Unexpected visitors

Today I had a pretty long day I was really tired and drained from dealing with very creative excited and overzealous 4th graders so by the time I was leaving the school I was exhausted. But that didn’t stop me from still leaving there to come home to a bright and happy face that I was glad to see.

When I left the school I had to do my usual routine picking up my charge and then heading to the house when I got here that bright smile greeted me at my gate I couldn’t do anything but cheese from ear-to-ear it was my youngest daughter I was really really happy to see her she had brought her two Siberian Huskies beautiful dogs and in tow she had my 6 month old grandson and her handsome boyfriend

I couldn’t do anything but smile because this was my first time holding touching kissing my grandbaby and the dogs were so friendly and pretty a boy and a girl I was really happy to have them here anyway that was the joy of my day good night.

Me and my grandson

I lost weight yay

I am so proud of my progress this last month because I have been putting my best foot forward to losing weight and have lost a total of 11 pounds so far just by being consistent I’m working at it consistently I am so proud of what I have done my doctor gave me encouragement today to keep it up and keep working at it. My iron levels have went up and I have been able to feel better on top of everything else this has made me very proud of myself.

I will not stop until I have accomplished my goal of losing my total hundred pounds that I have been working toward losing this is very important to me and I am not giving up until it is accomplished. Happy Tuesday everyone my journey is not over but it is going smoothly so far. On a brighter note my daughter is coming to see me I’m very happy about that as well I will hopefully get to meet my grandson for the first time face to face this is great news for me I miss them so much.

There’s something great about family around the holiday season that is so important to me that I want to be able to love on them very much.

Starting a new job

My passion is small children because they learn so much so quickly the different stages of life are so new to them and when they’re really small everything they experience is an adventure to them it is so wonderful to watch them explore and learn and create the world around them that they will be a part of for a lifetime. This is one of the reasons why I became a teacher in order to teach them and show them how great the world around them is and help them develop a love for learning.

I love learning and every aspect of it the kids in primary School can be challenging at times. I still believe they are wonderful and special every last one of them they have so much to offer the world and I am always in awe by them especially when I see them putting their best foot forward and excited about learning. Today was a good day a few challenges but overall a good day.

Wouldn’t change my profession for the world would love to take up psychology though to understand the human mind a little bit better. I’m also happy that I’m working in the field that I’m happiest in and that I feel worthwhile while doing it I am manifesting something that is moving me forward.

Enjoy your life no matter what

Life together is always fun

Happy Saturday today I am out and about trying to find creative ways to bring in extra money since it’s needed to keep our lives moving forward the possibilities are endless and I definitely plan to make the most of it because I am naturally a money maker especially when I put my mind to it so let the games begin.

Going to Workout today

Today I woke up early and couldn’t go back to sleep my body is conditioned to waking up at a certain hours so it’s really impossible for me to go back to sleep after that. I try to lay there but I feel this nervous energy and can’t stay laying down or else I will get a headache it’s as if I’m meant to do something that I am compelled to do that I still have not found out what that is yet.

I am going to the YMCA today to start my summer fitness program to help me get on track with my weight transformation I’ll keep you guys posted on my progress I’m really looking for a workout partner to hold me accountable during this time and celebrate the little victories with me.

This year has has had it’s set of challenges but for the most part I am still seeing change coming my way every day and it’s in a positive way. Either by the karma I see going on to someone who has not shown me the love and care I deserve or by the winning spree I have been on this year. The best part is I see great experiences coming that will be even better than what has happened already. The best it yet to come and I’m excited to see it in action. Happy Hump day everyone! Keep your head up and never give up.

Still in this everyday

I struggle everyday to get up and go I suffer from depression and anxiety and it’s hard for me to function in the world some days are harder than others I wonder why I’m still here and other days I have crazy bursts of energy where I want to go and go and go and not stop. I can’t remember the last time I slept through the night.

It doesn’t help that I spent an enormous amount of time alone without a lot of friends out here in Florida things are different out here. The best place I can remember is my street in Trenton New Jersey I know it’s not the same as when I was growing up but the camaraderie and the love that we all have for each other I haven’t felt or seen that anywhere else I have lived since we moved from there back in the 80s.

California was a whole different beast it was the first place we lived where you didn’t know your neighbors and everybody was very individualized it was so different but we were the same always loving supportive of whoever we was around that type of magnetic personality that made you want to be around us. I love the way my family has been throughout my life I wouldn’t be who I am today had they not been who they were as I was growing up. We did so many things together growing up traveling going places seeing stuff I’ll never forget how my mom opened us up to seeing the United States in a different light it’s a great thing when you have a parent who doesn’t mind traveling. I would have never been exposed to the things I was exposed to had my mom not done the things she’s done. I appreciate her a lot I wish I would have kept her traditions up like that conventions and the campground my kids will be different people had I done that.

I wouldn’t have been so open to moving to other states or exploring out of the country had my mom not showed me how big this world is. There are so many things that I still have to do in this world that I know that I want to do and won’t quit until I do. Have a great Tuesday. If you can travel as much as you can cause this is a big world that needs to be explored.

Florida-Georgia weekend

Yesterday was the Florida Georgia game unfortunately Florida lost by a landslide maybe next year but on a brighter note there were a million people out there some folks were selling things some folks were making money from parking some folks wear just walking around with their Florida Georgia colors and some folks were just out and about to be in the atmosphere no matter what was going on everyone was enjoying themselves and enjoying the atmosphere out and about.

I didn’t go outside until late maybe around 5 p.m. because I was doing some stuff in the house but when I finally went outside that atmosphere was electric and it made me desire to walk and experience it I added a video as I walked around to look and see what was happening it was just so nice out the weather was nice everyone was just chilling and enjoying the camaraderie of everything happening. It was a great experience one of those things that you just want to experience again and again.

I think I will make the Florida-Georgia weekend a tradition for me because the experience is one that is really great I’m hoping next year I will experience it with someone who is wonderful to walk around with and chill with. Happy Sunday!

He is back home yay

My grandson is back home with my daughter I am so happy for her having him back she kept her cool kept doing the work and it paid off.

I tried to share my good news to my narcissistic husband (big mistake) he took my news and turned it into a whole conversation about him and how bad women are 🙃😒🙄 I just kept saying geeze I’m sure sorry I even told you because you can never just celebrate with me it always has to go into something about you.

He says that by me saying that I made the whole conversation about me I told him at this point I’m getting off the phone with you because I refuse to be your punching bag any more (verbally of course) and I hung up the phone he kept calling me back saying because he pays the phone bill I don’t have a right to get off the phone he is a classic Libra for real with his entitlement attitude he has all the time this crazy.

He lives in his karma and it doesn’t let up because of the way he treats everyone especially me I try to talk to him but he will tell me I’m karma which is not true because I don’t treat people bad or use people for personal gain I don’t have a, you do for me and I’ll do for you attitude, because that’s not a positive way to be. I believe it’s you do unto others as you would have them do unto you, but he doesn’t believe that he believes if they do for him he will do for them he always has to be getting something in return no matter what and that selfish.

He says I’m a narcissist

I was having a conversation with husband last night and he told me I was a narcissist and that I think about myself always first it’s crazy. Because I always put other people first I have been told that to many times.

When I got with him his very first statement out of his mouth was he comes first he is always first place so from that point on I realized that (with him) I have to put myself first cause he will never look out for my best interest.

Then I find out he feels men need more then one women to be happy and that he feels this is biblical it’s crazy especially when he has never read the Bible. I was taught to follow the man that follows God how do I follow someone who is clearly the opposite of a godly man that will lead me to clearly to destruction do I ignore my morals and go with the flow or do I keep praying that he finds his way.

I know I’m not a narcissist and I definitely know he is and the way I am with him is a direct result of his treatment of me over time. I just hope he finds his way before it’s too late and he finds himself in a problem he can’t get out of. Anyway good morning guys have a wonderful Wednesday.