and talkative they have a very intuitive mindset and we’re constantly on the move it was a massive overtaking of individualized personalities and innovative mindsets today on top of the back it’s my daughters birthday I’m really proud of her she always brings a smile to my face every time I think about the day of her birth and everything that happened that day I feel the glimpse of joy and happiness knowing that she was my last born and my life is all the better because she exists anyway happy birthday my youngest I love you
A disappointment
Last night I was very excited I got dressed was looking beautiful to go out and see the concert that I won on the radio only to get there and find out I was not put on the list I tried to reach out to the radio and my favorite radio host Teeroy to no avail I was completely disappointed when I had to leave without seeing the artist because the man at the entrance said I cannot let you in without being on this list. The music was playing there were people coming in and the vibe was really nice but I just could not be one of the participants in the atmosphere so I left there sat in my car for a minute trying to think of how I could reach somebody to let it be known I belonged on that list.
Since I was unsuccessful I left and came home and thought about my next move for the night and enjoy the night watching TV and solitude at my house the Sunday was still nice today and I enjoyed the rest of the day last night I hope you have had a productive Sunday as well. But the disappointment was still real to me times that happens in life you still have to roll with the punches and keep moving forward there are always better days ahead I know that and I believe that.
An exciting weekend
Ever since Thursday night I have had something to do every night and it has been amazing getting out and enjoying myself out and about on the town has been a complete joy tonight I will be going to see Rotimi at Whispers for a birthday bash very happy about that happy Saturday
Happy Black Friday
I use to love to shop on Black Friday it was the most exciting day of the year for me to go out in the rush and get educational toys and gifts as well as electronic gifts for my kids to help make learning fun for them I was always excited to see what new gadget had come out so I could surprise them with it and make them smile on Christmas
I haven’t shopped on Black Friday in some years now because my kids are grown and because the way life has went for me I am happy I have a young grandson to do a little something for he is so handsome and growing so fast I love him so much already. I hope his first Christmas is a great
He has so much life to look forward to and I am so proud of him and my daughter who is his mommy she does everything she can to make sure he is taken care of happy Black Friday
The struggle is now not forever 