Happy Saturday today I am out and about trying to find creative ways to bring in extra money since it’s needed to keep our lives moving forward the possibilities are endless and I definitely plan to make the most of it because I am naturally a money maker especially when I put my mind to it so let the games begin.
Good day today I did my running around and some things accomplished I am always thinking about how to make my life a little better I honestly want a miniature Pinscher to be here with me my husband is always getting big dogs that I can’t do anything with because they are to hard to handle for me.
I use to have a Chihuahua he was a feisty little dog a very protective always enjoyed my time with him he lived to be 13 he was my companion my buddy we walk together did things he was always so independent I miss him every day.
He wasn’t my dog his daughter was I named her Cece she would run so fast and especially if it was a motorcycle she would go after it that’s what ended up happening to her she ran after car and ended up getting hit I miss her too. I have them both from puppies and watch them grow up when I had the best family. So that’s my throwback Thursday story enjoy the rest of your evenings.
I was having a conversation with husband last night and he told me I was a narcissist and that I think about myself always first it’s crazy. Because I always put other people first I have been told that to many times.
When I got with him his very first statement out of his mouth was he comes first he is always first place so from that point on I realized that (with him) I have to put myself first cause he will never look out for my best interest.
Then I find out he feels men need more then one women to be happy and that he feels this is biblical it’s crazy especially when he has never read the Bible. I was taught to follow the man that follows God how do I follow someone who is clearly the opposite of a godly man that will lead me to clearly to destruction do I ignore my morals and go with the flow or do I keep praying that he finds his way.
I know I’m not a narcissist and I definitely know he is and the way I am with him is a direct result of his treatment of me over time. I just hope he finds his way before it’s too late and he finds himself in a problem he can’t get out of. Anyway good morning guys have a wonderful Wednesday.
Today is the first day of my workout I’m focused on my stomach area I’ve been working on my stomach area for years lol it has been the bane of my existence ever since my first C-section that pouch at the bottom of my stomach I have not been able to get rid of ever since then. My children are well grown now and I’m still working on getting rid of that couch I have thought about liposuction and taking fat burners eaten all kinds of healthy foods and steal that stomach is still sitting there I don’t know what else to try I even did the keto diet
I’m always the one trying to be as healthy as possible but nothing seems to work for me I think it has something to do with my thyroid problem and the fact that my knees are bad but I still keep trying. i’m always working at building myself up so that I can be here for the long-haul that’s important to me because I haven’t always wanted to be here for a long period of time there were some times when I was in a really dark place and I didn’t even want to live.
But I’m happy now that I’m doing better and feeling better and wanting more out of life even if it seems I’m not where I want to be I’m getting there and I’m working at getting better and that’s what’s important no matter what’s happening around me me being here is enough enjoy the rest of you guises day
I have always been the person to listen to each and every person’s feelings and hear their heart’s desire. It’s one of those things that made me the person everyone found easy to talk to or even if I was in line at the store I’m that person that the person in line all of a sudden feels this undeniable urge to start a conversation with because my aura made him/her feel connected.
When I got with my now mate I saw something in him that was so different that I could not help but take a closer look at him. I first thought he was really crazy because he saw the world so different in my mind completely dyslexic but he was strong and smart with a severe hatred for women and was really open about it. I just figured he had been really hurt by women so this was he way of dealing with it no matter how he felt about them he would not ever feel that way about me. Because I was different from all of them. One thing I have learned is if someone is going to be angry about small things they are going to really blow up over big things. Now 6 years in and he is still as angry 😡 as he was when I met him and I realized I can’t make someone be free if they want to be bound I have to free myself and show him how it looks to not dwell on the past.
I choose to continue to move forward and be happy and not let his attitude or behavior make me unhappy because I am responsible for my own happiness even if that means having side friendships to make my life better and productive.
The struggle is now not forever 