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Does Truth really matter

On By L Corelle GreenIn RelationshipsLeave a comment

I was in a a relationship for over 10 years with a man I loved and hated all at the same time. I would often pray back then that God would either let him die first or end of in jail forever just so I could be free from him cause I was afraid of him but I also felt indebted to him as well. He was mentally and emotionally and physically sexually abusive not just to me but to our children I was so used to being used that I never even saw the person that he was until it was too late and I was back being that little girl who was used to being treated poorly with no way out.

I came to him with no self-esteem looking any old kind of way like a tomboy and he showed me how to drive, pay bills, get my own place, and care for my own life then he used all that to break me completely to the point where I was ready to end my own life after finding out he used my love for him to blind me to what he was doing to my children. But it is a true statement what is done ✅ in the dark will always come to the light 💡 so I guess that’s why he is in prison forever.

Which brings me to the question at hand ✍️ does truth really matter when I got with my now partner I had only one ☝️ criteria I didn’t care if he made mistakes just tell me the truth. I believe if someone has certain feelings or beliefs I should have the choice if I want to be apart of that or not don’t lie to me or about me to someone else and not let me in on this and expect me to go along with the story you told.

I am open to a poly relationship but not if me of the other person female/s don’t know about each other it’s (to me) not healthy or safe and most of all it’s not balanced no matter how people try to make it seem like it’s a great thing quality time is supposed to mean something not just words. It takes work to make a relationship succeed and the more people in that relationship the more work the dominant person which is supposed to be the man has to put in if it’s that kind of relationship. I always want to feel apart weather it be myself a woman and a man, myself and a woman or myself and a man I need to feel connected always. So tell me does the truth make relationships better or worse?

Backwards can not go forward

On By L Corelle GreenIn RelationshipsLeave a comment

I have always been the person to listen to each and every person’s feelings and hear their heart’s desire. It’s one of those things that made me the person everyone found easy to talk to or even if I was in line at the store I’m that person that the person in line all of a sudden feels this undeniable urge to start a conversation with because my aura made him/her feel connected.

When I got with my now mate I saw something in him that was so different that I could not help but take a closer look at him. I first thought he was really crazy because he saw the world so different in my mind completely dyslexic but he was strong and smart with a severe hatred for women and was really open about it. I just figured he had been really hurt by women so this was he way of dealing with it no matter how he felt about them he would not ever feel that way about me. Because I was different from all of them. One thing I have learned is if someone is going to be angry about small things they are going to really blow up over big things. Now 6 years in and he is still as angry 😡 as he was when I met him and I realized I can’t make someone be free if they want to be bound I have to free myself and show him how it looks to not dwell on the past.

I choose to continue to move forward and be happy and not let his attitude or behavior make me unhappy because I am responsible for my own happiness even if that means having side friendships to make my life better and productive.

Sunday News

On By L Corelle GreenIn UncategorizedLeave a comment

I woke up yesterday morning to the worst message I could have ever seen it said “goodbye ❤️be good” I was confused and sad but didn’t have a feeling of dread cause that would have woke me up in the middle of the night.

I struggled to understand what I was seeing and if this could really be facts I looked at all possible details and nothing said to me you have a real problem but my gut said something is really wrong though and I need reinforcements at this time. So I texted my oldest daughter she reassured all was well but my heart was still not at ease I know my kids heart no matter how tough they talk I know they heart at the end of the day and this was not like my youngest to never respond even if it was to give me attitude about bugging her. I was so stressed out about it I didn’t know what to think. I called my mom and she helped a lot. I later found out my child was okay in a manner of speaking. But that’s a story for another time I look at her and I realize I have to let her go through these struggles and pray that she comes out like I made it out but so much better then I did and sooner.

I love my children and I hope and pray that they realize life is only a drop in the bucket so they should live it to the best of their ability and enjoy every minute of it cause once it’s over it’s over no coming back ever.