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A day missed

On By L Corelle GreenIn abusive partner, adventure, family, making money, narcissist, Polyamory relationships, Relationships, self love, Spring break, weight loss journeyLeave a comment

I was so active yesterday that I didn’t realize how much that was going to effect my body today I usually have the same routine. But when I get up this morning I was so tired that I couldn’t function or move so I kept saying a few more minutes that turned into a few hours and missed appointments.

I still ended up going food shopping but was even more exhausted after that been trying to get my spring cleaning done but it’s like this house has never ending work to do and it is really overwhelming I don’t want to give up though just wish I had friends to join in it would be different but I don’t have someone like that. Anyway happy Wednesday

A piece of paper

On By L Corelle GreenIn abusive partner, adventure, Black History Month, family, narcissist, Polyamory relationships, Relationships, self love, UncategorizedLeave a comment

I had to take a long ride with my husband to advocate for him out of town but for me it was a time to get away with someone I love ❤️ and also help him convey how he is doing on a daily basis like I always do. Instead of this being a relaxing time it became an interrogation of all the things he feels I have done wrong because of his belief that he should have many relationships but not let those people know he has a wife or mate and I feel that’s wrong because he is taking their right to choose away because he can not comment to any of them so I feel like he is using them and he gets angry 😡 with me and denys me the things I desire.

He told me on this trip we are only married on paper he is not really married to me and as I thought 💭 about that and all that I have done for him it really hurt 😔 my feelings that he could be that disrespectful to me but then again what did I expect from a person that uses and disrespects women all the time in (including his own sisters) the first place can’t blame anyone but myself. Happy Saturday the last one in February! Happy Black History month

Long term love that’s real

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This week on the 25th marked my one year anniversary being married to my husband Làron and you know what we did nothing because he has said that I don’t follow him which is not true I knew not to be with someone like him in the first place but my loving heart told me to try to make it work now I’m with a person who never celebrates me or takes in the things that I feel are important and has an explosive argumentative personality that no matter what I say he always say the opposite and honestly I’m really tired of it I want my peace back where I can have my hope and watch things work out for me in my face with out his hate speech because nothing works out for him because of what he spews out of his mouth all the time Anyway I am in the process of making new friends that are like minded so that I can have people to celebrate and who will celebrate me it seems to be working and I’m good with it.

Today was a hard day

On By L Corelle GreenIn adventure, family, Happy New Year, holiday season, making money, narcissist, Relationships, self love, voting, weight loss journeyLeave a comment

I started out this day so tired that I even woke up late I still made it to work on time but I felt rushed and out of sync because of the last couple of days I like the making my own schedule because it gives my body time to rest and we cooperate from all the walking and moving and mental strain of being in the work world so I came on here and to say this always put your help and well-being first because jobs come and go the human being doing the job does not happy Wednesday

He is so evil

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I was up late last night trying to find new friends and enjoy my night when my husband begins to tell me to go to bed like I’m a child he tells me to chill out cause I was laughing at some of the conversations I was having with my friends on my computer to the point that he came to see who I was talking to and demanding that I stop being happy and go to bed saying I would have to get up early when that was not true. When I told him that he began to hit me over and over again and yell at me for no reason like what I was doing was so terrible then he took my things away (my phone, computer, and pad and told me my things were not mine which was crazy I was so upset I was crying and couldn’t think straight as he kept demanding that I listen to him or he would hurt me again he kept forcing me to drink and telling me how much he doesn’t care about how I feel it was so disrespectful and disheartening but I made it through he will get his soon enough.

Why is it so hard

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I’m tired of trying to get him to understand who I am and what’s important to me. I never dreamed I would be with a person who only sees things from their own twisted point of view and tried to make that view be law always. I was raised to give without expecting anything in return but my partner give’s always expecting something in return with interest then wonder’s why no one loves him without conditions yeah I know it’s crazy but true. I can’t tell him anything without him making it seem as if I’m being unreasonable or unrealistic when it’s him who is taking things to a place they don’t need to go.

My frustration is overwhelming and I’m tired of trying to always be the good person when I’m being beat down by someone who can’t respect anything that we don’t agree on or that I don’t agree with him on I’m tired of the my way or high way method with him. He is not always right matter of fact half the time he is not right and I’m tired of being taken advantage of for keeping the peace while he continues to keep his narcissistic beliefs no matter how far fetched they are anyway I want better for my life this unhealthy unhappiness is for the birds!

I didn’t get the post yesterday

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Yesterday I had a long day I got up first thing in the morning thinking I was going to go and do my second donation at plasma and got disappointed because their system was down I waited there for over an hour to no avail it was very disappointing I ended up having to leave it would have been my high day which I was kind of looking forward to but since that didn’t happen I figured I’ll go and take care of some other business. I left there came home and all of a sudden I felt drained I wanted to rest for a while I knew a friend of mine was going to an event later on and I was excited to go with him to that event we had talked about it and it was going to be a nice event but when it came time he asked me what I was going to do and I said I’m going with you and he commenced to tell me that I wasn’t going with him I was going to have to drive myself there and meet him there that was another disappointment because I didn’t think it made sense for us to be leaving from the same house going to the same event but in different cars so I decided not to go.

I decided to stay home take a nice long bath and relax for the rest of the day I was a little frustrated by the turn of events of the day but I was willing to just let the day slide by and start a new the next day so as I was in the tub I got a text from another friend of mine who invited me out to chill with her and had I had went to that other event I wouldn’t have been here to get that call so I went out with her and had a wonderful time came back home in high spirits sat down had a drink and went to bed happy the day wasn’t a total bust after all woke up this morning and enjoyed my Sunday I hope you enjoyed your day too. Sometimes taking care of self and your own mental stability can change everything around you self care is very important I’m learning that everyday.

I also was able to talk to my daughter and grandson and see his cute little bubbly face that made my day too I love when I have these moments to enjoy little times with family it makes life seem not so lonely and I also love my job very much the kids I work with can be challenging but that makes it that much better because they keep my mind running and they keep me focused on what needs to be done and I enjoyed that a lot too anyway good night

A rough day

On By L Corelle GreenIn adventure, family, holiday season, making money, Relationships, self love, throwback Thursday, travel, weight loss journeyLeave a comment

I love what I do I love working with kids watching their minds grow but sometimes it can be tough they all have individualized personalities and want to be heard a lot of times all at the same time no matter how many times you might tell them raise your hand and wait your turn Johnny Joe is talking they still well yell out and let it be known what they have to say is of the utmost importance even if no one hears them because everybody is doing the exact same thing.

Today was one of those days and as I sit here thinking about it I chuckle a little bit because I know that it is just because they desire to feel important and be heard no matter how much is going on around them and that is the most important thing to them. As kids grow they are so involved in everything that sometimes we forget that they are still little and developing and learning as they move along through this thing called life and we have to take the time out to sit down and really listen for them to express whatever concerns they have that’s going on in their world.

That’s one of the reasons why I love what I do even if sometimes I leave out with my head pounding I still remember they are such a great part of my life to watch them grow and learn and explore the world around them and I am so grateful to be a part of it. Then I can try to remember the headache I was at their age and how my teacher was when she left going home after dealing with me on a day-to-day basis. Happy Thursday TBT.

I am always interested

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I love adventure and exploring the world around me I enjoy being happy and trying new things weather it be food, adventure parks, sight seeing, or meeting new people I am always interested in making life the best it can be.

I find myself looking for new avenues to build wealth and help people understand that everyone needs help every now and then. I am working really hard to get back in school and finish my degree up and move forward with my life of working with children giving them a love of learning. Starting at birth to 5 years.

I am excited to travel around the world and see how other countries teach and help their children grow into productive young men and women it’s a wonderful thing to see children grow and learn anyway happy Wednesday. What have you always been interested in let’s chat about it? Money, relationship, passion,sex, friendship, travel,men, women, what?

Saturday shenanigans

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I received 10 call’s this morning from 3am-6:45am from my child that I specifically told not to do something because timing was not right for it and things were not coming together for a reason and it would not be good for her to take this chance did she listen of course not.

She did it anyway and found out it was all a scam and was stuck there I’m really disappointed that she would do it but also okay with her learning this lesson the hard way. I told her God was trying to protect her from this but she was insistent on doing it her way so now look at the consequence of her choices. I’m sure she didn’t like that at all but I kept telling her she’s trying to fit a round circle into a square hole and it just doesn’t work that way.

What’s worst is she had my grandson with her on this crazy venture of uncertainty I know she’s head strong but sometimes you have to put other things first and this was one of those times I love her so much and truly appreciate her I hope she learned from this. Happy Saturday Peep’s