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Being a servant.

On By L Corelle GreenIn adventure, black family, family, travelLeave a comment

What experiences in life helped you grow the most?

As a child. I was taught. To do as I was told. The always. Listen to those older than me. And not be. Obstinate or. Two verbally aggressive. Always respect my elders. And do. Whatever is necessary. To stay out of the way. In some ways, that was. A promising aspect of my life. But in other ways. It led to obedience. Without. Really taking into account what was going on. Such as? If someone was taking advantage of me. Or. Hurting me. I didn’t know the difference. Between being taken advantage of or. Doing as I was told to be a good girl. I was just. Doing blind obedience. In order to. Be pleasing and not be in the way. This led to a lot of. Unexpected abuse. Because I wanted to be. That. Good person and that obedient person who did not want to be. The one who was considered difficult. Even if it ended up hurting me in the end. I still. Wanted to make sure I did. What? Society would consider the right thing. Even when it seemed and felt like the wrong thing. At the end of the day. I learned a lot from the years experiences. Because. I now know blind obedience. Causes more harm than good. And it doesn’t help anyone. It just makes everyone involved miserable. So it’s always best to ask questions. Get involved in the process. And. When something doesn’t feel right. Stop it. Right then. No matter what. You can always rebound. You can’t go back. So these are the lessons that I have learned. Over time in life. And I’m glad that I’ve learned them

Happy 2023

On By L Corelle GreenIn adventure, black family, family, Happy New Year, holiday season, making money, narcissist, New Year's Eve, People, Relationships, self love, travel, weight loss journeyLeave a comment

This year started out pretty slow. I wanted to be up to bring in the new year next to the man I wanted to spend the year with so as I was sitting there and the hours were passing by I decided to get up and go into the den to try to be next to him to watch whatever he was watching on TV and when I got to the door, he stopped me. And said, what are you doing? I said I’m coming in here with you so that we can bring in the year together. He said it’s not midnight, so go back and do whatever you was doing. I shouldn’t have let that bother me, but for some reason it did, and I decided to go lay down and get back up at midnight. I didn’t wake back up until around four in the morning. I had missed everything. I was so disappointed in myself and that fact. It started to paste of the new year letting me know this was going to be another lonely year, and I hate that fact that at least I’ve made some friends that I am going to capitalize on so even if I won’t be spending time with him, I will be spending time with them. Happy New Year y’all

My daughter’s birthday

On By L Corelle GreenIn adventure, black family, Black Friday, family, Happy birthday, holiday season, making money, My Birthday, People, Relationships, self love, travel, weight loss journeyLeave a comment

Today my youngest child turned 23. I am very happy that she has lived a whole Nother year. I am very proud of her and glad that she has done such a great job at surviving this long. I pray that the next year will be a great adventure for her full of great blessings and gifts, and welcome to potential that she will see nothing but goodness and treasure coming her way she is a blessing to be on this earth, and I love her very much. She makes my life happy and want to be encouraged about. I’m hoping to see her more and contribute to her happiness like my mom contributed to mine happy birthday my beautiful daughter. I love you. Lexys

Take time to love folks

On By L Corelle GreenIn adventure, black family, Black Friday, family, making money, People, Relationships, self love, travel, voting, weight loss journeyLeave a comment

I have been struggling the last few days hating the thought of living with regret I moved from New Jersey when I was younger almost 12 and at that time I was really afraid that I (we) would never see our family that I loved so dearly back there and I would have nightmares about it for years cause I thought I would forget them I never went back out there for many many years. Lost so many loved ones over the past 25 years it’s crazy I don’t want to miss any more time with my family I want an am making plans to see y’all at least 3 times a year. I want my grandkids to meet all of you while they are little so that they can grow up loving their family I voted and I’m starting a new diet regimen let y’all know what comes of it

My sisters birthday

On By L Corelle GreenIn adventure, black family, Black Friday, family, making money, People, Relationships, self love, weight loss journeyLeave a comment

This is my last week here in California today is my sister‘s birthday happy birthday Lynette I hope you had a fantastic birthday I have completely enjoyed myself being able to get out and about travel around see things in California that are going on around here and riding the bus and train everywhere I will enjoy my time visiting with my mom my niece I even got to see my nephew Justin while I was out here so I feel good now I’m heading back to Florida it’s been a good day next year will be even better good night. Plus I’ve lost some weight I’ll be on a plane Friday night

In California Dreaming

On By L Corelle GreenIn adventure, black family, family, Polyamory relationships, Relationships, self love, travel, weight loss journeyLeave a comment

I have been in California for almost a month now and I have accomplished most of the things I have come to do except for one thing and that’s the most important thing I came to do I’m constantly thinking of different ways to get it done but still have not done it yet. My frustration is overwhelming and I feel like I am close but not there yet. It has been a very productive month but I really need my income to come through that’s my goal and I must lose this weight as well it’s been slow and steady I am working on it every day continuously anyway I met someone who I think is going to be a good match for me also very excited about this person as well keeping positive vibes up to bring in this new person happy Monday

Going to California

On By L Corelle GreenIn abusive partner, adventure, black family, family, Juneteenth, narcissist, Relationships, self love, travel, weight loss journeyLeave a comment

I’m going home in a few weeks I haven’t been back there in 5 years and I’m excited to go it’s one of those things where I know I’m going to be around people like me and I will have time to feel like myself and have people who love me for me and the excitement is overwhelming. While at the same time I feel a sadness that I’m leaving my stuff here with someone who doesn’t cherish the things that I cherish not knowing if the things that I love will be here when I get back because of his arrogance and I don’t care attitude even though I know I wouldn’t do that to him he would do that to me and I feel angry and scared all at the same time because these are the things that I didn’t want to lose that I’ve taken with me everywhere that I went. I am very happy to be going around people that celebrate each other where I won’t have to see another birthday alone this year and I will be able to visit friends who like having people over just so many things to do that make life worthwhile I can’t wait to go most of all to get away from here and be in a good happy environment for once without someone who is pessimistic about everything and never has a kind word to say about anyone especially women because he’s bitter and narcissistic on the Covert side due to lack of nurturing I no longer take the blame for that or even care life is to short to live unhappy with someone who is supposed to love me but puts me last at every turn I’m worth more than green that’s just my name anyway happy Juneteenth

My husband got out of the hospital

On By L Corelle GreenIn abusive partner, black family, family, narcissist, Relationships, self love, travel, weight loss journeyLeave a comment

It had been a week and he was still not doing well when I called 911 for him he had scared me and I wasn’t going to lose him. He was talking crazy but he was alive, I couldn’t put my finger on it and I didn’t know how to cope with it but I knew he wasn’t ready to go home in a short amount of time he was putting his affairs in order telling me what to do and how I would be able to sustain myself after he was gone and that was not rational to me him being in his 40s we have a whole life to live and I kept telling him that but he wasn’t trying to hear me he just kept saying let him go. When they finally got him to a point where he was starting to get of sound mind he began to blame me for keeping him there and that hurt even worse because when I care about somebody their life is the most important thing to me and their survival is paramount to everything else. I would never want anything to happen to him despite his treatment of people or me I still want him around because everybody deserves every chance until that last chance is given now I feel like an outsider because I wanted to check on him and was told they will see if he’s up for company (While staying at a non-immediate family members house) when I’m his wife now I’m a part of everybody else amazing that really hurts when I am the one that got him to the hospital it’s crazy if I’m only the tables were turned.

A day missed

On By L Corelle GreenIn abusive partner, adventure, family, making money, narcissist, Polyamory relationships, Relationships, self love, Spring break, weight loss journeyLeave a comment

I was so active yesterday that I didn’t realize how much that was going to effect my body today I usually have the same routine. But when I get up this morning I was so tired that I couldn’t function or move so I kept saying a few more minutes that turned into a few hours and missed appointments.

I still ended up going food shopping but was even more exhausted after that been trying to get my spring cleaning done but it’s like this house has never ending work to do and it is really overwhelming I don’t want to give up though just wish I had friends to join in it would be different but I don’t have someone like that. Anyway happy Wednesday

Valentines Day love

On By L Corelle GreenIn adventure, family, Relationships, Valentine’s DayLeave a comment

Today I got love from a complete stranger she gave me a box of candy one of my students it was a sweet gesture and I really appreciate it I was surprised and delighted all at the same time

My husband got me flowers and I bought him a valentine box of fireball I didn’t think he was going to get me anything because he has this philosophy if he pays all the bills that’s a gift in itself I explain to him why if you have someone who’s there for you loves you and does special things for you why that is not a gift and there’s nothing wrong with doing something special for someoneMy husband got me flowers and I bought him a valentine box of fireball I didn’t think he was going to get me anything because he has this philosophy if he pays all the bills that’s a gift in itself I explain to him why if you have someone who’s there for you loves you and does special things for you why that is not a gift and there’s nothing wrong with doing something special for someone you love this is why I was really surprised when he got me flowers but I’m also grateful happy Valentine’s Day everyone