I have been struggling the last few days hating the thought of living with regret I moved from New Jersey when I was younger almost 12 and at that time I was really afraid that I (we) would never see our family that I loved so dearly back there and I would have nightmares about it for years cause I thought I would forget them I never went back out there for many many years. Lost so many loved ones over the past 25 years it’s crazy I don’t want to miss any more time with my family I want an am making plans to see y’all at least 3 times a year. I want my grandkids to meet all of you while they are little so that they can grow up loving their family I voted and I’m starting a new diet regimen let y’all know what comes of it
Tag: kids
This was the bus
I got on the bus this morning and in the front seat where the people with disabilities is supposed to be able to see it were a bunch of teenagers sitting there looking at me giggling and then playing with their phones I looked at them and then I looked at the bus driver they were Hispanic that didn’t matter it was the fact that they saw that I didn’t have the balance that I had a cane and that those feet were obviously for people like me and they didn’t move so I looked at the bus driver she begins to speak in Spanish telling everyone to move back I really couldn’t understand her too well but I caught a little glimpses of what she was saying because I’m rudimentary in Spanish I feel a little dismayed by the whole thing because the driver is supposed to get up and empty those seats when she sees or he and people are not moving I shouldn’t of had to stand that hallway falling all over the place when those seats are there specifically for people like me it was really upsetting.
My Birthday today 09/09
Today I turned 47 and I am very proud of that I had a very good day I woke up this morning to a delightfully wonderful cup of coffee that my sister made me she makes the best coffee I will say that it is always the right amount of sweetness and has this wonderful flavor that goes right along with it simply delicious next I wanted to get out for a while so I got on the bus and rolled around to the store to get some stuff for my favorite meal but to my surprise when I got back to the house I had some food waiting for me a delicious chicken meal with french fries and a soda. This made my day throughout the day I got all of the wonderful phone calls from all of my favorite people and then my sister made my favorite meal spaghetti which was the best in to my day I was going to go out but it decided to rain so I took a rain check on that I heard from everyone I needed to hear from and I am happy about that. I absolutely love my family and friends good night you guys happy birthday to me!
Going to California
I’m going home in a few weeks I haven’t been back there in 5 years and I’m excited to go it’s one of those things where I know I’m going to be around people like me and I will have time to feel like myself and have people who love me for me and the excitement is overwhelming. While at the same time I feel a sadness that I’m leaving my stuff here with someone who doesn’t cherish the things that I cherish not knowing if the things that I love will be here when I get back because of his arrogance and I don’t care attitude even though I know I wouldn’t do that to him he would do that to me and I feel angry and scared all at the same time because these are the things that I didn’t want to lose that I’ve taken with me everywhere that I went. I am very happy to be going around people that celebrate each other where I won’t have to see another birthday alone this year and I will be able to visit friends who like having people over just so many things to do that make life worthwhile I can’t wait to go most of all to get away from here and be in a good happy environment for once without someone who is pessimistic about everything and never has a kind word to say about anyone especially women because he’s bitter and narcissistic on the Covert side due to lack of nurturing I no longer take the blame for that or even care life is to short to live unhappy with someone who is supposed to love me but puts me last at every turn I’m worth more than green that’s just my name anyway happy Juneteenth
First day of spring break
What I plan to do for spring break is organize plan and make new provisions for this house and hang out with friends it will be a relaxing time for me and a time to replenish rethink and re-strategize while thinking of new ways to make money I have a few things in the works but I’m going to continue to look for new ways to add to those things to bring in new streams of income. While still working on my weight and working on my house. 
This rain is relentless it makes the day seem really dreary but it is much needed I just hate having to go out in it because it’s so uncomfortable and I have to jump in the shower a lot in order to keep myself calm and comfortable it’s a real pain happy Friday everyone.
Late night hour
Most nights I don’t sleep I stay up and think and clean when I’m not working I do a lot of soul-searching and trying to figure out how I can get my passion out in the world because I love working with small children my dream is to have little children learning as much as they can before their brains become concrete and they are no longer able to absorb masses of information at an early age which will give them a love for learning for a lifetime. I have always watched from the time my children were little them absorb information so quickly and be in all by how they saw the world and so excited with them and for them to see everything that I had saw through fresh eyes.
When I look at children I know that they are the next great in this world and with the right nourishment and guidance they will become a memorable part of this society and this is why I try to work as hard as I can to encourage that growth and make them be the best that they can be I’m so proud of my own children and the children that I work with even though sometimes they can be difficult and give me a hard timeWhen I look at children I know that they are the next great in this world and with the right nourishment and guidance they will become a memorable part of this society and this is why I try to work as hard as I can to encourage that growth and make them be the best that they can be I’m so proud of my own children and the children that I work with even though sometimes they can be difficult and give me a hard time
I listen to Steve Harvey in the morning when I have time and he always gives the right motivational speech to say if you’re doing something that you love it never feels like a job and that is so true because when I’m working with kids it never feels like a drag or something that I hate doing I really love seeing their faces the joy in their eyes even when they roll their eyes because they see they’re gonna have to do some work with me it’s stillI listen to Steve Harvey in the morning when I have time and he always gives the right motivational speech to say if you’re doing something that you love it never feels like a job and that is so true because when I’m working with kids it never feels like a drag or something that I hate doing I really love seeing their faces the joy in their eyes even when they roll their eyes because they see they’re gonna have to do some work with me it’s still brings me peace in knowing that they will know something more when they leave my classroom and they will have a little bit more respect for themselves and their classmates as well as me for trying to help them be better at whatever it is they need to know. We’re going into spring break and I’m going to use this time to reflect on how I can help them better during this next period of time when I’ll be working with them. Happy break everyone I will be keeping up with my diet while on spring break I have lost even more weight over this time and I am not giving up this is my goal for the year and I will not stop until I reach my goal
Valentines Day love
Today I got love from a complete stranger she gave me a box of candy one of my students it was a sweet gesture and I really appreciate it I was surprised and delighted all at the same time
My husband got me flowers and I bought him a valentine box of fireball I didn’t think he was going to get me anything because he has this philosophy if he pays all the bills that’s a gift in itself I explain to him why if you have someone who’s there for you loves you and does special things for you why that is not a gift and there’s nothing wrong with doing something special for someoneMy husband got me flowers and I bought him a valentine box of fireball I didn’t think he was going to get me anything because he has this philosophy if he pays all the bills that’s a gift in itself I explain to him why if you have someone who’s there for you loves you and does special things for you why that is not a gift and there’s nothing wrong with doing something special for someone you love this is why I was really surprised when he got me flowers but I’m also grateful happy Valentine’s Day everyone
A hard day but good one
Today when I got to where I was going for work I ended up changing classrooms today and even though I ended up working with the same students that I worked with a couple days ago I still had to raise my voice a few times because it’s like a natural instinct for kids to be more rambunctious with a substitute teacher I’ve noticed that pattern because kids seem to think that because you’re subbing for them they can do whatever they want because you’re there for a limited time but one thing I think these students learned for the last few days is that if you want someone to give you time and attention you need to give them that respect of quietness when they are dealing with you so today and then on a good note and I feel more confident about it anyway happy throwback Thursday I’m still on my way lost journey and I believe I’m doing pretty good at it right now so I will continue to work towards my goal of dropping this hundred pounds over the next 9 months
Today was a hard day
I started out this day so tired that I even woke up late I still made it to work on time but I felt rushed and out of sync because of the last couple of days I like the making my own schedule because it gives my body time to rest and we cooperate from all the walking and moving and mental strain of being in the work world so I came on here and to say this always put your help and well-being first because jobs come and go the human being doing the job does not happy Wednesday
Make some changes
Back on my grind today and I’m happy about it I set some goals that I plan on achieving this year as far as my finances go as far as my weight goes and as far as my personal life goals so this year I am putting my best foot forward I’m moving into this year in a path that will show results and I’m very excited about that happy Tuesday I hope that all of you who have set goals and a purpose to fulfill does fulfill that goal plus some because I plan on doing that in my own life for the rest of my life. When it comes to my family myself my work my relationships and my life expectancy all of these matter to me a lot and I will not stop until I accomplish every single thing that I have set out to accomplish.
The struggle is now not forever 