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My daughter, my daughter, my daughter

On By L Corelle GreenIn abusive partner, black family, Children education, family, Green Royalty, inconsiderate,, my family, Relationships, self love, WomenLeave a comment

I’ve always related to my youngest daughter and the most because she was the one I was closest to out of all of my kids. She was the one that had my face, and she was the one that when she was born my sister had already claimed my other two kids so tell me I had to keep her with me at all times so I always felt this close to her. She was my last child, my baby, the child that was born out of love because I was in love with her father when she was conceived I never dreamed that she would be the one to give me the most heartache or would be the one who would be the biggest liar out of all my kids even though my middle daughter, cosmic pain I never thought that my last daughter would be the one to make me one in my life. I would’ve done anything for her no matter the cost no matter what was going on in my life if I thought that she was in danger or anything was happening, I would’ve moved Heaven and earth for her I didn’t care what it cost me or if I had to lose everything I would do anything to make sure that she was OK. I know you shouldn’t have favorite kids, but she was the one who always had my back and who it felt like she had my back I never dream that she would let a dirtbag guy come in between her and me the reason I call him a dirtbag is because he’s abusive. He’s a cheat and he is a liar. I can’t blame her for the choices that she made because this is the example that I gave her so I should by myself but at some point, we have to take accountability for our actions so let me get down to the situation at hand my daughter have been homeless for sometime now, and she has two small children by two different men. The older son is by another abusive guy who put a gun to her head and the second child is by the most recent dirtbag who tried to throw over a balcony when she came out to California. It was because I was out here and where I am. She knows she always has to open door but she has this entitlement attitude about her She doesn’t like to. Do what’s right she feels like the world owes her something so so she doesn’t like to give anything toward anything whether she lives there with you or not and if you ask her to give towards the house where most people will say you can’t live anywhere for free she gets an attitude, unless it involves her activities such as her bud habit. Should do anything for our kids. I will give her that, but she had nothing to give them so the little bit of money that I had I spent on them she didn’t appreciate that either. She got this real big attitude because I didn’t want her to take my grandkids back over there to the abusive relationship that she Refused to let go of. She tries to claim that I tried to kidnap her kids when we all stayed in the same place and then she lied on the Internet about me claiming that I wanted her to have a baby for me which is disgusting. I never dreamed that the daughter I gave birth to would turn out to be an entitled spoiled brat. I know I have my flaws and I’m definitely not perfect but one thing I am not is sick in the head. I take my medicine every day and I live with the problems that I have. I’m so disappointed that she would buy me to get sympathy on the Internet. Just try to garner sympathy is no good reason to do these types of things I don’t want anything but the best for her I wouldn’t ever kidnap my grandkids even though she’s not stable and is unable to have a place for them to live right now so they’re staying with their other grandmother I still wouldn’t take them from her because that gives her a reason to continue to try to do better I just don’t know what to do because I don’t deserve that she deserves so much better in life but if she’s the kind of person, I just won’t accept help Even when it’s opera continuously I don’t know what else to do. I pray that she will one day find herself and get the help that she needs meanwhile, may the Lord keep her safe these are the things that I pray for all the time while she still bites with this man fist fights let her safety be first and everything else after that.

My my grandbabies keep them safe, protect them from hurt harm or danger

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I don’t understand

On By L Corelle GreenIn abusive partner, family, Green Royalty, making money, Mental health, Mom’s, my family, narcissist, Relationships, self love, WomenLeave a comment

My daughter is going through a rough patch right now and I have been very concerned about her for months I had finally gotten her and my grandsons (1&3) out here where she could finally get on her feet and not have to worry about babysitting and homelessness just working building her money up and getting on her feet.

But unbeknownst to me she was still dealing with her abusive ex-baby daddy who got her homeless in the first place tried to kill her 3 different times and is her drug dealer. So at the last minute after I got her (me and other family members) all set up with clothes baby items and was working on getting her a place to live she decided to send the kids back to Texas.

Then sprung on me she was going too but the thing is she has no where to live there plus she has evictions because of the tumultuous relationship with this ex so I told her it didn’t make any sense to live on the streets over there just to be near a guy who told you to your face he hates you. But now she has stopped talking to me.

I don’t take back anything that I said because he doesn’t mean her any good and I got all my information from her it’s crazy what drugs will make you do I just pray he doesn’t hurt her cause I will end up in prison frfr!!!

Please keep my daughter and grandsons in your thoughts and prayers cause they need to be protected back here in California asap

My gbabys and daughter
Bring them back

I feel broken

On By L Corelle GreenIn abusive partner, black family, family, Green Royalty, Mental health, People, Relationships, self love, throwback Thursday, WomenLeave a comment

I lived my life for my children. I wanted them to have the life that I didn’t get to have growing up. I was looking for something that I wasn’t able to get. I ended up failing all the way around I sometimes wonder was any of it worth it? I lost everything. I continue to lose the more I live. I wonder why I’m still alive now. I cry every day. I have this immense sense of brokenness and sadness because all I wanted was a life filled with love and happiness, and all I got was pain and sadness. I wear a smile on my face but inside 90% of the time I wish I was dead. 

God has always been there

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God is so good he has done so much for me even though I gave up on Him at one point in my life I remember Him so well here is a story about His protection over me and my family: I was living in Long Beach California and my family had to move and had not found another place to live I told God what am I going to do I had the money just not the place and God said nothing. So I went with my kids to a hotel but now my money was running out. I said God I know you got me what am I to do (this came from being taught all my life God takes care of His own) I went down to catholic  charities and they didn’t have anything I went back to the hotel the very day I ran out of money I said God it’s all on you this is it and that very day all doors open and every door after that was nothing but Him. Even though I may not always agree with what or the way God does stuff He always makes me move the way I’m supposed to move God is good!!

The disappointment 

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I’ve never felt more disappointed and disgusted by a result that I am today I can’t believe that people who look like me would vote for a racist asinine idiot like Donald Trump? I’ve never been more embarrassed to be an American than I am today. I can’t believe that we are so poor minded that we would vote somebody in just because he put his name on a little bitty, check this man doesn’t care about anybody but himself, and for them to vote him in is asinine to me we are laughing Stock of the world I cannot believe that this happened why are we so petty? Why would we set ourselves back like this? I only hope that everyone of those idiots who put him in office get the brunt of everything that he does.

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People who

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What makes you nervous?

People who can never take responsibilities for their own actions who always blame everyone else for things that are their responsibility or who always turn things around that are their responsibility and act as if they are going to take responsibilities for something, but really don’t take no responsibility no accountabilityand no real put no effort into anything. They do do this reverse psychology stuff when you know it’s there backwards thinking that caused the thing to happen. They make me nervous.

Let think it was my:

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Describe an item you were incredibly attached to as a youth. What became of it?

Piggyback I have always been into saving money as a child growing up I was never a bank enthusiast. I always felt like they take advantage of your money and find reasons to take it from you, so I always felt like I had to keep money in different places all the time in order to, save and have a stash for emergencies. My piggy bank was a prize possession to me because I could not only save money. I could also see how I was going about putting money aside and envision what I would do with that money after I filled up my piggy bank, and that made me so happy what happened to that when my house burned down, my piggy bank burned with it, so I found other ways to do the same thing. Never had quite the same piggy bank again, but had other kinds of banks and safes ever cents some fireproof water, resistant, and other ways to stash money still do that to this day.

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Yes I do they haven’t steered me wrong yet

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Do you trust your instincts?

When someone is fake on the outside and people believe them end up, getting hurt, not me

I always believe in myself and my instincts I haven’t come across an impact that my instincts have told me not to trust where I have been wrong. I see things and people, and I know what their intentions are, and I listen closely and pay attention, and once I learn what they are about, I know how to act accordingly because when a person tells me who they are, I believe them from the very beginning if they tell me, they are a liar I believe them, and I don’t trust anything they say after that point, I look at them I see what they do. I listen to what they say how they talk the things they say about other people and everything and I know not to tell them anything or trust them with anything because they have proven and shown to me that they are a total liar. They are a total user, and they are literally limited person that should not be trusted to be a part of my life or it could be a job that says I will get benefits after a certain amount of time, but then they contradict themselves that says the job doesn’t come with benefits, I believe the latter once I know the truth about something I go with my first instant, because I know that no matter what a person will say the truth about them is the truth about them, and I won’t put myself in jeopardy by believing their lies, so I will give the minimal instead of trying to hurt myself by giving the most and not getting the most back, I will put my intentions into what is best for my future as best I can I have too many things going on to trust someone who can’t be trusted, so yes, I do follow my instincts always.

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I’ve met a few but I will start with my favorite few of them

Who is the most famous or infamous person you have ever met?

The first ones I remember meeting our Tia & Tamera Mowry and their little brother smart guy they came to my church when it was named the neighborhood Church of God before it changed the name to Pasadena Church guy in Pasadena California they were so nice and pleasant at my church they came with their parents they were still in their early teens and smart guy was so short and cute The next star I met was Stevie Wonder and then I met Mr. Cooper from hanging with Mr. Cooper I guess being from California you see a lot of stars but you don’t meet a lot of them I want to me personally CeCe Winans Brandy and maybe Oprah Winfrey one day but at the top of my list is Michelle Obama that would be a great day. I enjoy inspirational women it shows me that I can meet an inspirational person and be an influence on that inspirational man you became something great that’s what I love about Michelle Obama the most because President Obama became president and her influence encouraged that. Those are the kind of woman I want to be around that kind of influence takes people were in line even like the conversation I watched between Jeezy and Nia Long

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Understanding why!

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What have you been putting off doing? Why?

I have been fighting Social Security for over six years now and for the life of me I have been in a fog just going through the motions every day trying to figure out what The next step is to get my life back in order which direction to go or whether to just cut my losses and do what I know best to do and every time I start to go in that direction I feel like I am on the brink of, doing something that will turn my life upside down if I go that route because making rash choices in my life in the past has cost me greatly and I don’t wanna do it again even though I don’t regret those choices I don’t want to do them again and end up in a hole bigger than I’ve ever been in even though I’m not happy in the situation I’m in right now and I know I don’t wanna be in it for the rest of my life I don’t want to uproot again and start over somewhere else without having my ducks in a row or having a solid plan I don’t want to begin again without at least having everything that I know I came here with because it wouldn’t be right and I would be devastated so I’m trying to understand what it is that I need to do and why I am so hesitant to move forward even though I know I am able to land on my feet and get things done I just don’t feel like I am supposed to go anywhere right now and I don’t understand why so that is why I am trying to figure out why and why it’s taking so long and it’s such a difficult fight to get everything moving forward for me right now why am I being held here.

I am putting off making plans I am really living my life the way that I want to live it actually finding the love that will love me the way that I am used to being loved having someone who is compatible with me who is honest and loving and giving and has roots like I do and who is honorable who I wouldn’t mind taking Home to my mom and who has morals and things of that sort who I can travel with who will cherish me and celebrate me as I would them this is what I’m putting off with the life I’m living right now it’s like my life is shrouded in secrecy because of who I am with and what I’m dealing with and I’m tired of living in shame. I am a family oriented person and I want the person who I am with to be family oriented as well I love my family and I love traveling I don’t want to be just one of many I am the one and that is how it should be so this is what I’m putting off and I don’t want to continue that for much longer.

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