Describe your dream chocolate bar.
My dream chocolate bar would be dark chocolate with maca root, horny goat weed & sea moss with a hint of banana & purple haze sweetened with agave nectar this is my dream chocolate bar. What is yours? Happy throwback Thursday.
I have been in California for almost a month now and I have accomplished most of the things I have come to do except for one thing and that’s the most important thing I came to do I’m constantly thinking of different ways to get it done but still have not done it yet. My frustration is overwhelming and I feel like I am close but not there yet. It has been a very productive month but I really need my income to come through that’s my goal and I must lose this weight as well it’s been slow and steady I am working on it every day continuously anyway I met someone who I think is going to be a good match for me also very excited about this person as well keeping positive vibes up to bring in this new person happy Monday
Today I’m at a lil Durk concert because I won tickets it’s nothing more telling then when you win something and have no one to share it with so I came alone but I’m still happy to be here because I know good still comes to me even with out anyone else no matter how much they say I’m not favored I still am and it shows every day of my life anyway happy Tuesday.
It had been a week and he was still not doing well when I called 911 for him he had scared me and I wasn’t going to lose him. He was talking crazy but he was alive, I couldn’t put my finger on it and I didn’t know how to cope with it but I knew he wasn’t ready to go home in a short amount of time he was putting his affairs in order telling me what to do and how I would be able to sustain myself after he was gone and that was not rational to me him being in his 40s we have a whole life to live and I kept telling him that but he wasn’t trying to hear me he just kept saying let him go. When they finally got him to a point where he was starting to get of sound mind he began to blame me for keeping him there and that hurt even worse because when I care about somebody their life is the most important thing to me and their survival is paramount to everything else. I would never want anything to happen to him despite his treatment of people or me I still want him around because everybody deserves every chance until that last chance is given now I feel like an outsider because I wanted to check on him and was told they will see if he’s up for company (While staying at a non-immediate family members house) when I’m his wife now I’m a part of everybody else amazing that really hurts when I am the one that got him to the hospital it’s crazy if I’m only the tables were turned.
I was so active yesterday that I didn’t realize how much that was going to effect my body today I usually have the same routine. But when I get up this morning I was so tired that I couldn’t function or move so I kept saying a few more minutes that turned into a few hours and missed appointments.
I still ended up going food shopping but was even more exhausted after that been trying to get my spring cleaning done but it’s like this house has never ending work to do and it is really overwhelming I don’t want to give up though just wish I had friends to join in it would be different but I don’t have someone like that. Anyway happy Wednesday
What I plan to do for spring break is organize plan and make new provisions for this house and hang out with friends it will be a relaxing time for me and a time to replenish rethink and re-strategize while thinking of new ways to make money I have a few things in the works but I’m going to continue to look for new ways to add to those things to bring in new streams of income. While still working on my weight and working on my house. 
This rain is relentless it makes the day seem really dreary but it is much needed I just hate having to go out in it because it’s so uncomfortable and I have to jump in the shower a lot in order to keep myself calm and comfortable it’s a real pain happy Friday everyone.
I was up late last night trying to find new friends and enjoy my night when my husband begins to tell me to go to bed like I’m a child he tells me to chill out cause I was laughing at some of the conversations I was having with my friends on my computer to the point that he came to see who I was talking to and demanding that I stop being happy and go to bed saying I would have to get up early when that was not true. When I told him that he began to hit me over and over again and yell at me for no reason like what I was doing was so terrible then he took my things away (my phone, computer, and pad and told me my things were not mine which was crazy I was so upset I was crying and couldn’t think straight as he kept demanding that I listen to him or he would hurt me again he kept forcing me to drink and telling me how much he doesn’t care about how I feel it was so disrespectful and disheartening but I made it through he will get his soon enough.
Over the last few days I’ve been feeling under the weather. Because the boy I keep from time to time I tell him all the time to cover his mouth when he sneezes and I take my vitamins and try to make sure I keep myself healthy as possible but it’s hard when someone doesn’t take accountability for what they’re doing around you. I also work in the schools and a lot of times the kids have runny noses coughs and all kinds of unsavory health issues that they don’t want to take care of. These things over time can affect everyone’s health around them. The last time I was in the school there was a child who was really sick this child began to throw up and was just not feeling the best at all. I really felt bad for the child it’s hard to not feel good and to have to deal with it. One good thing that came out of today was I got to talk to my daughter and my cute as a button grandson who kept talking and giggling to me in his baby language that was a highlight of my day other than talking to my husband who is always full of unconventional knowledge and different aspects of life sometimes hard to take in
Anyway I have been having a headache a runny nose and my stomach has been bothering me for the last couple of days and I’ve been trying to work through it but I’m still not feeling the best I’m hoping that I will get better soon. Because feeling sick is the worst thing in the world to me. I’m hoping to feel better so I can work tomorrow I don’t want to be sick at work anyway, I hope you all are having a wonderful day or at least the better day than me happy Monday.
I got a bonus today I am a true believer that if I take one step forward the universe will take 10. I have always believed that if I always put positive vibes out I will get positive vibes and actions back as well as be favored there’s nothing that I have put my best foot forward on and not seen a great outcome on in my life which is why I always say favor ain’t fair!
Then I got bad news my daughter broke her foot while walking her dog I hate it when they are hurting in any case it’s like I always know when something is wrong I wake up in the middle of the night and can’t go back to sleep then the child affected comes to mind and I can’t shake the feeling that something is going on with them and I will immediately begin to talk to them until I feel the problem is rectified then I can rest. I’m so glad it was just a broken foot because I am a person who doesn’t handle trauma well and loss even worse.
This week had it’s ups and downs but for the most part I’m really glad I made it through and I hope you all are glad you did too. I’m doing good on my weight loss journey as well I was able to put on some stretch pants that I couldn’t fit some time ago and they fit me good and I looked good in them talk about happy but I’m not stopping until I reach my goal. It’s my niece birthday party today I’m so happy for her she is so smart and beautiful I love her Enjoy the rest of your Saturday.
When there is a lot of passion in your relationship you can get past some really hard spots. The most important parts of a relationship is communication, passion, trust, dependability, and mutual respect. These things show us how to love each other because love is an action word.
We can’t say we love someone and don’t do any of these things to verify the action of what we are saying. Passion is important in any relationship and needs to stay active and present. Happy TBT
The struggle is now not forever 