Tag: Women

He is back home yay

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, narcissist, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

My grandson is back home with my daughter I am so happy for her having him back she kept her cool kept doing the work and it paid off.

I tried to share my good news to my narcissistic husband (big mistake) he took my news and turned it into a whole conversation about him and how bad women are 🙃😒🙄 I just kept saying geeze I’m sure sorry I even told you because you can never just celebrate with me it always has to go into something about you.

He says that by me saying that I made the whole conversation about me I told him at this point I’m getting off the phone with you because I refuse to be your punching bag any more (verbally of course) and I hung up the phone he kept calling me back saying because he pays the phone bill I don’t have a right to get off the phone he is a classic Libra for real with his entitlement attitude he has all the time this crazy.

He lives in his karma and it doesn’t let up because of the way he treats everyone especially me I try to talk to him but he will tell me I’m karma which is not true because I don’t treat people bad or use people for personal gain I don’t have a, you do for me and I’ll do for you attitude, because that’s not a positive way to be. I believe it’s you do unto others as you would have them do unto you, but he doesn’t believe that he believes if they do for him he will do for them he always has to be getting something in return no matter what and that selfish.

He says I’m a narcissist

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

I was having a conversation with husband last night and he told me I was a narcissist and that I think about myself always first it’s crazy. Because I always put other people first I have been told that to many times.

When I got with him his very first statement out of his mouth was he comes first he is always first place so from that point on I realized that (with him) I have to put myself first cause he will never look out for my best interest.

Then I find out he feels men need more then one women to be happy and that he feels this is biblical it’s crazy especially when he has never read the Bible. I was taught to follow the man that follows God how do I follow someone who is clearly the opposite of a godly man that will lead me to clearly to destruction do I ignore my morals and go with the flow or do I keep praying that he finds his way.

I know I’m not a narcissist and I definitely know he is and the way I am with him is a direct result of his treatment of me over time. I just hope he finds his way before it’s too late and he finds himself in a problem he can’t get out of. Anyway good morning guys have a wonderful Wednesday.

Tuesday WOW

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

I was almost hit by a van that ran a stop sign today. I had quick refluxes and turned my car so fast and drove forward to make sure there was room between me and that car. My heart almost jumped out my chest.

I don’t have many instances like that but this one made me think about how things can change in an instant I’m really glad I was not hurt for real. On a brighter note my niece Jordyn has a birthday today I hope she has a great day.

Happy Monday

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

Today is the first day of my workout I’m focused on my stomach area I’ve been working on my stomach area for years lol it has been the bane of my existence ever since my first C-section that pouch at the bottom of my stomach I have not been able to get rid of ever since then. My children are well grown now and I’m still working on getting rid of that couch I have thought about liposuction and taking fat burners eaten all kinds of healthy foods and steal that stomach is still sitting there I don’t know what else to try I even did the keto diet

I’m always the one trying to be as healthy as possible but nothing seems to work for me I think it has something to do with my thyroid problem and the fact that my knees are bad but I still keep trying. i’m always working at building myself up so that I can be here for the long-haul that’s important to me because I haven’t always wanted to be here for a long period of time there were some times when I was in a really dark place and I didn’t even want to live.

But I’m happy now that I’m doing better and feeling better and wanting more out of life even if it seems I’m not where I want to be I’m getting there and I’m working at getting better and that’s what’s important no matter what’s happening around me me being here is enough enjoy the rest of you guises day

Sunday Vibes

On By L Corelle GreenIn family, Relationships, self loveLeave a comment

Today started out pretty good I woke up late in the morning went to pick up my meds and then came back home. To a man that always feels the things he says are simple when everything he says or ask is always a prelude to something way more sinister and taxing but he doesn’t ever see it that way so I’m always left with feelings of inadequacy or like I’ve caused a problem when I haven’t.

Then he’ll attach it to something else that has nothing to do with the subject at hand like he did me a favor by doing something when in the end he was the one that got the pleasure out of it, it’s crazy but I don’t get upset I’m used to it by I know I shouldn’t be because it’s not normal. I’m working on working through things and getting myself together so that I can be the best me possible.

I’m learning to enjoy my life even if I have to do that alone because my peace of mind is the most important to me and living my life the best way that I can is to me the best thing that I can do for myself and my family. Have a great Sunday you guys.

A victory

On By L Corelle GreenIn UncategorizedLeave a comment

Today was a good day I got out did some running around and accomplished some of my goals. The thing that I’m most happy about is that my daughter won in court I believed that she would and I had a huge amount of Faith and family support for her rooting for her to win and it happened it’s not easy when you feel all alone when everyone is far away but you know that people love you no matter what.

I’m so proud of the woman that she has become and how she’s always willing to give and be a support system for others her and her sister are always there for each other and that makes it that much better knowing that they are over there dealing with life on life’s terms with each other it makes me proud to know that I instilled some great values in them for each other.

There is nothing better than the love of family and the commitment of relationship that is there for each of us to have each other I always love family and no matter what happens in life no matter how far apart we are I always know that when push comes to shove we have each other’s back anyway that was today’s venture tomorrow will be a new one.

Backwards can not go forward

On By L Corelle GreenIn RelationshipsLeave a comment

I have always been the person to listen to each and every person’s feelings and hear their heart’s desire. It’s one of those things that made me the person everyone found easy to talk to or even if I was in line at the store I’m that person that the person in line all of a sudden feels this undeniable urge to start a conversation with because my aura made him/her feel connected.

When I got with my now mate I saw something in him that was so different that I could not help but take a closer look at him. I first thought he was really crazy because he saw the world so different in my mind completely dyslexic but he was strong and smart with a severe hatred for women and was really open about it. I just figured he had been really hurt by women so this was he way of dealing with it no matter how he felt about them he would not ever feel that way about me. Because I was different from all of them. One thing I have learned is if someone is going to be angry about small things they are going to really blow up over big things. Now 6 years in and he is still as angry 😡 as he was when I met him and I realized I can’t make someone be free if they want to be bound I have to free myself and show him how it looks to not dwell on the past.

I choose to continue to move forward and be happy and not let his attitude or behavior make me unhappy because I am responsible for my own happiness even if that means having side friendships to make my life better and productive.