My daughter, my daughter, my daughter

I’ve always related to my youngest daughter and the most because she was the one I was closest to out of all of my kids. She was the one that had my face, and she was the one that when she was born my sister had already claimed my other two kids so tell me I had to keep her with me at all times so I always felt this close to her. She was my last child, my baby, the child that was born out of love because I was in love with her father when she was conceived I never dreamed that she would be the one to give me the most heartache or would be the one who would be the biggest liar out of all my kids even though my middle daughter, cosmic pain I never thought that my last daughter would be the one to make me one in my life. I would’ve done anything for her no matter the cost no matter what was going on in my life if I thought that she was in danger or anything was happening, I would’ve moved Heaven and earth for her I didn’t care what it cost me or if I had to lose everything I would do anything to make sure that she was OK. I know you shouldn’t have favorite kids, but she was the one who always had my back and who it felt like she had my back I never dream that she would let a dirtbag guy come in between her and me the reason I call him a dirtbag is because he’s abusive. He’s a cheat and he is a liar. I can’t blame her for the choices that she made because this is the example that I gave her so I should by myself but at some point, we have to take accountability for our actions so let me get down to the situation at hand my daughter have been homeless for sometime now, and she has two small children by two different men. The older son is by another abusive guy who put a gun to her head and the second child is by the most recent dirtbag who tried to throw over a balcony when she came out to California. It was because I was out here and where I am. She knows she always has to open door but she has this entitlement attitude about her She doesn’t like to. Do what’s right she feels like the world owes her something so so she doesn’t like to give anything toward anything whether she lives there with you or not and if you ask her to give towards the house where most people will say you can’t live anywhere for free she gets an attitude, unless it involves her activities such as her bud habit. Should do anything for our kids. I will give her that, but she had nothing to give them so the little bit of money that I had I spent on them she didn’t appreciate that either. She got this real big attitude because I didn’t want her to take my grandkids back over there to the abusive relationship that she Refused to let go of. She tries to claim that I tried to kidnap her kids when we all stayed in the same place and then she lied on the Internet about me claiming that I wanted her to have a baby for me which is disgusting. I never dreamed that the daughter I gave birth to would turn out to be an entitled spoiled brat. I know I have my flaws and I’m definitely not perfect but one thing I am not is sick in the head. I take my medicine every day and I live with the problems that I have. I’m so disappointed that she would buy me to get sympathy on the Internet. Just try to garner sympathy is no good reason to do these types of things I don’t want anything but the best for her I wouldn’t ever kidnap my grandkids even though she’s not stable and is unable to have a place for them to live right now so they’re staying with their other grandmother I still wouldn’t take them from her because that gives her a reason to continue to try to do better I just don’t know what to do because I don’t deserve that she deserves so much better in life but if she’s the kind of person, I just won’t accept help Even when it’s opera continuously I don’t know what else to do. I pray that she will one day find herself and get the help that she needs meanwhile, may the Lord keep her safe these are the things that I pray for all the time while she still bites with this man fist fights let her safety be first and everything else after that.

My my grandbabies keep them safe, protect them from hurt harm or danger

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My Mother’s Day

I got up early to make sure I made it to church with my mom I got her some of her favorite stuff and a adventurous book to learn more about her life and things that she had never thought about before because one day I would love to pass on her knowledge to my kids and grandchildren something I was not able to do with my grandmom.

Church was ok except for the fact that they didn’t celebrate mom’s they celebrated women and in doing that they didn’t have enough of the celebratory stuff for all the moms cause they gave everyone even girls (not moms) the gift so I gave mine to my mom so she wouldn’t be without one since they ran out before getting to her.

After church we went to my sisters house to chill for Mother’s Day and my sister got me the best gift she got me a personalized blanket made for me with really special words and photo on it she made me cry I got her a meal plan book so she can write her meals out for the week since she loves to eat healthy

We watched a movie together all 3 of us that was really nice I love our time together after that me and my mom left and I got her something to eat then we came home our day was pretty good I hope yours was too

Happy Mother’s Day 2025

Mother’s Day’s 2025

Moved out of state

Describe a risk you took that you do not regret.

I picked up and moved to start a new chapter in my life. I don’t regret that I regret what happened when I got there, but I don’t regret moving. They have venture was wonderful. The experience was eye-opening and I learned a lot about different states and how they operate and let me know that a lot of things that happen in different places are not like home so it also gave me different perspectives on how people are when they grow up in certain environments and with certain aspects of life when they are influenced by a certain atmosphere all of their lives, knowing that lets me know Where I would not want to live ever again and where the people are, that are not my kind of people.  For example Florida is one of the most toxic states I’ve ever lived in. They are not the moral high ground, and they are very explicit in the way they live there. They don’t believe in being faithful and most of the men there do not respect the women they have in their lives as well as the women are the same way as the man compared to California or New Jersey. I won’t even mention Texas because that would take 100 more pages. 

I feel broken

I lived my life for my children. I wanted them to have the life that I didn’t get to have growing up. I was looking for something that I wasn’t able to get. I ended up failing all the way around I sometimes wonder was any of it worth it? I lost everything. I continue to lose the more I live. I wonder why I’m still alive now. I cry every day. I have this immense sense of brokenness and sadness because all I wanted was a life filled with love and happiness, and all I got was pain and sadness. I wear a smile on my face but inside 90% of the time I wish I was dead. 

God has always been there

God is so good he has done so much for me even though I gave up on Him at one point in my life I remember Him so well here is a story about His protection over me and my family: I was living in Long Beach California and my family had to move and had not found another place to live I told God what am I going to do I had the money just not the place and God said nothing. So I went with my kids to a hotel but now my money was running out. I said God I know you got me what am I to do (this came from being taught all my life God takes care of His own) I went down to catholic  charities and they didn’t have anything I went back to the hotel the very day I ran out of money I said God it’s all on you this is it and that very day all doors open and every door after that was nothing but Him. Even though I may not always agree with what or the way God does stuff He always makes me move the way I’m supposed to move God is good!!

My birthday is coming up

I love it when my birthday is coming around. It’s my national holiday. My birthday is Monday, September 9th I love to celebrate it. It brings out the best side of me. It makes me so excited and giddy like a little girl. I love the celebration of it. We come together to love on each other and celebrate each other, realizing the miracle of another year that we’ve been blessed to have these last few years have been difficult because I’m with someone who doesn’t celebrate me but I’m done with that moving onto a better life. Life is too short to not live it the way you want to and enjoy it the best way you know how I am a traditionalist and I love the happiness of being happy and celebrating life the way that I enjoy celebrating it so Monday is my birthday and if you would like to celebrate it with me, you’re welcome to send me a gift $peaches1821 is my cashapp thank you so much

Happy birthday to me

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Making homemade bread

What’s your favorite recipe?

A recipe pass down from my grandmother to my mom to me homemade bread I love making it for the holidays sharing it with family and cooking it with those. I love It is a wonderful family tradition, and something that I cherish doing every year around the holidays always wonderful.

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Being there

What’s your definition of romantic?

The definition of romantic is being there, taking part in someone’s life, enjoying the finer things and loving on each other like no one else is there romanticism is not just an act. It’s a feeling that takes the place of exertion. It’s time consuming and it’s wonderful all at the same time, you can go wrong when you find someone who is romantic with you because they want the best for you and you want to experience the best with them. I love being romantic gives a feeling of security and a feeling of love are you romantic?

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It means

What does freedom mean to you?

Being able to speak as I wish do as I please, and not feel guilty. It means being able to help others with without feeling as if I’ve done something wrong. It means being there for my friends and their time of need freedom is the basis of life, but freedom also means not being free For so many of people that I know it takes so much bondage to be free. You can’t say what you think. You can’t do what you feel. You can’t literally speak your mind. You have to bite your tongue a lot to keep your freedoms freedom to me means being free to say and do what it is that makes you feel the happiest the most enlightened, and the most joy out of life, I wish freedom was free because I would practice it so much more I wish freedom didn’t come at a cost because I would tell all of my friends and family to live free to live each day as if it were their lies because freedom has so many privileges that a lot of us aren’t able to Absorb one day we will all be free. How free are you?

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Christmas is my favorite holiday

What is your favorite holiday? Why is it your favorite?

I love the camaraderie, the love and the joy of Christmas. I love the movie watching the celebratory Ness of the season. I love how people act around the season. I enjoy the food around the season. I love how everyone is happier and have a smile on their face is more Enlighten and have more peace in their hearts around the season. I love that families come together for the season and how the kids celebrate. I love the stories that are told around this seasons and how everything is remembered around this season I love that there is so much giving around this season And the fact that there’s so much growth around the season so Christmas is my favorite season around the year

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