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I was 18 years old and:

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When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)?

I was always a homebody and my mom always told us to be in the house by dark when we were little. One thing you never wanted to hear is her calling your name ever or you were in big trouble. When we got older she got more lenient and we could stay out a little later like 9 or 9:30 unless we were going to church or something then there was no time limit cause church was like a marathon. This one Wednesday night I had just turned 18 in September I was feeling so big and grownup like I could do anything I wanted to I had met this man who was pursuing me really hard I invited him to church and he came my naïve behind thinking he is really into me this lying 35 claiming he is 22 then 28 years old man had my 17 then 18 years old nose wide open. I got out of church and me being all grown now was going to walk home with him at night it was a great walk even if it cast me my senior activities due to the child that came from me being so damn grown. You live and you learn.

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What happened to society?

On By L Corelle GreenIn abusive partner, adventure, black family, family, food, inconsiderate,, making money, narcissist, self love, throwback Thursday, travel, voting, weight loss journey, Women2 Comments

I sometimes wonder what happened to society I was reading a post about a person who went into a fast food restaurant to get something to eat not inside through the drive-through and they ordered some nuggets because they had a deal going on you order the 10 or 20 piece and you’ll get it a free fry with it small or large so she got a large and matter fact she got two free large fries with it. She told them the kind of sauces that she wanted for the nuggets and when I’m through the line she paid for it before she got there cause she ordered it online, the app since everything is done by app these days, but as she got through the line paid for her stuff left got home she realized that not only has she not gotten the kind of nuggets that she ordered. She didn’t even get any sauce for the nuggets as she thought about that, she just kept thinking how society is always complaining about wages and pay and how people don’t get a living wage and she just kept thinking how the government keeps lifting wages to make life easier but when she needs something and she goes to get simple things like the food that she wants to eat from a simple fast food restaurant Who is now going to be making $15-$20 an hour she can’t even get her order correct even though she’s putting so much time to learn what she’s learned at the job that she does that she hast to get correct or someone’s life could be in danger or someone’s Family could be hurt if she gets it wrong and she thinks about how all of these people don’t take their career and live seriously but they always take their pay seriously but they don’t put in the effort. It is when it comes time to go towards that future, they just want society to feel sorry for them and give them a leg up And then she wanders why are we as a society OK with that? Why are we always so willing to give give give instead of challenging people to do better with their self and their goals in life when will we start letting them know that if you want better, you need to do better you can’t expect a hand out all the time and still think that you deserve everything that other people have worked really hard for you can’t become an overnight sensation when you’ve only practice one Time, you want become a superstar singer if you only sang in the bathroom, so that record deal will not be coming your way you won’t be the lead cook at a restaurant if your favorite dish is cereal us as a society have got to begin to stand up for the things that we have worked hard for and stop letting people jump in and demand what they have not earned because it’s not fair to each and everyone of us and it’s definitely not OK when we keep getting the wrong stuff for what we paid for that was just an observation. Have a great evening.

The strength in numbers

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What aspects of your cultural heritage are you most proud of or interested in?

The aspects of my cultural heritage that I am most proud of is how we come together when something needs to be done, and we put our strength in our numbers and accomplish the goal that we are seeking out to accomplish. How we manage to put our differences aside and really focus on, the goal at hand to make whatever is the issue at hand to go away even if we all go our separate ways after that, we will stand together on that issue to make it a top priority to get it accomplished no matter how long it takes no matter how much it may Keep us from doing something else at that moment it is the most important thing that needs to be accomplished, and we will do any and everything to accomplish it until it is done for example, in Alabama when the man was being attacked everyone stopped what they were doing at that moment to go and Protect him. It didn’t matter what was happening around him or them. They stopped another example when they made Rosa parks get off the bus and was disrespectful to her. We stopped riding the bus and it took over a year, but we persisted to make it happen, so that they would give us equal rights to ride the bus freely and fairly another example is when we want it to be able to vote we stopped, allowing them to treat us any other kind of way, and we’ve been together to accomplish, making it a nationwide goal to not work with anything they have going on to make it happen every time when it’s something that we all want we will stand together to make it happen that is something that I love about my culture. We still are that way just in a different way now, and I appreciate that inner strength that we have to do that in order to accomplish the goal of having us matter things like that or what keeps us moving forward And all of us working together we still have a long way to go, but I do appreciate that about my culture, even though it takes an immense strength and something major to happen for us to do that the fact that we will do it I love it about us And I appreciate my culture for it

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It’s not exactly mine, but

On By L Corelle GreenIn cooking fails, family, food, making money, My Birthday, narcissist, People, Relationships, self love, travel, weight loss journey, WomenLeave a comment

Write about your most epic baking or cooking fail.

I love to cook one of my favorite things to make at holiday time is macaroni and cheese made from scratch. I made some macaroni and cheese for my husband to show him that I knew how to make it and instead of him, just eating it before the festivities start it Around Thanksgiving he decided he was going to turn my masterpiece into one of his resounding concoctions and add it get this some marshmallows to my macaroni and cheese. I was disgusted by it and did not eat any of it. It did not turn out right it reminded me of a kid who is trying to do a experimental product in the kitchen like making, a peanut butter and pickle sandwich or a honey and mustard, peanut butter and jelly sandwich. It did not turn out well at all. After that point, I decided I would not cook for him ever again he complained and complained that I was not doing my womanly duty for him after that, I didn’t care because I felt as if he did not appreciate the things that I was doing for him And my kids were grown and gone and I did not have a reason to be slaving in the kitchen for anyone when I could just eat out or throw something quick together but I now have started trying to get back in the habit of doing cooking for a better purpose not Jess Because I want to eat anyway that is my experience with cooking for a better purpose and my purpose for cooking. That was an epic fail.

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Stupid

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If you had to give up one word that you use regularly, what would it be?

I have several conversations with a certain person during the day and as I am talking to this person, I am always saying in my mind. In my thoughts when I walk away this person is so stupid. Why do they think like this? That was stupid this is stupid. Why do they act so stupid? Why is there behavior so stupid Why do I put up with this stupid Ness of this person every other word out of my mouth when dealing with this person is always the word stupid coming out of my mouth or a certain instances coming out of my mouth about this person makes me think that I am becoming stupid from dealing with them and I keep thinking that you are a product of the company that you keep so I always try to rephrase my thoughts and cautioned myself to put a cap on what I’m about to say or do so that I do not let that word stupid come out of my mouth because I know the more that I said the more I am bringing that back into my life so that is the one word there are others, but that is the main word that I really am working on getting rid of out of my thoughts out of my mouth and out of my heart when it comes to things that happen during my daily routine.

God is life

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How important is spirituality in your life?

Spirituality is very important to me because God is life.

God has made my life worthwhile and worth living things haven’t always been easy but with him by my side, I’ve been able to get through a lot and not go over the deep end. I’ve had some very traumatic events in my life. I didn’t know what was coming next or what to do, but my faith and my belief kept me going. There’s so much more I could say, but I want him with this God is everything..

Rising cost

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Today I went into the store Walmart shout out to Walmart to pick up a few things and I was doing a price check on some eggs because generally when the price isn’t there it must be an astronomical price that they don’t want you to look at just pay when you get to the counter. I asked a Walmart employee what the price was for the eggs and I figured the price that was there was incorrect because I had never seen eggs cost almost $16. The employee came over to me and he told me that the price was correct so I asked him what was the price of the pack that was right below that 60 pack of eggs and he went on to tell me that I should blame the Biden administration for the price of the eggs I sat there and I thought why would I blame Biden for eggs why not blame you. Because your salary is $15.09 an hour so prices would have to go up in order to pay your salary why would I blame the government when it would be a wiser deduction to stay at home and blame what’s right here if I’m going to lay blame. But I let him go on and talk without uttering a word. He said there are all these people in office but none of them know how to run a country as if he was someone who knew about how to run a whole government or knew anything above a checkers profession it baffled me and it also made me think people are so quick to put blame on others instead of taking responsibility for their own actions I for one am guilty of that myself I am learning every day how to take accountability for what I do and not put the blame on others that is the right way to be. I don’t blame the president for the Senate or the House of Representatives they get the blame for their own actions. What President Biden and Vice President Harris does they take responsibility for no one else and I would not add to their plate by being arrogant or unjustly blaming them for stuff that is not their fault they might not be strong but they are also not weak and I support them. Enjoy the rest of your day happy Thursday!!!

Going to California

On By L Corelle GreenIn abusive partner, adventure, black family, family, Juneteenth, narcissist, Relationships, self love, travel, weight loss journeyLeave a comment

I’m going home in a few weeks I haven’t been back there in 5 years and I’m excited to go it’s one of those things where I know I’m going to be around people like me and I will have time to feel like myself and have people who love me for me and the excitement is overwhelming. While at the same time I feel a sadness that I’m leaving my stuff here with someone who doesn’t cherish the things that I cherish not knowing if the things that I love will be here when I get back because of his arrogance and I don’t care attitude even though I know I wouldn’t do that to him he would do that to me and I feel angry and scared all at the same time because these are the things that I didn’t want to lose that I’ve taken with me everywhere that I went. I am very happy to be going around people that celebrate each other where I won’t have to see another birthday alone this year and I will be able to visit friends who like having people over just so many things to do that make life worthwhile I can’t wait to go most of all to get away from here and be in a good happy environment for once without someone who is pessimistic about everything and never has a kind word to say about anyone especially women because he’s bitter and narcissistic on the Covert side due to lack of nurturing I no longer take the blame for that or even care life is to short to live unhappy with someone who is supposed to love me but puts me last at every turn I’m worth more than green that’s just my name anyway happy Juneteenth

Lil Durk concert

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Today I’m at a lil Durk concert because I won tickets it’s nothing more telling then when you win something and have no one to share it with so I came alone but I’m still happy to be here because I know good still comes to me even with out anyone else no matter how much they say I’m not favored I still am and it shows every day of my life anyway happy Tuesday.

A day missed

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I was so active yesterday that I didn’t realize how much that was going to effect my body today I usually have the same routine. But when I get up this morning I was so tired that I couldn’t function or move so I kept saying a few more minutes that turned into a few hours and missed appointments.

I still ended up going food shopping but was even more exhausted after that been trying to get my spring cleaning done but it’s like this house has never ending work to do and it is really overwhelming I don’t want to give up though just wish I had friends to join in it would be different but I don’t have someone like that. Anyway happy Wednesday