First day of spring break

What I plan to do for spring break is organize plan and make new provisions for this house and hang out with friends it will be a relaxing time for me and a time to replenish rethink and re-strategize while thinking of new ways to make money I have a few things in the works but I’m going to continue to look for new ways to add to those things to bring in new streams of income. While still working on my weight and working on my house. 

This rain is relentless it makes the day seem really dreary but it is much needed I just hate having to go out in it because it’s so uncomfortable and I have to jump in the shower a lot in order to keep myself calm and comfortable it’s a real pain happy Friday everyone.

Late night hour

Most nights I don’t sleep I stay up and think and clean when I’m not working I do a lot of soul-searching and trying to figure out how I can get my passion out in the world because I love working with small children my dream is to have little children learning as much as they can before their brains become concrete and they are no longer able to absorb masses of information at an early age which will give them a love for learning for a lifetime. I have always watched from the time my children were little them absorb information so quickly and be in all by how they saw the world and so excited with them and for them to see everything that I had saw through fresh eyes.

When I look at children I know that they are the next great in this world and with the right nourishment and guidance they will become a memorable part of this society and this is why I try to work as hard as I can to encourage that growth and make them be the best that they can be I’m so proud of my own children and the children that I work with even though sometimes they can be difficult and give me a hard timeWhen I look at children I know that they are the next great in this world and with the right nourishment and guidance they will become a memorable part of this society and this is why I try to work as hard as I can to encourage that growth and make them be the best that they can be I’m so proud of my own children and the children that I work with even though sometimes they can be difficult and give me a hard time

I listen to Steve Harvey in the morning when I have time and he always gives the right motivational speech to say if you’re doing something that you love it never feels like a job and that is so true because when I’m working with kids it never feels like a drag or something that I hate doing I really love seeing their faces the joy in their eyes even when they roll their eyes because they see they’re gonna have to do some work with me it’s stillI listen to Steve Harvey in the morning when I have time and he always gives the right motivational speech to say if you’re doing something that you love it never feels like a job and that is so true because when I’m working with kids it never feels like a drag or something that I hate doing I really love seeing their faces the joy in their eyes even when they roll their eyes because they see they’re gonna have to do some work with me it’s still brings me peace in knowing that they will know something more when they leave my classroom and they will have a little bit more respect for themselves and their classmates as well as me for trying to help them be better at whatever it is they need to know. We’re going into spring break and I’m going to use this time to reflect on how I can help them better during this next period of time when I’ll be working with them. Happy break everyone I will be keeping up with my diet while on spring break I have lost even more weight over this time and I am not giving up this is my goal for the year and I will not stop until I reach my goal

A piece of paper

I had to take a long ride with my husband to advocate for him out of town but for me it was a time to get away with someone I love ❤️ and also help him convey how he is doing on a daily basis like I always do. Instead of this being a relaxing time it became an interrogation of all the things he feels I have done wrong because of his belief that he should have many relationships but not let those people know he has a wife or mate and I feel that’s wrong because he is taking their right to choose away because he can not comment to any of them so I feel like he is using them and he gets angry 😡 with me and denys me the things I desire.

He told me on this trip we are only married on paper he is not really married to me and as I thought 💭 about that and all that I have done for him it really hurt 😔 my feelings that he could be that disrespectful to me but then again what did I expect from a person that uses and disrespects women all the time in (including his own sisters) the first place can’t blame anyone but myself. Happy Saturday the last one in February! Happy Black History month

A hard day but good one

Today when I got to where I was going for work I ended up changing classrooms today and even though I ended up working with the same students that I worked with a couple days ago I still had to raise my voice a few times because it’s like a natural instinct for kids to be more rambunctious with a substitute teacher I’ve noticed that pattern because kids seem to think that because you’re subbing for them they can do whatever they want because you’re there for a limited time but one thing I think these students learned for the last few days is that if you want someone to give you time and attention you need to give them that respect of quietness when they are dealing with you so today and then on a good note and I feel more confident about it anyway happy throwback Thursday I’m still on my way lost journey and I believe I’m doing pretty good at it right now so I will continue to work towards my goal of dropping this hundred pounds over the next 9 months

A disappointment

Last night I was very excited I got dressed was looking beautiful to go out and see the concert that I won on the radio only to get there and find out I was not put on the list I tried to reach out to the radio and my favorite radio host Teeroy to no avail I was completely disappointed when I had to leave without seeing the artist because the man at the entrance said I cannot let you in without being on this list. The music was playing there were people coming in and the vibe was really nice but I just could not be one of the participants in the atmosphere so I left there sat in my car for a minute trying to think of how I could reach somebody to let it be known I belonged on that list.

Since I was unsuccessful I left and came home and thought about my next move for the night and enjoy the night watching TV and solitude at my house the Sunday was still nice today and I enjoyed the rest of the day last night I hope you have had a productive Sunday as well. But the disappointment was still real to me times that happens in life you still have to roll with the punches and keep moving forward there are always better days ahead I know that and I believe that.

A dream come true

I believe in manifesting what you want and putting things out there believing that they are going to happen and my manifestation has come to reality on so many occasions over the last few years it’s almost scary but expected one thing I’ve learned is to not ever second-guess what I believe and how I know things will work out because the smallest bit of doubt is like a wildfire to a dream or a manifestation it causes things to go in the wrong direction.

When I put things that I desire out I believe that whatever it is is going to happen and that I’m going to see it in this life I’ve done a few things and I’ve seen it with my own eyes to know that it is real and true and it happens for me because of that I stick with the knowledge that I know and have even if sometimes the manifestation takes longer to come about or the situation warrants more action on my part I sift through what it is that I need to do and step back after I’ve done that and watch everything come together I guess it’s the process of getting out of my own way so that my blessings can come to me.

I’ve been doing this for about 3 years now because in the past I felt powerless and unable to control the things that happened around me to me and because of me so I wanted to take my power back and that took courage and strong believe but it worked and now I’m on the right path to do the right thing and make things happen the way that I envision I see and I am capable of working to get them done. Happy Monday week of Thanksgiving I will be talking about the things I am thankful for this week I hope you have things that you’re thankful for as well till tomorrow.

A rough day

I love what I do I love working with kids watching their minds grow but sometimes it can be tough they all have individualized personalities and want to be heard a lot of times all at the same time no matter how many times you might tell them raise your hand and wait your turn Johnny Joe is talking they still well yell out and let it be known what they have to say is of the utmost importance even if no one hears them because everybody is doing the exact same thing.

Today was one of those days and as I sit here thinking about it I chuckle a little bit because I know that it is just because they desire to feel important and be heard no matter how much is going on around them and that is the most important thing to them. As kids grow they are so involved in everything that sometimes we forget that they are still little and developing and learning as they move along through this thing called life and we have to take the time out to sit down and really listen for them to express whatever concerns they have that’s going on in their world.

That’s one of the reasons why I love what I do even if sometimes I leave out with my head pounding I still remember they are such a great part of my life to watch them grow and learn and explore the world around them and I am so grateful to be a part of it. Then I can try to remember the headache I was at their age and how my teacher was when she left going home after dealing with me on a day-to-day basis. Happy Thursday TBT.

Happy veterans Day

My brother Ben Junior is a veteran and my niece La’Keha is a veteran as well I am very proud of the two of them they served this country well I remember when my brother joined he was right out of high school and was leaving to boot camp my family and I went down to watch him graduate it was a proud day to see him he looks so handsome and we were so happy to be there we always supported each other when we did something great no matter how small.

When he went to Iraq it was a scary time for us didn’t know if you would make it back but wasn’t afraid because we knew if we kept the faith and supported him through it he would make it back home to us and he did he even did the reserves after he got out of active duty him and my knees both where in the Navy I’m proud of the both of them and I’m glad that they served this country well I had a desire to go into the service but did not make it because other plans were made instead.

Enjoy the rest of your holiday

Starting a new job

My passion is small children because they learn so much so quickly the different stages of life are so new to them and when they’re really small everything they experience is an adventure to them it is so wonderful to watch them explore and learn and create the world around them that they will be a part of for a lifetime. This is one of the reasons why I became a teacher in order to teach them and show them how great the world around them is and help them develop a love for learning.

I love learning and every aspect of it the kids in primary School can be challenging at times. I still believe they are wonderful and special every last one of them they have so much to offer the world and I am always in awe by them especially when I see them putting their best foot forward and excited about learning. Today was a good day a few challenges but overall a good day.

Wouldn’t change my profession for the world would love to take up psychology though to understand the human mind a little bit better. I’m also happy that I’m working in the field that I’m happiest in and that I feel worthwhile while doing it I am manifesting something that is moving me forward.

A New Career Now

I’m starting a new career it has never really been a difficult for me to find work because of my optimism in my ability to see the positive side of things. I have always been able to foresee something put action to it and make it happen but here lately I was waiting on something to come about that happened taken an enormous amount of time to materialize to the point where I was calling for something and it wasn’t happening.

I am worried but also excited at the same time because it seems as if this is the path I’m supposed to take because of the changes that I want to happen that have been in my face so now I am putting my best foot forward and moving toward what needs to be done in order for me to have the life I seek. I will be starting a new career tomorrow and working really hard at it to get things in order so that I can have the life I desire.

Once I go down this path there is no turning back that’s the part that scares me because I have a myriad of problems that can pop up at any time but I’m willing to do it in order to generate what I need to generate. Happy Sunday!