Tag: hurt

He’s Jealous of my past

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, narcissist, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

When I met my ex-husband I was in a very vulnerable state I was young and needed to feel appreciated and loved it was the simple things that mattered to me and he saw that and did what I needed at the time.

I had no idea he was just grooming me to be blinded to the dirt he was doing behind my back so yes I loved him unconditionally to the detriment of everything I loved or that matter to me in my life.

Fast-forward my new husband the libra ♎ is always probing for information whatever he can use against anyone at any given moment he kept asking me about my life with my ex and I explained a little bit about it and he went on and on talking about how I worked for my ex and how I like broke ni$_as even though that was not the case at all.

There were situations that my kids needed things and I definitely was not about to let them go without so I took a temporary job to satisfy the need at the time but he just kept going on and on about it saying I should work for him now I keep telling him the situation is not the same he is not him and my kids are grown. Then he’ll say I really loved that ni#$a. He wants that kind of love truth be told he has never treated me the way my ex did my feelings are not the same for him at all and more then likely never will be.

I am older wiser stronger and don’t want to love that way again especially with a man that can’t belong to me and only me. I have a lot to offer a mate and if he can’t give me something as simple as some of his time why would I give him my unconditional love I matter and to the right person I will mean the world to. He refuses to see that but still wants my best for him while he never sees his faults or what causes me my distress in him he will say I find things wrong that are not wrong. Happy Saturday y’all I will not let him mess with my mind period.

He says I’m a narcissist

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

I was having a conversation with husband last night and he told me I was a narcissist and that I think about myself always first it’s crazy. Because I always put other people first I have been told that to many times.

When I got with him his very first statement out of his mouth was he comes first he is always first place so from that point on I realized that (with him) I have to put myself first cause he will never look out for my best interest.

Then I find out he feels men need more then one women to be happy and that he feels this is biblical it’s crazy especially when he has never read the Bible. I was taught to follow the man that follows God how do I follow someone who is clearly the opposite of a godly man that will lead me to clearly to destruction do I ignore my morals and go with the flow or do I keep praying that he finds his way.

I know I’m not a narcissist and I definitely know he is and the way I am with him is a direct result of his treatment of me over time. I just hope he finds his way before it’s too late and he finds himself in a problem he can’t get out of. Anyway good morning guys have a wonderful Wednesday.

Tuesday WOW

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

I was almost hit by a van that ran a stop sign today. I had quick refluxes and turned my car so fast and drove forward to make sure there was room between me and that car. My heart almost jumped out my chest.

I don’t have many instances like that but this one made me think about how things can change in an instant I’m really glad I was not hurt for real. On a brighter note my niece Jordyn has a birthday today I hope she has a great day.

Happy Monday

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

Today is the first day of my workout I’m focused on my stomach area I’ve been working on my stomach area for years lol it has been the bane of my existence ever since my first C-section that pouch at the bottom of my stomach I have not been able to get rid of ever since then. My children are well grown now and I’m still working on getting rid of that couch I have thought about liposuction and taking fat burners eaten all kinds of healthy foods and steal that stomach is still sitting there I don’t know what else to try I even did the keto diet

I’m always the one trying to be as healthy as possible but nothing seems to work for me I think it has something to do with my thyroid problem and the fact that my knees are bad but I still keep trying. i’m always working at building myself up so that I can be here for the long-haul that’s important to me because I haven’t always wanted to be here for a long period of time there were some times when I was in a really dark place and I didn’t even want to live.

But I’m happy now that I’m doing better and feeling better and wanting more out of life even if it seems I’m not where I want to be I’m getting there and I’m working at getting better and that’s what’s important no matter what’s happening around me me being here is enough enjoy the rest of you guises day

Am I wrong

On By L Corelle GreenIn RelationshipsLeave a comment

I want to be with a man that is open and honest with me. Doesn’t beat around the bush and play games with my heart or my head. Is that to much to ask for in a relationship?

I am very open minded and willing to give my everything to the people I care about as long as I feel the same thing in return it’s hard to give when I feel like I’m not appreciated or whatever I do falls on deaf ears.

I know relationships are give an take but what happens when you’re always giving and the other person minimizes what you give and makes it seem as if what they give is more significant than what you do? Even when what you do is really their responsibility and you take up the slack for them in every way possible when is enough enough?

Does Truth really matter

On By L Corelle GreenIn RelationshipsLeave a comment

I was in a a relationship for over 10 years with a man I loved and hated all at the same time. I would often pray back then that God would either let him die first or end of in jail forever just so I could be free from him cause I was afraid of him but I also felt indebted to him as well. He was mentally and emotionally and physically sexually abusive not just to me but to our children I was so used to being used that I never even saw the person that he was until it was too late and I was back being that little girl who was used to being treated poorly with no way out.

I came to him with no self-esteem looking any old kind of way like a tomboy and he showed me how to drive, pay bills, get my own place, and care for my own life then he used all that to break me completely to the point where I was ready to end my own life after finding out he used my love for him to blind me to what he was doing to my children. But it is a true statement what is done ✅ in the dark will always come to the light 💡 so I guess that’s why he is in prison forever.

Which brings me to the question at hand ✍️ does truth really matter when I got with my now partner I had only one ☝️ criteria I didn’t care if he made mistakes just tell me the truth. I believe if someone has certain feelings or beliefs I should have the choice if I want to be apart of that or not don’t lie to me or about me to someone else and not let me in on this and expect me to go along with the story you told.

I am open to a poly relationship but not if me of the other person female/s don’t know about each other it’s (to me) not healthy or safe and most of all it’s not balanced no matter how people try to make it seem like it’s a great thing quality time is supposed to mean something not just words. It takes work to make a relationship succeed and the more people in that relationship the more work the dominant person which is supposed to be the man has to put in if it’s that kind of relationship. I always want to feel apart weather it be myself a woman and a man, myself and a woman or myself and a man I need to feel connected always. So tell me does the truth make relationships better or worse?