My daughter, my daughter, my daughter

I’ve always related to my youngest daughter and the most because she was the one I was closest to out of all of my kids. She was the one that had my face, and she was the one that when she was born my sister had already claimed my other two kids so tell me I had to keep her with me at all times so I always felt this close to her. She was my last child, my baby, the child that was born out of love because I was in love with her father when she was conceived I never dreamed that she would be the one to give me the most heartache or would be the one who would be the biggest liar out of all my kids even though my middle daughter, cosmic pain I never thought that my last daughter would be the one to make me one in my life. I would’ve done anything for her no matter the cost no matter what was going on in my life if I thought that she was in danger or anything was happening, I would’ve moved Heaven and earth for her I didn’t care what it cost me or if I had to lose everything I would do anything to make sure that she was OK. I know you shouldn’t have favorite kids, but she was the one who always had my back and who it felt like she had my back I never dream that she would let a dirtbag guy come in between her and me the reason I call him a dirtbag is because he’s abusive. He’s a cheat and he is a liar. I can’t blame her for the choices that she made because this is the example that I gave her so I should by myself but at some point, we have to take accountability for our actions so let me get down to the situation at hand my daughter have been homeless for sometime now, and she has two small children by two different men. The older son is by another abusive guy who put a gun to her head and the second child is by the most recent dirtbag who tried to throw over a balcony when she came out to California. It was because I was out here and where I am. She knows she always has to open door but she has this entitlement attitude about her She doesn’t like to. Do what’s right she feels like the world owes her something so so she doesn’t like to give anything toward anything whether she lives there with you or not and if you ask her to give towards the house where most people will say you can’t live anywhere for free she gets an attitude, unless it involves her activities such as her bud habit. Should do anything for our kids. I will give her that, but she had nothing to give them so the little bit of money that I had I spent on them she didn’t appreciate that either. She got this real big attitude because I didn’t want her to take my grandkids back over there to the abusive relationship that she Refused to let go of. She tries to claim that I tried to kidnap her kids when we all stayed in the same place and then she lied on the Internet about me claiming that I wanted her to have a baby for me which is disgusting. I never dreamed that the daughter I gave birth to would turn out to be an entitled spoiled brat. I know I have my flaws and I’m definitely not perfect but one thing I am not is sick in the head. I take my medicine every day and I live with the problems that I have. I’m so disappointed that she would buy me to get sympathy on the Internet. Just try to garner sympathy is no good reason to do these types of things I don’t want anything but the best for her I wouldn’t ever kidnap my grandkids even though she’s not stable and is unable to have a place for them to live right now so they’re staying with their other grandmother I still wouldn’t take them from her because that gives her a reason to continue to try to do better I just don’t know what to do because I don’t deserve that she deserves so much better in life but if she’s the kind of person, I just won’t accept help Even when it’s opera continuously I don’t know what else to do. I pray that she will one day find herself and get the help that she needs meanwhile, may the Lord keep her safe these are the things that I pray for all the time while she still bites with this man fist fights let her safety be first and everything else after that.

My my grandbabies keep them safe, protect them from hurt harm or danger

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I don’t understand

My daughter is going through a rough patch right now and I have been very concerned about her for months I had finally gotten her and my grandsons (1&3) out here where she could finally get on her feet and not have to worry about babysitting and homelessness just working building her money up and getting on her feet.

But unbeknownst to me she was still dealing with her abusive ex-baby daddy who got her homeless in the first place tried to kill her 3 different times and is her drug dealer. So at the last minute after I got her (me and other family members) all set up with clothes baby items and was working on getting her a place to live she decided to send the kids back to Texas.

Then sprung on me she was going too but the thing is she has no where to live there plus she has evictions because of the tumultuous relationship with this ex so I told her it didn’t make any sense to live on the streets over there just to be near a guy who told you to your face he hates you. But now she has stopped talking to me.

I don’t take back anything that I said because he doesn’t mean her any good and I got all my information from her it’s crazy what drugs will make you do I just pray he doesn’t hurt her cause I will end up in prison frfr!!!

Please keep my daughter and grandsons in your thoughts and prayers cause they need to be protected back here in California asap

Christmas is my favorite holiday

What is your favorite holiday? Why is it your favorite?

I love the camaraderie, the love and the joy of Christmas. I love the movie watching the celebratory Ness of the season. I love how people act around the season. I enjoy the food around the season. I love how everyone is happier and have a smile on their face is more Enlighten and have more peace in their hearts around the season. I love that families come together for the season and how the kids celebrate. I love the stories that are told around this seasons and how everything is remembered around this season I love that there is so much giving around this season And the fact that there’s so much growth around the season so Christmas is my favorite season around the year

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If I could, it would be

If you had the power to change one law, what would it be and why?

If I could change one law, it would be the law dealing with weed use I would be for the recreational use of it because it takes away pain. It helps with mental health and it’s a plant that comes out of the ground so I will be completely for it for the recreational use because it’s not like all the other so-called drugs that would take your life. It doesn’t do anything like that and it can be used in so many different ways that, it helps with your mental health and with your pain and these things are essential for daily life so that’s what I would be willing to change a lot for. Especially since it doesn’t have to be smoked it can be used in other ways and it calms you a lot I’ve always been into the feeling part of things, and this one is explained and can make life easier. Specially, when you’re dealing with chronic pain all the time..

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Use the toilet

If you could make your pet understand one thing, what would it be?

If I could make my pet understand, one thing, it would be to go to the bathroom and use the toilet so that there would be no mass to clean up and it would be a easier relief for me too. Have to clean up behind the dog. That is such a relief, when you don’t have to go to the bathroom outside all the time to help the dog, go to the bathroom specially, when you have bad knees, that would be a great help to teach the dogs to go to bathroom on the toilet.

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With my daughter

Can you share a positive example of where you’ve felt loved?

There has been times when I felt completely alone and isolated my I have no meaning and no worth in life and then out of the blue. My daughter would call me up and ask me for advice or send me something I wasn’t expecting give me a gift for my birthday or just let me know that something I said came to her mind and helped her through a time that she didn’t know what else to do during these moments I have always felt like I was completely loved and my guy was worth 1 million bucks there is something about being needed and being Felt like you’re worthwhile. I always feel that way with my youngest daughter. I always feel loved and like something I did was worthwhile when she comes to me and lets me know that something I said or did helped her in someway. This is the things that make me feel loved. I also feel loved when my mom tells me that I am special and I am going to do big things and she’s proud of me, she’s my biggest fan. She’s also my hero.

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Text, voice talk, & video chat plus emoji’s

In what ways do you communicate online?

There are so many ways to communicate online by my favorites by far are through talking texting video chatting and the use of emojis these are the ways I can express myself the most passionate and let it be known how I’m feeling at the same time I love showing the other person how excited I am about the progress something is making or how sad I am that something hurt them or made someone feel a certain way when I am doing a video chat I love to make sure that they understand that I am in it with them and I am expressing that the goal that they had whether it went through or not I am feeling it with them and I am just as excited to accomplish it as they are or am put off with it that they did not get it done as quickly as they would like to as they are as well communicating it so important getting it out the right way is always key.

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Create a whole village of children

Come up with a crazy business idea.

Create a whole village of children who can grow up in peace, teaching them how to sustain themselves without outside, influence living off the land for at least two years, just using each other’s knowledge from trading within in order to keep everything flowing from one area to another, without using modern technology and see how they are able to come up with new solutions And funny games in order to occupy themselves with adult supervision, but see how well they do only giving little hints and ideas as the crusade goes on those who progress and come up with the best ideas can move on to come out with more advanced ideas those who can’t Have to stay in the level that they’re in until they are able to work with their own mind and become inventive. That sounds about crazy enough.

Let think it was my:

Describe an item you were incredibly attached to as a youth. What became of it?

Piggyback I have always been into saving money as a child growing up I was never a bank enthusiast. I always felt like they take advantage of your money and find reasons to take it from you, so I always felt like I had to keep money in different places all the time in order to, save and have a stash for emergencies. My piggy bank was a prize possession to me because I could not only save money. I could also see how I was going about putting money aside and envision what I would do with that money after I filled up my piggy bank, and that made me so happy what happened to that when my house burned down, my piggy bank burned with it, so I found other ways to do the same thing. Never had quite the same piggy bank again, but had other kinds of banks and safes ever cents some fireproof water, resistant, and other ways to stash money still do that to this day.

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My relationship with:

What relationships have a positive impact on you?

The best relationship that has the most impactful residence with me is the one with my mom. She always has positive words to impress on me about who I am what I can do, and the kind of person that should impact on my life. The next relationship is the one with my daughter, the youngest of my three children even though she is headstrong and very resourceful she still has a good head on her shoulders, and is always able to take in good advice, even if she still goes her own way, she listens and hears, so that when things become too obstinate in her world, she realize and draws back on things that she heard that she can draw from and use in order to enhance her life. The third relationship that impacts my life the best is those of my two best friends, they give good advice, and they always have a listening ear, in order to encourage me and construct me in a useful way to help me along the way they also give good advice, even though I have many avenues to go down, and many people who are always great assets to my life. These are the most memorable ones to me at this point in my life and to whom I would gladly lean on if there was any need to depend on anyone, my reconstructed family outside of my nuclear family.

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