I was up late last night trying to find new friends and enjoy my night when my husband begins to tell me to go to bed like I’m a child he tells me to chill out cause I was laughing at some of the conversations I was having with my friends on my computer to the point that he came to see who I was talking to and demanding that I stop being happy and go to bed saying I would have to get up early when that was not true. When I told him that he began to hit me over and over again and yell at me for no reason like what I was doing was so terrible then he took my things away (my phone, computer, and pad and told me my things were not mine which was crazy I was so upset I was crying and couldn’t think straight as he kept demanding that I listen to him or he would hurt me again he kept forcing me to drink and telling me how much he doesn’t care about how I feel it was so disrespectful and disheartening but I made it through he will get his soon enough.
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Happy New Year
Today is January 1st 2021 I finally came up with my New Year’s resolutions this year is a year of completion I’m going to work at completing a lot of my goals this year I started them last year but this year it is my goal to complete them. I am excited to live my best life and do the things that will bring joy happiness and excitement to my life and those that I love around me.
Always feel like everyday is a new beginning a chance to start over and accomplish things that I didn’t accomplish the day before but this time I’m not only will accomplish those things I will add on to them and not give up anyway happy New Year here’s to a year of accomplishing goals finishing task and having fun while doing it.
Happy New Year Eve
Tomorrow starts 2022 and this year has been a year of change so many things have happened so many differences so many things that we will never forget and will never understand. I am for one happy that we have made it through another year. This is why I decided to post on the last day of the year so many changes have happened I am very excited to see how the next year will progress and how everyone will change and adapt with everything that has happened over the last 2 years.
I became a grandmother this year I got married this year I started a new job I’ve lost an abundance of weight and became more active and I’m still on a weight loss journey, and I realized I want more out of life this year so I will see how next year will add on to better things and build more on top of what has happened this year happy New Year’s Eve everyone I will see you in the new year
Why is it so hard
I’m tired of trying to get him to understand who I am and what’s important to me. I never dreamed I would be with a person who only sees things from their own twisted point of view and tried to make that view be law always. I was raised to give without expecting anything in return but my partner give’s always expecting something in return with interest then wonder’s why no one loves him without conditions yeah I know it’s crazy but true. I can’t tell him anything without him making it seem as if I’m being unreasonable or unrealistic when it’s him who is taking things to a place they don’t need to go.
My frustration is overwhelming and I’m tired of trying to always be the good person when I’m being beat down by someone who can’t respect anything that we don’t agree on or that I don’t agree with him on I’m tired of the my way or high way method with him. He is not always right matter of fact half the time he is not right and I’m tired of being taken advantage of for keeping the peace while he continues to keep his narcissistic beliefs no matter how far fetched they are anyway I want better for my life this unhealthy unhappiness is for the birds!
Feeling under the weather
Over the last few days I’ve been feeling under the weather. Because the boy I keep from time to time I tell him all the time to cover his mouth when he sneezes and I take my vitamins and try to make sure I keep myself healthy as possible but it’s hard when someone doesn’t take accountability for what they’re doing around you. I also work in the schools and a lot of times the kids have runny noses coughs and all kinds of unsavory health issues that they don’t want to take care of. These things over time can affect everyone’s health around them. The last time I was in the school there was a child who was really sick this child began to throw up and was just not feeling the best at all. I really felt bad for the child it’s hard to not feel good and to have to deal with it. One good thing that came out of today was I got to talk to my daughter and my cute as a button grandson who kept talking and giggling to me in his baby language that was a highlight of my day other than talking to my husband who is always full of unconventional knowledge and different aspects of life sometimes hard to take in
Anyway I have been having a headache a runny nose and my stomach has been bothering me for the last couple of days and I’ve been trying to work through it but I’m still not feeling the best I’m hoping that I will get better soon. Because feeling sick is the worst thing in the world to me. I’m hoping to feel better so I can work tomorrow I don’t want to be sick at work anyway, I hope you all are having a wonderful day or at least the better day than me happy Monday.
A dream come true
I believe in manifesting what you want and putting things out there believing that they are going to happen and my manifestation has come to reality on so many occasions over the last few years it’s almost scary but expected one thing I’ve learned is to not ever second-guess what I believe and how I know things will work out because the smallest bit of doubt is like a wildfire to a dream or a manifestation it causes things to go in the wrong direction.
When I put things that I desire out I believe that whatever it is is going to happen and that I’m going to see it in this life I’ve done a few things and I’ve seen it with my own eyes to know that it is real and true and it happens for me because of that I stick with the knowledge that I know and have even if sometimes the manifestation takes longer to come about or the situation warrants more action on my part I sift through what it is that I need to do and step back after I’ve done that and watch everything come together I guess it’s the process of getting out of my own way so that my blessings can come to me.
I’ve been doing this for about 3 years now because in the past I felt powerless and unable to control the things that happened around me to me and because of me so I wanted to take my power back and that took courage and strong believe but it worked and now I’m on the right path to do the right thing and make things happen the way that I envision I see and I am capable of working to get them done. Happy Monday week of Thanksgiving I will be talking about the things I am thankful for this week I hope you have things that you’re thankful for as well till tomorrow.
Saturday November 20th
Today is my day to get out and handle business enjoy life and have fun in any way that I can I hope that you are doing the same life is too short to not enjoy it I think I’m going to work out and find something to cook and prepare for the week to come since Thanksgiving is next week I’m very excited about that because I love the holiday season I miss the family time and all of the shenanigans that go on with it maybe this year will be better then years past happy holidays but I also will be watching what I eat because I’m still on this weight loss journey
I am always interested
I love adventure and exploring the world around me I enjoy being happy and trying new things weather it be food, adventure parks, sight seeing, or meeting new people I am always interested in making life the best it can be.
I find myself looking for new avenues to build wealth and help people understand that everyone needs help every now and then. I am working really hard to get back in school and finish my degree up and move forward with my life of working with children giving them a love of learning. Starting at birth to 5 years.
I am excited to travel around the world and see how other countries teach and help their children grow into productive young men and women it’s a wonderful thing to see children grow and learn anyway happy Wednesday. What have you always been interested in let’s chat about it? Money, relationship, passion,sex, friendship, travel,men, women, what?
Happy Friday
Today was a good day I got out there’s some things I needed to do and enjoyed my day I hope all of you enjoy your day as well celebrate the people you love because tomorrow is not promised life is too short so live it to the fullest and enjoy every moment of it love those around you I love yourself always remember put what’s important first and the rest will fall into place have a great night.
A New Career Now
I’m starting a new career it has never really been a difficult for me to find work because of my optimism in my ability to see the positive side of things. I have always been able to foresee something put action to it and make it happen but here lately I was waiting on something to come about that happened taken an enormous amount of time to materialize to the point where I was calling for something and it wasn’t happening.
I am worried but also excited at the same time because it seems as if this is the path I’m supposed to take because of the changes that I want to happen that have been in my face so now I am putting my best foot forward and moving toward what needs to be done in order for me to have the life I seek. I will be starting a new career tomorrow and working really hard at it to get things in order so that I can have the life I desire.
Once I go down this path there is no turning back that’s the part that scares me because I have a myriad of problems that can pop up at any time but I’m willing to do it in order to generate what I need to generate. Happy Sunday!
The struggle is now not forever 