Happy Saturday today I am out and about trying to find creative ways to bring in extra money since it’s needed to keep our lives moving forward the possibilities are endless and I definitely plan to make the most of it because I am naturally a money maker especially when I put my mind to it so let the games begin.
Today is Friday November 5th 2021 I took my puppy outside I didn’t like that too much because it’s raining and the rain just makes you cold and uncomfortable I use to love to play in the rain as a child because in New Jersey when it rain it would get pitch black dark and you would see thunder and lightning and the rain would just pour and pour and pour it was always fun to just run through the rain.
When I got older and move to California the rain wasn’t so fun anymore because it was always uncomfortable made your clothes feel weird and sticky so I stopped going out in the rain especially after my mom fell on the bus and broke her leg in three places had a cast all the way up to her waist because it was raining and the bus what’s really wet and she slipped and fell.
I try not to come out in the rain too much because traffic be crazy people drive different and you always have to be extra extra cautious just to stay safe. I really miss those times as a child happy and just not worried about anything coming towards me in a negative way. Sometimes adulting is very difficult but when you have peace of mind it’s always worth it. Enjoy the rest of y’alls day!
Today is November 1st and I am ready to embark on a whole new journey a month of new beginnings with balance and abundance I’m very excited about what is to come this month is a month of Thanksgiving which will be a happy month for me I’m hoping I will see my grandson.
It’s the start of the holiday season and I absolutely love the holiday season because it’s a time to bring people together and where love starts to flow like never before and this year will be much better than last year so happy November 1st everyone
Yesterday was the Florida Georgia game unfortunately Florida lost by a landslide maybe next year but on a brighter note there were a million people out there some folks were selling things some folks were making money from parking some folks wear just walking around with their Florida Georgia colors and some folks were just out and about to be in the atmosphere no matter what was going on everyone was enjoying themselves and enjoying the atmosphere out and about.
I didn’t go outside until late maybe around 5 p.m. because I was doing some stuff in the house but when I finally went outside that atmosphere was electric and it made me desire to walk and experience it I added a video as I walked around to look and see what was happening it was just so nice out the weather was nice everyone was just chilling and enjoying the camaraderie of everything happening. It was a great experience one of those things that you just want to experience again and again.
I think I will make the Florida-Georgia weekend a tradition for me because the experience is one that is really great I’m hoping next year I will experience it with someone who is wonderful to walk around with and chill with. Happy Sunday!
When I met my ex-husband I was in a very vulnerable state I was young and needed to feel appreciated and loved it was the simple things that mattered to me and he saw that and did what I needed at the time.
I had no idea he was just grooming me to be blinded to the dirt he was doing behind my back so yes I loved him unconditionally to the detriment of everything I loved or that matter to me in my life.
Fast-forward my new husband the libra ♎ is always probing for information whatever he can use against anyone at any given moment he kept asking me about my life with my ex and I explained a little bit about it and he went on and on talking about how I worked for my ex and how I like broke ni$_as even though that was not the case at all.
There were situations that my kids needed things and I definitely was not about to let them go without so I took a temporary job to satisfy the need at the time but he just kept going on and on about it saying I should work for him now I keep telling him the situation is not the same he is not him and my kids are grown. Then he’ll say I really loved that ni#$a. He wants that kind of love truth be told he has never treated me the way my ex did my feelings are not the same for him at all and more then likely never will be.
I am older wiser stronger and don’t want to love that way again especially with a man that can’t belong to me and only me. I have a lot to offer a mate and if he can’t give me something as simple as some of his time why would I give him my unconditional love I matter and to the right person I will mean the world to. He refuses to see that but still wants my best for him while he never sees his faults or what causes me my distress in him he will say I find things wrong that are not wrong. Happy Saturday y’all I will not let him mess with my mind period.
I was having a conversation with husband last night and he told me I was a narcissist and that I think about myself always first it’s crazy. Because I always put other people first I have been told that to many times.
When I got with him his very first statement out of his mouth was he comes first he is always first place so from that point on I realized that (with him) I have to put myself first cause he will never look out for my best interest.
Then I find out he feels men need more then one women to be happy and that he feels this is biblical it’s crazy especially when he has never read the Bible. I was taught to follow the man that follows God how do I follow someone who is clearly the opposite of a godly man that will lead me to clearly to destruction do I ignore my morals and go with the flow or do I keep praying that he finds his way.
I know I’m not a narcissist and I definitely know he is and the way I am with him is a direct result of his treatment of me over time. I just hope he finds his way before it’s too late and he finds himself in a problem he can’t get out of. Anyway good morning guys have a wonderful Wednesday.
I was almost hit by a van that ran a stop sign today. I had quick refluxes and turned my car so fast and drove forward to make sure there was room between me and that car. My heart almost jumped out my chest.
I don’t have many instances like that but this one made me think about how things can change in an instant I’m really glad I was not hurt for real. On a brighter note my niece Jordyn has a birthday today I hope she has a great day.
Today is the first day of my workout I’m focused on my stomach area I’ve been working on my stomach area for years lol it has been the bane of my existence ever since my first C-section that pouch at the bottom of my stomach I have not been able to get rid of ever since then. My children are well grown now and I’m still working on getting rid of that couch I have thought about liposuction and taking fat burners eaten all kinds of healthy foods and steal that stomach is still sitting there I don’t know what else to try I even did the keto diet
I’m always the one trying to be as healthy as possible but nothing seems to work for me I think it has something to do with my thyroid problem and the fact that my knees are bad but I still keep trying. i’m always working at building myself up so that I can be here for the long-haul that’s important to me because I haven’t always wanted to be here for a long period of time there were some times when I was in a really dark place and I didn’t even want to live.
But I’m happy now that I’m doing better and feeling better and wanting more out of life even if it seems I’m not where I want to be I’m getting there and I’m working at getting better and that’s what’s important no matter what’s happening around me me being here is enough enjoy the rest of you guises day
Today started out pretty good I woke up late in the morning went to pick up my meds and then came back home. To a man that always feels the things he says are simple when everything he says or ask is always a prelude to something way more sinister and taxing but he doesn’t ever see it that way so I’m always left with feelings of inadequacy or like I’ve caused a problem when I haven’t.
Then he’ll attach it to something else that has nothing to do with the subject at hand like he did me a favor by doing something when in the end he was the one that got the pleasure out of it, it’s crazy but I don’t get upset I’m used to it by I know I shouldn’t be because it’s not normal. I’m working on working through things and getting myself together so that I can be the best me possible.
I’m learning to enjoy my life even if I have to do that alone because my peace of mind is the most important to me and living my life the best way that I can is to me the best thing that I can do for myself and my family. Have a great Sunday you guys.
I always have a fast heart rate sometimes I can feel it in my chest and my throat to the point that I’m use to it beating out of control like this but times like now when it hinders me from doing things to help me gets frustrating.
I want to do so many things that depending on my body is a pain when it lets me down like this. I don’t know how to get my heart to not beat so fast? Anyway good morning
The struggle is now not forever 