A dream come true

I believe in manifesting what you want and putting things out there believing that they are going to happen and my manifestation has come to reality on so many occasions over the last few years it’s almost scary but expected one thing I’ve learned is to not ever second-guess what I believe and how I know things will work out because the smallest bit of doubt is like a wildfire to a dream or a manifestation it causes things to go in the wrong direction.

When I put things that I desire out I believe that whatever it is is going to happen and that I’m going to see it in this life I’ve done a few things and I’ve seen it with my own eyes to know that it is real and true and it happens for me because of that I stick with the knowledge that I know and have even if sometimes the manifestation takes longer to come about or the situation warrants more action on my part I sift through what it is that I need to do and step back after I’ve done that and watch everything come together I guess it’s the process of getting out of my own way so that my blessings can come to me.

I’ve been doing this for about 3 years now because in the past I felt powerless and unable to control the things that happened around me to me and because of me so I wanted to take my power back and that took courage and strong believe but it worked and now I’m on the right path to do the right thing and make things happen the way that I envision I see and I am capable of working to get them done. Happy Monday week of Thanksgiving I will be talking about the things I am thankful for this week I hope you have things that you’re thankful for as well till tomorrow.

Saturday November 20th

Today is my day to get out and handle business enjoy life and have fun in any way that I can I hope that you are doing the same life is too short to not enjoy it I think I’m going to work out and find something to cook and prepare for the week to come since Thanksgiving is next week I’m very excited about that because I love the holiday season I miss the family time and all of the shenanigans that go on with it maybe this year will be better then years past happy holidays but I also will be watching what I eat because I’m still on this weight loss journey

I am always interested

I love adventure and exploring the world around me I enjoy being happy and trying new things weather it be food, adventure parks, sight seeing, or meeting new people I am always interested in making life the best it can be.

I find myself looking for new avenues to build wealth and help people understand that everyone needs help every now and then. I am working really hard to get back in school and finish my degree up and move forward with my life of working with children giving them a love of learning. Starting at birth to 5 years.

I am excited to travel around the world and see how other countries teach and help their children grow into productive young men and women it’s a wonderful thing to see children grow and learn anyway happy Wednesday. What have you always been interested in let’s chat about it? Money, relationship, passion,sex, friendship, travel,men, women, what?

Happy Friday

Today was a good day I got out there’s some things I needed to do and enjoyed my day I hope all of you enjoy your day as well celebrate the people you love because tomorrow is not promised life is too short so live it to the fullest and enjoy every moment of it love those around you I love yourself always remember put what’s important first and the rest will fall into place have a great night.

Happy veterans Day

My brother Ben Junior is a veteran and my niece La’Keha is a veteran as well I am very proud of the two of them they served this country well I remember when my brother joined he was right out of high school and was leaving to boot camp my family and I went down to watch him graduate it was a proud day to see him he looks so handsome and we were so happy to be there we always supported each other when we did something great no matter how small.

When he went to Iraq it was a scary time for us didn’t know if you would make it back but wasn’t afraid because we knew if we kept the faith and supported him through it he would make it back home to us and he did he even did the reserves after he got out of active duty him and my knees both where in the Navy I’m proud of the both of them and I’m glad that they served this country well I had a desire to go into the service but did not make it because other plans were made instead.

Enjoy the rest of your holiday

He is back home yay

My grandson is back home with my daughter I am so happy for her having him back she kept her cool kept doing the work and it paid off.

I tried to share my good news to my narcissistic husband (big mistake) he took my news and turned it into a whole conversation about him and how bad women are 🙃😒🙄 I just kept saying geeze I’m sure sorry I even told you because you can never just celebrate with me it always has to go into something about you.

He says that by me saying that I made the whole conversation about me I told him at this point I’m getting off the phone with you because I refuse to be your punching bag any more (verbally of course) and I hung up the phone he kept calling me back saying because he pays the phone bill I don’t have a right to get off the phone he is a classic Libra for real with his entitlement attitude he has all the time this crazy.

He lives in his karma and it doesn’t let up because of the way he treats everyone especially me I try to talk to him but he will tell me I’m karma which is not true because I don’t treat people bad or use people for personal gain I don’t have a, you do for me and I’ll do for you attitude, because that’s not a positive way to be. I believe it’s you do unto others as you would have them do unto you, but he doesn’t believe that he believes if they do for him he will do for them he always has to be getting something in return no matter what and that selfish.

He says I’m a narcissist

I was having a conversation with husband last night and he told me I was a narcissist and that I think about myself always first it’s crazy. Because I always put other people first I have been told that to many times.

When I got with him his very first statement out of his mouth was he comes first he is always first place so from that point on I realized that (with him) I have to put myself first cause he will never look out for my best interest.

Then I find out he feels men need more then one women to be happy and that he feels this is biblical it’s crazy especially when he has never read the Bible. I was taught to follow the man that follows God how do I follow someone who is clearly the opposite of a godly man that will lead me to clearly to destruction do I ignore my morals and go with the flow or do I keep praying that he finds his way.

I know I’m not a narcissist and I definitely know he is and the way I am with him is a direct result of his treatment of me over time. I just hope he finds his way before it’s too late and he finds himself in a problem he can’t get out of. Anyway good morning guys have a wonderful Wednesday.

Backwards can not go forward

I have always been the person to listen to each and every person’s feelings and hear their heart’s desire. It’s one of those things that made me the person everyone found easy to talk to or even if I was in line at the store I’m that person that the person in line all of a sudden feels this undeniable urge to start a conversation with because my aura made him/her feel connected.

When I got with my now mate I saw something in him that was so different that I could not help but take a closer look at him. I first thought he was really crazy because he saw the world so different in my mind completely dyslexic but he was strong and smart with a severe hatred for women and was really open about it. I just figured he had been really hurt by women so this was he way of dealing with it no matter how he felt about them he would not ever feel that way about me. Because I was different from all of them. One thing I have learned is if someone is going to be angry about small things they are going to really blow up over big things. Now 6 years in and he is still as angry 😡 as he was when I met him and I realized I can’t make someone be free if they want to be bound I have to free myself and show him how it looks to not dwell on the past.

I choose to continue to move forward and be happy and not let his attitude or behavior make me unhappy because I am responsible for my own happiness even if that means having side friendships to make my life better and productive.